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HAUT COMMISSARIAT A L'AMAZIGHITE
Mouloud FERAOUN
Mmis n igellil
Ungal
Tasuqilt si tefransist
Moussa OULD TALEB
Tazwert n Youcef MERAHI
HCA, 2004
Titre original : Le fils du pauvre ©
Tazwert Atan yewwev-ed lweqt anda temlal tasa d win turew. S tezmert d waffud n Moussa Ould Taleb, ungal n Mouloud Feraoun, ”Mmis n igellil“, yu$al ar laûel-is. Amek ? Ayen $ef wayeg d-yemmeslay wungal agi d tameddurt n weqbayli i yelêan daxel u$erbaz n uôumi, d ayen ye$ra, d ayen yevran d wamek isebbel babas taôwiêt-is i wakken mmis - Furulu a d-issukes tawacult-is si yir liêala nni deg aydeg ttidiren, d amek iwala lferq i yellan gar-as d uôumi, d amek yessawev i wakken ad yelmed tamusni s tutlayt tabeôôanit mebla ma yettu tutlayt ines tanaûlit. Mouloud Feraoun ye$ra geddac n yedlisen i d-yefkan tamu$li tucmitt $ef tmetti tazzayrit. Mi ar a nwali ayen d-uran fellane$ “les Gauthier d Raymond Martial”, a nefhem abrid n tira i yevfeô wemyaru nne$ i wakken a d-yesbin udem n tidett n t$erma n tmetti taqbaylit. Asmi i d-yessuffe$ Mouloud Feraoun ungal agi ines s iûurdiyen-is (à compte d’auteur) di “Les Cahiers du nouvel humanisme”, aîas n yemyura izzayriyen i s-yennan belli amyaru yagi iweooeh tamu$li-s ala $er temnaî n tmurt n leqbayel ; nnan-as da$en belli ungal agi yura-t bab-is i lmend n iôumyen maççi n izzayriyen. Ayagi mazal a t-id-qaren aôiva, maca Mouloud Feraoun isbeggen-ed, s tutlayt i yessen nezzeh, s yiwen u$anib d afessas, tilawt n tmetti taqbaylit. Assagi, s tsuqilt agi, Moussa Ould Taleb yefka tagnitt i yal yiwen degne$ i wakken a n$er, ne$ a neiwed ta$uri, s teqbaylit - tutlayt nne$
tayemmatt - i wungal agi “Mmis n igellil”. Tutlayt i yessexdem Ould Taleb d taqbaylit nni timserreêt, i yezmer ad yefhem yal yiwen. Yessexdem di$en kra n wawalen imaynuten (les néologismes), maca asexdem nnsen yella-d s tegzi d tiêôci n tira. D$a di tagara n wedlis, Ould Taleb yefka-d yiwen n umawal amecîuê i wakken ad ieiwen ame$ri (le lecteur). Mass Mouloud Feraoun ilul di tefsut n 1913 u yettwan$a, s ufus azegga$, l’OAS, ass n 15 mars 1962 netta d xemsa yeôfiqen-is. Yenna uqbel tamettant-is : “Zemre$ ad mmte$ ass-agi ne$ ad ttwan$e$
s ôûaû azekka. Ëûi$ belli bbi$-d aciddi deg yiwen wegdud amnayfi i yesean lhiba tameqrant ar a yeqqimen s lhiba tameqrant”.
Youcef MERAHI
Mouloud Feraoun
Ixf I
Tawacult
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Tawacult
A nxeddem $ef wiyav alma d tewser nne$, asmi a d-yawev lajel, lamana a tawev babis. Din a s-nini belli neôwa lmerta di ddunit, aîas i nettru, aîas i neswa n tmeréuga. Ahat a n$iv bab-nne$ ?
Tchekov
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Amerray mi ar a d-ikcem tamurt n Leqbayel a s-teeoeb, ur yezmir wul-is ad yeqqim d asemmav. Tamu$li ines d tin yessefôaêen, ccbaêa ines am ucewwiq yezzuzunen. £ef aya i seeeun ciîuê n leênana $ef leewayed imezda$-is. Ur yelli d zzux imi ulac tardast n tmurt ur yedhin sser, yal ti$ilt tettak acbi $er weltmas, d ccna yellan di ta i yellan di tahin. Ulac ssebba i waken ur nettaf ara di tmurt n Leqbayel ayen nnéer akkmani anda nniven. Sureft-a$ a yiêewwasen, acku tusam-d att merêem, tusam-d att kksem lxiq. Tcaxem deghabay seant t$altin nne$ akk d sser dyettqudduôen degsent. A d-takim di targit mi ar a tu$alem s ixxamen nnwen a kken teîîef tidett zdat wemnaô. Nekkni s leqbayel, neéra belli neznuzuy ccbaêa n tmurt nne$. Nêemmel win a yeffren leeyub-is s ucuffu n uqendur. Nêemmel win a$-dicekkôen, xas akken neéra tuddar nne$ $urwen ur seint ara ccan imi d-ttakent udem n tid yesqaccew laé, tugna n tid yeôwan lêif. Tizi n taddart n sin igiman imezda$. Ixxamen-is jgugglen wa deffir wa deg yiwet n ti$ilt am ye$san n wejgu n weerur n lewêuc uzermezruy : mitin lmitrat di te$zi. D ameccaq n webrid yettawin $er tuddar nniven i d azniq ines amuqran, win yessufu$ s abrid ukeôôus iôuêen $er temdinin.
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Tehri n wezniq teqqim akken deg mevqan deg i yettwaéeôôeb s leêyuv deg yiwet n tama : azal n setta i$allen. Degmi d-bennun sya u sya, ççan-as-d, dermen-d segs, kemnen-t, yettu$av di lêebs-is. Ad ikkuffer limmer ulac sya $er da, $ef yidisan-is, kra izerban issufu$en $er lexlawi. Amek i teb$iv ad tbeddev fell-as ne$ ad telêuv deg-s, wezniq yellan d azrib ? Amek a stessuv, abrid nni xaîi ? Deg unebdu, ççuôen d a$ebbaô di sin, di tegrest yugar-it deg waluv imi dttemlilin akk deg-s l$aci. £ef annect-agi da$en i yezga yumes. Ma d izerban nni ttaken acbi $ures imi d arraw-is. A nnmeyyez ger sin izerban yemqabalen, yiwen yerra $ef yeffus, wayev yerra $ef zelmev. Anda ma llan, yettim$ur wemviq-nni. Wissen d zzheô yeffren isem-is, ne$ d leb$i deg teswiet-a ur a$ tekfi ara ad tt-id-nessefru ? Akken yeb$u yili, imezwura nne$ ur bnin ara din : aqli-kken-id deg wemôaê amuqran n taddart, “Amôaê ivebbalen”, d win i d tajmaet nne$. Ulac am nettat. Adrum ufella ittasem deg-s. Zzint-as-d teslavin s-ya u s-ya isenden $ef leêyuv n yexxamen, ulint-ed $ef lqaea s lqedd ivaôôen n wemdan, tehri nnsent azal n sin i$allen, win ib$un yeqqim fellasent, ama d argaz ama d aqcic. Yiwet degsent tseqqef; tedduri. Deg unebdu, ur tt-ikeççem yiîij ; di tegrest ur tt-ittêaz ugeffur. D tin i d taslaî yelhan imeôôa, temsel u tecrureq ; beqqun akk ad qqimen degs. Ma s-dtekkev s-ufella i tejmaet, tin tezga-d $ef zelmev,
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terra udem-is $er yiwet n tezribt yesean lewhi n eecrin n lmitrat d-iqqeôôee yiwen wexxam. Taddart tebva $ef tlata iderma, yal adrum s tejmaet-is, yal tajmaet $ures tidekkanin n yeéra d teslavin imeslen. Akkmani tiddas llant, ttujeôvent $ef teslavin. Maca yiwen ur yezmir a d-yini tella tejmaet yifen “amôaê ivebbalen”. Llan di$en sin leowamae. Maca, ur yuli ara ccan nnsen am tjemmuyae. Si beôôa ma tentwaliv, kifkif-iten d tize$wa i tent-id-isuman. D acu, zzdaxel, ti$er$ert nnsen temsel, leêyuv nnsen sel$en s loir ; d imellalen, d ilmawen, d isemmaven. Im$aren yettéallan din amzun akken kkan-d di leqrun nni n zik. Lqahwa tezga-d di beôôa n taddart, di laezib. Win yeb$an ad iôuê, ilaq-as ad yeffe$ akin i tnezdu$in. Kra n tnezdu$in ulint-ed melmi kan s lmend n uûurdi d-yettwaêellan di Fôansa. Ssuf$ent-ed udem nnsent amaynut akk d lqermud nnsent azegga$ ger ufercec n tiyav. Cemtent, nfaq s ulame$ nni d uzlig. Tugna nnsent ur telti$ $er tin n taddart. Tabae yiwen ur yecrih yissent. Mebeid ttbanent-ed am ccwami timellalin ireggmen di tyessetmatin nnsent igan s wakal. Neéra zdaxel gant am tidak akk nniven. Uklalent aeekki : “Adaynin n Mnayel s-ufella mellul d acebêan, zdaxel yeççuô d le$ber d isredyan”. Zzux ttieewji i deg nekkat yak, nekôeh win yessem$aren iman-is, ahat imi nettemyili i meôôa.
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£ef akken d-qqaren, imezwura nne$ dduklen s tmara. Öôwan lmerta n tudert n “yal wa i yiman-is” iwakken a s-d-ssuksen kra ne$ kra i tdukli. éidet tmeddurt ma yilin loiran, acku ttemyafen : ttemyervalen, ttemêamin, ttemsaeafen. Ssifsusen taekwemt ; akken teb$u tili ccedda ma ra s-zzin rennu-tt. Ttagwaden îîiq am tmettant, keôhen-tt am qevran. Tikwal yettili akka cwiî umennu$, cwiî n leeyav ger kra $ef lmal ma yekcem tafarka n yiwen, $ef llufanat, atg… Maca ferrun m’ara yili lfeôê ne$ lqeôê. Neqqar : “D loiran i rreêma maççi i nneqma”. Öôeêma nne$, d ôôeêma n ddunit maca maççi d times. £as akken yal adrum yekka-d seg yiwen uéar, ulac fellas, imi yiwen ur yettarra ddehn-is $er wannect-a. Si zik ttilint tme$riwin ger iderma. Ass-a amezruy n taddart yu$al amzun n yiwen wemdan. Ulac win d-yufraren s-nnig wayev. Nettfeîîin garane$ kra yellan. Izlan, icewwiqen ttmucuha sduklen asaven nne$ : ama yella d améiw am wa$zen, d ushil am Bôiôuc ne$ d uêôic am Oeêêa. Limmer ad-neddem adrum at wadda, a tnaf yekka-d seg yiwen umi qaren Maéuz. Wagi yeooa-d seddus n warrac. Frurxen, fkan-d xemsa n twaculin, yal yiwet tebbi isem n wergaz, zzdint d adrum. £ef aya i sen-nessawal : At Rabaê, At Sliman, At Musa, At Leeôbi akk d At qasi. Ma d Ibaciren, jedditsen d imenfi d-yusan si Oeôoeô. Ur sein ara s wacu ar a zzdin lqedd s uéar nnsen. Seg-ul nnsen, êeqren iman nnsen cwiî, maca tura
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yiwen ur d-yeclie degsen, ula d nutni ttmeyizen amzun kkan-d si Maéuz. Tikwal ma tibrik tegnitt ne$ ma yil uba$ur di tqaeett, yettili win sen-dyessekkefalen tiqdimin. S nnig iéuran agi yellan zik d yiwen nne$ i$yesduklen ass-a, Leqbayel imesdurar yiwet lêala nnsen, yiwet tmeddurt nnsen. “Yiwen ueekkaz akk i$-yewwten”. Ur d-yettban igellil wala ameôkanti. D tidett llan sin yeswiren n tmeddurt : anda llan wid yufan iman nnsen : ççan - swan - lsan ; d wanda wid, ass-a aten-id-iwali yiîij, ass-a aten-ididel wagu. Yeskeebubuc-iten laé, yettsumu degsen, izeggi-ten am yifer. Ttawven $er lqae n lbir, tt$aven bab nnsen yettwali-ten-id. Maca ur yezmir yiwen ad ibvu garasen ne$ ad ifaq i tmeéla nnsen s umata. Imeôkantiyen d wid yesean tiferkiwin : azemmur, tineqqlin, azal n xemsa wussan n tyerza d waman di tferka-s i tebêirin. Di tejmaet ma d-addren l$ella n yiwen m’ara d-yawev lawan n tyerza, yettban-ed wa yecôeh wudem-is, wa amzun yesqev ne$ yusem. D acu, deg-ceôfan nne$, yibbwas n tyerza s tyuga n yezgaren, yugaren cwiî kan akraren, drus n wakal. Amuqran deg meôkantiyen n Leqbayel $ures azal n waggur n tyerza. Yessuzur ta$uct-is di tejmaet, amzun degwexxam-is i yella. Akka i y$il, l$aci teddun-as di leb$i. Iwakken as-fken leqder wa d iseu lhiba, imi d tigi id-yettbanen di trika-s, yettak leetab i yiman-
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is am win wer nesei tabruyt. Mi ara yawi imestujaô, ixeddem annect nnsen, yettlusu am nutni, itett garasen anagar i$ublan ur ibeîîu yara yidsen. Ad tafev $ures lmal : tayuga n yezgaren, tafunast, kra n wakraren d wulli, a$yul ne$ aserdun. Tanezdu$t-is tezmer ad teseu sin yexxamen mqabalen (lewhi n înac i$allen di tehri d rbaeîac di te$zi), taxxamt ne$ snat i mmis amenzu ne$ i ynebgi. Lebni n tnezdu$in imeôôa yiwen-is : aéru d ube$li n wakal, ssqef s u$anim d lqeômud. Ti$er$ert tessun-as tala$t, zzuzuren-as s ufella ibruyen n loir d cwiî n win yufafen, tedzentt mmzintt. Ma tili akken d tamaynutt tettecruruq, yettcebbiê wexxam. Ma d leêyuv sel$ent-tten tilawin ukessar, azal n sin i$allen $ef lqaea, s loir yemzin, rennunt-as yiwen uzirig qqaren-as taemamt, ula d win s loir maca ur yemzi yara; ma usawen, d tumlilt alama d ssqef. Ur d-ttafent ara tumlilt akk i sen-t-ilaqen alama cerwent-ett merri$et, acku d cc$el nnsent, yu$al asent tikwal d a$bel tikwal d ise$. Asla$ yettnalas yal aseggas ne$ sin ne$ tlata, ayagi yemxallaf ger sseaya n bab-is. II Tanezdu$t nne$ tezga-d deg-ixef ugafa n taddart, deg wezrib n wadda. Adrum nne$ d « Imaéuéen », tawacult nne$ qqaren-as « At Musa ». ∑emmi d baba ismawen nnsen yiwen Remvan, wayev Lewnis maca deg wedrum
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sawalen-asen « arraw n Caeban », ur éri$ ay$er. Nutni deg wasmi d-kkren d igujilen, lad$a baba ur d-issawev ara jeddi, weroin t-yessin. Limmer kan sen-sawalen « arraw n Tasaedit » $ef setti. Laemum d xwal nnsen smenyafen, ahat, ad leqmen isem n Caeban iwakken a d-sbeggnen i l$aci belli igujilen agi sean ansi d-frurin, u di sin yidsen ad îîfen amviq di lufeq n taddart, ama di lfeôê ama di lqerê, n winna akken yemmuten. Am win yeb$an a d-yini : « ulac win d-teooa t$alaî ». Di tazwara, tamu$li-yagi s wazal-is. Di taggara, arrac kkren-d, u$alen d irgazen. Isem ten yezdin iêeôôem-iten ciîuê, acku yiwen ur sen yessawal s yismawen nnsen, u$alen amzun d yiwen yerna ur ttemcabin ara. ∑emmi, umi sawale$ baba Lewnis yesea taksumt d tamellalt yerna rrqiq wudem-is. Yettêadar u yessizdig iman-is dayen kan. Ula d askad ines s ueekki. Ttwali$-t ger wallen-iw yezga s uqendur amellal d waemam yennev $ef uqerru-s akken meûwab lêal. Ïîaxeîîa imi a t-id-meyze$ s ugelzim deg ifassen-is, ibges ta$eggaî m tefzimin tiwra$in. Tikwal akka yeggar afus-is, maca maççi seg wul, itteggid kan cc$el-is. D tajmaet i yernan fellas. Ssnen-t medden d bu tidett u d bu wurfan. Awal-is qeîîie, taêsift-is am weclim yeddem wavu. Asmi yella d ileméi, yufrar-ed ger tezyiwin-is imeôôa. £ef ayagi i yeîîef aêric amuqran deg-ul n yemma-s. Darani d amenzu. Setti têemmel a dtesmekti belli iêuma-tt-id di ttôebga n Remvan. Tam$art tame$bunt, teéra leemeô tettkil fellas.
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Iban am yiîij uzal belli d netta i têemmel aîas. Tefka-yas tafekka ackitt. D tin i d tarzeft-is tamezwarut. Tesbanay-ed iman-is di mmis amenzu : acmumeê, udem, ta$uct yiwen nnsen. Remvan di tama nniven yettemcabi swa swa ar Caeban. D lmektub, ahat, i yeb$an att isebbeô imi s-d-yefka ger ifassen-is ayen i s aywali udem n babas. D allal ushil swayes a dyesmektay win t-id-yeooan. Remvan d imsibrik ciîuê, yeohed, wezzil yerna zzur $ef gmas. Akken i d afellaê n tmurt nne$, yebren u yekkunner. « Ma d udem-is d Caeban kkes-it ffer-it » i d-teqqar setti : anyir abelbav, tinzert tamecîuêt, ticenfirin tireqqaqin d leênak. Yesea anexzuô n babas d yiwet n leadda, iteqqen tiî tazelmaî ma k-idimiqel. Asmi yella meééi, ayen teerev setti astekkes leadda nni, eeddi keç. Tikli ines d taéayant am tin n yilef ivaôôen mfarraeen. Mi yefka aqqeddim a s-tiniv d amennu$ i $er iteddu, ne$ $er taekumt a tt-id-yerfed. Setti terra-t am ubelbul kan ur n neîîeq ur n smenîaq, ur yelli d win icerven. Maççi d açeqlal am gmas. D asusam u d imsetêi. Yettarra kan $er wul-is. Ur yedduqes ara, ééay ula di lec$al-is. Amzun tura deg wengir-is tfellaêt, netta da$en iqbel-itt. Xas akken zzur-it ivudan-is, yekkat tajewwaqt dayen kan, maca ala tizya-s i yeéran. Iêemmel aîas yemmas d gmas, d acu yettaoa leêmala nni deg-ul-is amzun akken d leib. Tasa-s tettergigi fellasen maca ur sen dyeskanay ara. S ôôkuz i yettahay $ef t$awsiwin d l$aci, dd$el ulac. D acmamaê, rnu $ures lehduô n
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wem$ar azemni. Ar ass-a kra di taddart ttaddren-d imeslayen-is. S umata, êemlen-t di taddart am gmas acku d bu tidett ula d netta u yernu yekôeh ccwal. Asmi d-lule$, eemmi d tikli a d-yessiwev xemsin iseggasen di leemô-is, baba ôebein. £ursen di sin dderya. Ëlima, tameîîut n eemmi, n at ufella. D tameîîut taçaôant, d tuweiôt u zuret ta$uct-is. Allen-is berqent u tikli ines am wemcic. Bih-bih, te$vel-ed lbeq $ef setti, almi itt tetthabi, tu$al-as d izem deg wexxam. Yeeyu yekkat-itt baba Lewnis, akken tugi a tterr avar, ur tettaggad yiwen. Acengu ines d baba, tekôeh-it am dda, limmer tettaf ur tt-tettwali yara imi ifaq i txidas-is. Akken ma nella deg wexxam neéra belli tebbi daewessu n tem$art-is, $ef ayagi i s-nettawi u nettbibbi timeréuga ines. Yerna d setti i tt-id-ixevben. Babas n Ëlima, yellan d amddakul n jeddi, yedda d aesekôiw $er tmurt iberkanen. Mi d-yu$al di Mada$ecqer, yebbi-d yides adrim. Setti t$ill-it d amerkanti, tufa u$ur a tsenned cwiî arraw-is. Teffe$-as tirga mxalfa, tamsalt texdem tendem degs. Am$ar amcum yerked di nûib n yellis, ur yerni ara cwiî yesssufe$ taôwiêt. D acu id-yeooa ? yiwet n cciea iôuccen s wewra$ yurez usekref n leêrir azegzaw, d-ye$lin, di tagara, ger ifassen-iw. Yemma n at Musa am nekkni, d yellis n yiwen di leemum nne$ ibeeden. Ula d nettat s leêsab i tt-id tebbi setti. Jeddi Ëmed, uqbel ad
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yemmet, yeooa-d yiwet n texxamt d lexlawi i tlata yessis. Yeooa-yasen-t-id da$en yiwen n lka$ev. Ibeîîen, yennev deg beênuq, yeffer di tbuqalt ufexxaô, berrik cwiî maca iûeêêa, ar tura mazal-it. D lka$ev n tikci n wayla-s i yessis. Yemma tecfaya-s-d mliê. Maca, ccix t-id-yesse$ren, yessefra-yasent-id i teqcicin belli ttalasent l$ella kan di tferkiwin. Maççi d awôat i lebda. Lqavi i tyuran, ahat, ur yefhim ara asirem n jeddi, yedda di leb$i i watmaten-is. Ulac u$ilif imi yemma d yessetmas ur tent-id-ttawven ara leemum nnsent. Llzen s tferkiwin nniven. Asmi ar a mmtent, ad rnun ad ddmen mebla ccwal ayen d-yeqqimen. Jeddi Ëmed yeooel. Yeéra ulac u$ur a sendent yessis. Maca ikukra a sent-yefk lxlawi ines uqbel ad yemmet, yali dayen a tent-yesdarin $ef timmu$bent. Yugad $ef sseaya-s, d l$erv zzat uûeggad, ger ifassen nnsent. Yugi, $er tagara n ccib-is, ad yessimes ôôuê-is $er at Musa, ne$ at îîafaren s wawal. Ur s-yefki yara wul-is ad iwali wiyav ççan ayla-s, xas ad ilin d ivulanis ne$ d arraw n yessis. Ah! Limmer yiwen deg warrac at Musa yu$ yiwet di yessis, tili ad tennefsusi teekumt, ad frunt temsal di tudert-is. Ur b$in ara anagar, arraw n Caeban, ilem uveif ! - yeezem niqal a sen yeîîef tuêsift. Maca deg wussan ines ineggura, imeyyez, yufa menyif a sen-d-yeoo akalis akken ur eezlen ara yessis, ue tteff$ent ara di tesqamutt n twacult tamuqrant.
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- Nek ad ôuêe$, i yettxemmim. Yiwen ur syeqqar ççi$ lêeq n watmaten-iw. Tura i yiraw nnsen, ise$ n leaô. Ad fernen. Ilaq ! iban am yiîij uzal, at Musa fernen. D tacvaî n nnif i ddurin. Ur b$in ara a tent-ssimsen tulles. Di tazwara, am$ar ifeveê-ed ôôwand-is ; imi yeerev ad yefk axxam-is d yiwen di lexlawi-is i yessis. A$ellet t$ellten s nnig wul-is. Iêun Öebbi, lqavi yefhem tamsalt. A lxiô ! ma d ayen nniven, iban webrid-is, maççi d ayen yeffren. - £urwamt, rremt avar, qareemt iman nnkunt $ef lêeôma, i sent-nnan i teqcicin. Cwiî n tucva, n tieewji a$ icemmet, ad yessimes isem nne$ di taddart. Tiyita ad teqseê, lem$ivat ulac. Aqla-kent di leenaya nne$. Lêumt qbala. Ayen nniven, ur d a$ d-tuqie degs. Di leewayed n zik, yiwen mi ar a i$ellet win n uéar-is, ittnefk fellas ad yerfed tigujilin, d netta ar a tent-yefken ad ddunt s ixxamen nnsent u ad irezzu fellasent am yessis. At Musa îîuqten u ttemyasamen aîas iwakken ad vefôen leewayed n tjaddit. B$an imeôôa ad weôten u fkan awal, akken llan, belli yiwen ur tent-yeooi, ar d ad bedden fellasent. Ïîfen akk deg wawal nnsent imi yessefked kan ad garen tamawt $ef teqcicin time$bunin. Nutenti, mi walant ttwaqureent, mi tteeggiven fellasent leemum d warraw nnsen, llzent, acku $illent euzzen-tent, êurben fellasent. Akken yeb$u yili, smenyafent aya wala tatut d tiririt di rrif teîîafaô timêuqranit. D tullas yessnen nnfee nnsent, êeôcent. Ur llint d tid yettneqlaben
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am tata. Unfent i leemum nnsent a tent-kelxen, a tent-ççen, awi-d kan ur tent-ssufu$en ara seg wegraw u ad îîfent deg yisem nnsent. Ger sut Musa, setti tasaedit tezga teggar tamawt i tgujilin, êninet fellasnet u temmalasent ala iberdan yelhan. Ur eeîîlent ara u$ent tanumi yides, ttcawaôent-ett di kullec. Tamenzut degsent d Favma, ur tessawev ara eecrin iseggasen di leemeô-is. Imiren Remvan weread yezwio. Setti terra-ten ger wallen-is a ten tezdi. Favma ur telli d tin icemten : meééiyet di lqedd, teveef u warra$et cwiî, udem-is $ezzif, tiênakin-is reqqiqit. Maca $ures yiwet n tmu$li teççur d leênana. Ur tesei tikli nni n nnefxa n tezyiwin-is. D tushilt u d nniya. S nnig seksu, ur tessin ad tenniwel ayen nniven. Setti teôwa lemêan iwakken as tesseqbel Remvan. Favma, segmi teéra belli tteoa nni n yilef teççur d tazmert i lxedma u teffer degs tiêrci tedda di leb$i i tem$art. terra-d di lmizan ad yili d lewkil i yessetmas. Teedda tme$ra di sser kan akk d sshala. Laemum feôêen u cekkôen meôôa Lewnis d Remvan imi bbin tigujilin ddaw leenaya nnsen. Favma d Ëlima msekôahent am wemcic d u$erda, akka i d tinuvin. Ur cukke$ ara setti tlum kra n wass $ef yemma. Tislit tedder di tili n tem$art-is. Tam$art meskint tufa-d iman-is di tegnitt ur nesei ixef. “Ul-is yebva $ef sin, yeb$a Ësen yeb$a Lêusin”. Têemmel Lewnis ugar Remvan, tesmenyif Favma $ef Ëlima. £ef ayagi,
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ahat, i qqimen baba akked eemmi di dduks, ur bvin ara, u setti tesselêa axxam mebla maêyaf. Neéra yak belli l$aci teddun s lqis, xeôsum ayen icudden $er tkufit. Yiwen ur yettanef i wdeggeô d usexseô. £ef annect-a, yal tawacult $ures aqerru iwumi tetta$ awal. Isufar $ef ufus-is, d netta id-itekksen, d netta i yettvebbiren $ef tu$in d uzenzi ilaqen. Terûa fellas tagust umeûruf. Sevlamen-t tikwal s ubuddu yettbuddu cwiî imanis, maca d tismin kan i d-ihedôen. Yuli ccan n win ne$ tin a yilin d aqerru $ef wexxam-is. Imeslayen lqayen d isefra d-ttawin fellas rran-as nnûib. D tam$art i ywulmen i tukksa. £urne$ d setti. Ikufan, ur teseiv win ten-ittmassan. D nettat i ten-itellin, d nettat i ten-ittemdalen. Ttega-s lebyan i u$ummu nnsen, cwiî kan akka ad ttisfiq. Tislatin-is érant d acu tent-yeggunin limmer a tenmasent. Takanna d ayla-s. tettali akken a dteddem tazart, a d-teççar a$erbal n teméin, a dteemmeô zzit ne$ a d-tegzem abruy n tassemt. tesea lmizan n yiman-is, leêsab-is weêdes u tceffu d ayen ur tettamnev. Yiwen ur yezmir att yesseeddi fellas.
Tilawin ttnawalent, setti tbeîîu. Mi yeftel seksu yebba, a t-id-teemmeô, anagar aksum i ybeîîu mmis amenzu : d cc$el n wergaz. Imi aksum netta$-it-id kan di leeyudat ne$ mi ara tili
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tmecôeî, êseb d nettat i $-yettqewwiten, am wefrux nni yettaken lquv i warrawis. D tidett, d cc$el iêwaoen aîas n tmusni d leeqel, acku nekkni s leqbayel ur netteummu yara di trika. Maca, imi taekumt ters $ef tuyat n win muqqren, n win yessnen amek a yeddu i ddunitis, nethenna u yekkes we$bel $ef nûib n at wexxam, u nettkel fellas ad yexdem lwaoeb-is.
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Lule$-d deg seggas n 1912, sin wussan uqbel amervil n fuôaô. - Kkaten-d at zik yiwet n temeayt $ef ussan imenza n waggur n fuôaô : yiwet n tem$art teb$a ad teekki $ef waggur n yennayer tenna-yas : - Teééek a eemmi yennayer ! i$iden-iw ff$en. Yu$al yennayer issuter di fuôaô yenna-yas : - Ttxilek a eemmi fuôaô Övel-iyi yiwen wass d aôeîîal I$iden n tem$art A ten-rre$ akk d ticullav. Lad$a assen yewwet-ed yiwen ugeffur ! yugar i dittalin di lqaea i d-i$ellin deg genni. Ur teswawi alarmi temmut tem$art tame$bunt akk d lmal-is. deg wassen ttkukrun medden asemmiv n tagara n yennayer -. Imi d nek i d aqcic amenzu deg wexxam, setti tettêarab felli d ayen kan, tessawev almi dsnulfa isem : Furulu. Yekka-d seg wemyag « FFER ». yettusemma yiwen ur yezmir a yi-wali, ammer tiî, alama zegre$ amnaô n tebburt $ef ivaôôen-iw. Ad twehmem limmer a wen-d-ini$ belli isem agi, xas akken d amaynut $urne$, ur ttsetêi$ ara yess ger tezyiwin-iw imi lli$ ênine$ u d ushil. Deg wasmi d-ccfi$, akken b$u$ nuda$ di lmux-iw, afe$-d leêmala akk d nniya zgant $er yidisan-iw. Tugna d-ye$lin akka ger wallen-iw d tin n weqcic amectiîuê di lêaôa nne$, yeqqim $ef yiwet n
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tbuqalt yennegdamen, Cabêa, yellis eemmis tetturar yides « zelle$mani », a s-d-tesseêsab $ef tvudacin-is tiéidanin imeôôa ar a yeçç. Akka i ttwali$ iman-iw, s yiwet n tqenduôt m tqelmunt, d tamecîuêt, d tamellalt ; tikli n ddac-dac ma d lehduô ugare$ iéiwec. Akken kan sei$ tlata iseggasen. Baba akked eemmi d igellilen am widak yellan deg wezrib. Imi d tullas kan ay sean, ufi$ iman-iw deg wexxam nne$ d ayen kan, ife$ îîaqa n tezyiwin-iw imecîaê ger watmaten nnsen. Ëlima, tameîîut n eemmi, limmer tettaf ur yi-tettwali yara. Maca yemma, yessetma, xwalti tiysetmatin n yemma êmlent-iyi aîas ; baba iteddu-yi di leb$i ; setti, imi d nettat i d lqibla n taddart, tesseôwa-yi tiéidanin i s-d-ttaken sya u sya, i nneqma n Ëlima. ∑emmi, yessnen azal n wergaz u yeéran d acu yeswa di tejmaet, d acu teswa tegmatt, iêemmel-iyi am mmis. Xedmen s nnig lmuêal i ttôebga inu. Maca, ilaq a d-ini$ belli teffe$-asen tirga mmxalfa ; ur bbiven ara s iswi nnsen : d aqcic awêid deg wexxam, $ursen, yura deg qerru-w a drre$ lhiba i twacult. D taekumt ééayen i uéeméum am nek, i wekeur d iyi-cban ! yiwen ur s-d-yusi di lbal belli d ayen nniven ahat iwumi wulme$ u asirem nnsen a t-yawi wavu. Zemre$ ad wwte$ yessetma mebla cceêa, yiwen ur d i-d-yeqqar ay$er, yessis n eemmi da$en tikwal tta$ent ti$rit deg-ufus-iw : ilaq ad lemde$
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amek a berne$ lbunyat-iw ! zemre$ ad sxesôe$ awal i win iyi hwan deg wexxam, ama meqqer ama meééi, ttarran-t d nnecôaêa. Tikerkas dgi i dlulent, tukerva $uri i tu$, leêya deg udem-iw tesfev. Annect-a yakk iwakken a d-ff$e$ d uweiô. Yal wa yeéra leweaôa imawlan tettaoa-d aqcic amaggad, uêdiq u sellawen am lalla. Maççi d tamusni ur sein ara ne$ d imenzayen lqayen i xuûûen warraw n Caeban : jeddi ad fellas yeefu Öebbi. Faqe$ s lqima inu mi wwve$ xemsa iseggasen, ssuture$ izerfan-iw u tteeddi$ tilas. U$ale$ d eezôayen i wetma tamecîuêt, tugar iyi s sin iseggasen. Ssawale$-as Titi. Yeqqim-as-d ar ass-a. Ma di lqedd, ur d i-tugar ara ; tettemcabi $uri d ayen kan ; d amendil-is akk d temzurt nni ines tamecîuêt i s itt-ttaeqalen. Wwte$-tt, regme$tt, sluqbe$-tt, am weclim yeddem wavu, ur d as-dtuqie ara yakk, tesea yiwen ûûbeô ur tettaev $er tizya-s. Ssa$en-as tanumi belli ti$in-is n wawal d amerwas u addud inu d azref. Yal tikkelt mi teccekta felli a tt-id-ççen : « Maççi d gmam ? ffôeê teseiv-îî ! am t-iêrez Öebbi ! ssfev imeîîawen-im, eeddi suden-it ». Si têilett agi, tawinest « a m-t-iêrez Öebbi » tezga tedda-d yal mi ar a d-tader gmas, teqqel-as am lêemdu di téallit. Tett$av-iyi ma s-sle$ tettru yas i yemma : - d gma, a yi-t-iêrez Öebbi, i yi-ççan amur-iw n weksum.
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- d gma, a yi-t-iêrez Öebbi, i yi-s$ersen amendiliw. Ih a wetma ! yu$alen ass-a d lal n wexxam, ddeewa inem teffe$. Öebbi iêrez-am yir gmam nni ! Baya, wetma tamuqrant, s wudem nniven i d-$evle$ fellas lbeq. Nettat tezmer i yiman-is u teéra d acu i texdem. Tettêami yemma di cc$el akka tikwal. Teêôec, teweeô u tesea ta$ennant ; mi d-tenna awal d win. Tebbi-d leqder i yiman-is s yi$il-is. Baya, tebbi-d fellas ayi tessedhu u a d ayi teggar tamawt. Nek ur bri$ ara i ymeééu$en-iw. Bih-bih faqe$ belli s leeyav d imeîîawen zemre$ a d-awi$ ayen b$i$. Qqlen d wid i d imrigen-iw. D acu, tikli-agi nndemme$ degs, acku t-tett kan deg wexxam. Di beôôa, i b$u$ ru$, i b$u$ snexxefte$, ulac. Timezwura i yi-d-yennan belli medden akk ur tent-rri yara tmara a yi-ddun di leb$i, d yesis n eemmi. Yu$ lêal, yemmatsent, iyi keôhen am dda, tenjeô-asent-id abrid. - Wagi maççi d gmatkunt. Kunemti ur teseimt ara. S dd$el i thedeô, d ssem i d-iteff$en degmis. Mazal ta$uct-is teééenéun deg imeéu$en-iw, tamu$li-s eqqim ger wallen-iw. Ëulfa$ am akken u$ale$-as d acengu. Ula deg wezniq, llan sin loiran nne$ d tizyiwin-iw, d acu nutni îîucnen felli, qeveen-iyi layas s wayen mi zemren.
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Deg imiren, bbi$-d tikli nniven, tin yeff$en felli. U$ale$ d asusam, d ushil, sseêmale$ imaniw ; ttêezzize$ i wuweiô, ttake$ u ôeîle$ mebla cceêa i win ay i d-yessutren ta$awsa. Imawlan-iw ttfaqen cwiî cwiî. Yeftutes usirem i rran deg-i. Izem nnsen deg wexxam yu$al d awtul di beôôa. Tugdi a s-tiniv yess i d-lule$ ; mi ff$e$ i wezrib nne$ ad ttergigi$ am yifer. Yella yiwen weéru n tnica, d win i d tilist. Mi yi-yefka akin, teddu$ ddaw tecvaî n wakli ; d ameddakul-iw. Imeddukal-is d imeddukal-iw, icenga ines d icenga inu ; akken i s-yehwa i xeddme$. Yettêamid felli u tikwal d netta i yettna$en deg webdil-iw. Ma d-nu$al s axxam, refde$ iman-iw akken kan a d-needdi i tilist nni i yuran felli. Yetta$-iyi awal u iteddu-yi di leb$i, u Öebbi yeéra acêal i s-tteddu$ di nneqma. Mi ar a nexdem ilellucen, d nek i yettvebbiôen u ayen a d-nessufe$ ilaq ad iyi eoeb. Tikwal, ma yi-d-ôôsel, ttôuzu$ akk ayen $ef imeêêen. Ad yettsummu ivudan nni ines ifedren u ad yessusem amzun kra wer yevri, acku yeéra d awal-iw a ieeddin, ur ttu$ale$ ara degs. Iôuê am win yennu$nan mi yfaq d yiman-is belli ife$-t di tiêeôci. Ula d nek, ilaq a d-ini$ belli di beôôa yugar-iyi ddree, yugar-iyi tissas. Nemlal, nemwata. £ef tikelt i neffe$ deg ijufaô n tyemmatin nne$. D tajmaet nne$ i nekcem d tamezwarut, syin d tid nniven n taddart, tagara $er lakul.
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Ur éri$ amek, ur éri$ melmi i d-tlul leêmala garane$. Seg wasmi d-ccfi$, Furulu netta d Wakli i ttemzu$aren. Deg yiwen wezniq i nezde$, iban din i nemyussan. Aîas yidene$ i d-nekker akken d tizyiwin, maca tadukli nne$, yiwen ur yezmir a dyini ay$er tdum. Tayuga am nekkni ulac-itt. Akli d uzyin am teqcict maca asmuncef ines yugar cciîan. Ur yesei leênana akk d sshala inu. Efk-as tavsa, aeekki d umennu$ teooev-î. Ula d imuqranen ur ten-yettaggad ara, maca teqnen allen nnsen imi yeççuô d sser. Maççi d nutni i yeqqaren : “uzyin êemle$-t, aberkan yet$iv-iyi !” Leêya tettwasfev deg udem-is, leêq-is d nek umi t-yerna. £ef annect-a i yi-êemlen ula d nek. £ures ivaôôen d ifessasen annect-ilaten ; izga yeqqar-ed laqen i umennu$ d trewla. Ayen i yi-ttwakkesen yella $ures, ayen t-ixuûûen a t-id-yaf $uri. D ayagi i yeévan leêmala garane$. Ur ccfi$ ara acêal i neqqim iwakken a nissin azrib nne$ u a nemyussan d warrac akk ized$en degs. Akken yeb$u yili, tiremt tamezwarut nesseedda-tt mebla cceda. Llan kra yetta$en ti$rit s$ur menwala, win yeddan yesîenîen-iten ; llan widak $ef tt-tahayen, cwiî ueekki ad yeçç times ; llan da$en wiyav mi ten-t-sluqbev ad brun i ymeééu$en nnsen ad kkren di tqaeett. Nekkni leemeô d a$-yevri wannect-a. Newwet alarmi i dnesbeggen iman nne$. Tta$en-a$ awal : Akli s ddree, nek s tiêôci. Cwiî cwiî, u$ale$ ttawve$ $er tejmaet weêdi, tikwal ttaée$ akin alama d lqahwa i deg
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zgan wid i leqqven lebwant. Cabêa, yellis n eemmi, mi yi-d-tenna qqim a nurar akken, s zzux i s-qare$ $uri cc$el di beôôa, maççi d axxam i yi-dyefnan ; ttarra$ iman-iw d argaz zzat-es, lad$a nettat ad tebru i uqerru-s, ad tessusem. Yura di lbext-iw, yal tikelt a êeqre$ Cabêa, ad afe$ di beôôa win a yi-êeqren, ne$ win a yeggalen dgi ur kcime$ tajmaet. Din din a dberne$, ur netteeîîile$ ara. Lad$a ad êrurde$ $er gara-s d teqcicin nniven ad qime$ a nurar. Ur sent malle$ ara tihudit-iw, ttefre$-tt deg wul-iw; sedhuye$ iman-iw akken ad ttu$ ti$rit d-u$e$. Weroin sen nni$ i ymarrawen-iw a d-êamin felli mi ar a yi-d-yawev yiwen d tizya-w : ma zemre$-as a nenna$, ma ulac ad tteîîfe$ d tarewla. Deg wexxam êekku$-asen mi ar a yili$ kan d amernay, ma sdubzen iyi ne$ u$ale$ $er deffir ur éerren ara. Acku, anagar yemma, yiwen ur s-yettak wul-is a yi-d-yefk afus. Tamezwarut a ten-i$iv akk lêal, syin ad gallen dgi ad mceççawe$ d wefna nni inu. Teedda felli maççi d tikelt maççi d snat, lad$a akked eemmi. Ma rni$-t, atan ad i yiêemlen imeôôa, a d-vsen $uri. Ma yella yessexbabev-iyi, terwi $ef Furulu, ad teddun felli a s-tiniv uvne$ ajeooiv. Kerhe$ tiswiein agi am qevran. Yiwen ur ttt$ave$, anyir nnsen yekres am akken b$an ad i yirnun tiyitwin. Awah ! d yemma kan i wumi tettergigi tasa felli, deg udem-is kan i deg d-tufrar leênana ; tayri ines $uri tugar kra yellan.
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Ma d-yini awal eemmi ur yettu$al ara degs, am umesmaô di lluê. £ures tlata n wudmawen umennu$ i yellan u yal yiwen yesea abrid i yimanis. Yezmer ad yili wefna meééi, annect-iw ne$ yugar-iyi. Tura, ma yili d win meééiyen yettanef-iyi ttake$-as ti$rit, d acu kan ilaq-iyi ad rewle$ u ad fre$. Ma usan-d imawlan-is ad berrin dgi, ad yerr iman-is a yi-ttnadi maca ur iyi ttaf ara ; Lad$a ad yessedhu winna u ad yeggal dgi zzatsen anagar ma ur d iyi îîif. Ma d win yellan annect-iw, ur iyi ttunefk ara ad agade$. £ur eemmi teqvee, s umeééul-is igzem-itent-id : ugare$-t tazmert imi t-ife$ akken tette$ ne$ “babas weroin yewwit adebbuz” - mmis umaggad ur yesserwal mmis n at Musa, ne$ da$en “d mmis n taooalt” - iban ur yekkat ara uzzal, ne$ tagara, d mmis n wedrum acengu, tu$alin ar deffir ulac. Mi ar a sife$ imeslayen-is, ttafe$ azgen ines ur yesei i$isi. D ayen i yi-ssawven ad seu$ cwiî n tissas. Netta da$en ur yettanef ara i win meqqren a yi-d-yawev ne$ a yi-d-yewwet. Imiren i d-ttarra$ ttaô-iw degs. Qqare$-as-d akk ayen yevran yidi ; ssawave$-as-tt-id teêma ter$a. Yiwen meqqer felli a yi-kkes talabilit, s tazla s axxam : imeîîawen, ileddayen, axlul. A s-ini$ anwa kan, dda Lewnis atan yekker, tiééifin, asu$u. Ma yefka Öebbi yufa aqcic nni, yiwen ur s-t-i-ttekkes ger ifassen-is, kra ibeqqayen, nek zgi$ deg ijufaô-is s usennexfet.
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Awah ! eemmi d argaz leali, $as di kra n teswiein yugar llufan. Acêal iberdan i t-ssuzle$ $ef txidas ur nesei lmeena ! Wissen ahat isuref-iyi, ass-a, mi yewwev $er wanda a nawev meôôa, azekka. èri$ belli ur s-yelli yara di lbal i baba Lewnis ad iyefk ttôebga tuzligt, ur yesxeseô ara ùmi yeb$a a dyessufe$ dgi argaz. Maca iêemmu aîas u yettarra îîerr $ef wiyav. S umata, ur ufi$ ara $er temsirinis. Di îîiq akk d ccedda i d-yettifrir bu yiles di bu gernin. Alarmi d asmi d-teêdeô tegnitt tamcumt i faqe$, xas akken meééiye$, ayen teswa sshala. Yiwen wass deg wussan n Öebbi, di lexôif, l$aci yakk u$alen-d di tferkiwin nnsen, wa iêucced i yezgaren-is, wa yeksa, yal wa d acu t-yebbin. Iîij yeûûenûen. Tislavin n « wemôaê ivebbalen » ççuôent d irgazen, usan-d ad steefun ; wa yeééel, wa yeqqim yettmeslay d wiyav. Ssne$-ten imeôôa. Bussaed n Aemaô, s tûelbuet-is igan am tvellaet, yeîîef tinna yeddurin, iéeméumen uêeccad ççuôen taslaî. Ikessu yiwen uqecwal. Qqime$-d $er tama-s, d netta i yi-ççuôen tiî. èri$ iêemmel arrac imecîaê. Udem-is tesberkit tewser, allen-is berqent ; ttbanen-d yedmaren-is deg imi uqendur-is ççuren d icaeîufen. Uée$ $ures, ur tugade$ ara. Aqerru eeryan ; tacacit-is yekkes-itt, isers-itt, yerra degs iccew ines yeççuren d cemma. Ka-ka a s-iwwet iôeffie. Yeîîef talqaett nni uqecwal ger ivaôôen-is am lkkellab, akken i seshel i useqeed. Ikesu u ineooeô kan akken.
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Smuqule$-t amek ixeddem ; caxe$ degs. Ttaée$ $ures ur faqe$, almi yi-d-iêuz s udem-iw s yiwen uéeméum uêeccad. - Aé akin a mmis n Remvan, muqret teslaî ! - Xaîi, ad qime$ da. B$i$ ad wali$. - Öuê ad turarev d tizya-k. Tebbiv-d akk izan yellan s udem-ik d wallen-ik. - Anda i yi-hwa ad qime$. Yak ula d nek ttalase$ di tejmaet agi ! - Dayen, dayen. D acu, $urek kan a k-inêaze$. Menwala yeéra belli yettalas di tejmaet, am llufan am wem$ar. U yernu, nesmektay-asen-t-id i ymuqranen s wuger n tem$er n yimi tiéeîî. Bussaed yellumet, yessusem, yerra ddehn-is $er uqecwal-is, yettkemmil. Iéeméumen nni uêeccad ttemyekcamen s leêôis. Tikwal kan akka alma yeôôez yiwen. Lad$a a d-yeddem lmus nni ines uqvie ad yegzem ixef nni d-yeôzen. Ur éri$ amek i d-tusa : Ëulfa$ s lêamu di timmi-w i d-tevfeô teqôeê d unezlulef am tuqsa n wareé. D lmus-is i yi-d-yesenta deg wenyir-iw. Rri$ afus-iw s-lem$awla, yeççuô-ed d idammen. Din su$e$. Irgazen akk kkren-d, uzlend $uri. Nekk ttu$u$,, ttjellibe$ am loen ger ifassen n wem$ar amcum i yeb$an a yi-d-yer deg wenyir cwiî n cemma. Wayev yennev-iyi-d deg uqerruyiw abeênuq d-icerreg deg uqendur ines ajerbub. Idammen neggin, nekk rennu$ asu$u. Bussaed yu$al d awra$, tekfa fellas ddunit. Lmus ye$li-yas,
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aqecwal ur nekfi yennugdam ; netta eerqent-as, yesteqsay m ur muqret ara tiyita. - Cwiî ur s-d-sfiv tiî-is ! - ∑eggne$-as-d ? d netta i d-yuéan $uri. Tevra-d, tevra-d. d acu teb$iv a s-xedme$ ? - Ad tegrev tamawt. Aêlil. Wissen tura amek a t-id-mmagren imawlan-is. Öuê s axxam a Furulu, ôuê ! in-as i yemmak a k-terr i$i$den ucettiv. Teddu$ s axxam idammen ttceôcuôen, cwiî ur yebbi izi$er-iw. Inigan akken ma llan ugin ad amnen Bussaed ame$bun yettgallan s ûellaê d ieessasen ar d cciîan i tt-id-yebbin, maççi s leb$i-s imi d i yi-êemmel am yiwen deg warraw-is. Maca, akken yb$u yeggul, yiwen maççi yedda yides, tthuzzun kan iqerray nnsen, $ave$-ten imeôôa. Ur nezmir a ncukk degsen, ne$ a s-nini belli b$an ad smentgen times. Amezwaru i d-mmugre$ $ef wemnaô n tebburt d winna akken ur ilaq ara lmektub a d-iger di teswiet nni. D baba Lewnis i d-yeslan i su$aniw. Yemma tedda-d deg igerzan-is. Walan-d udem-iw yeççuô d idammen, taemamt i yi-d-qnen di tejmaet tu$al akk d tazegga$t. - wi k-igan akka ? i d-yenna baba Lewnis. - n$an-iyi mmi ! i tu$was yema s wayen tesea di ta$uct-is, am win a isu$en « abbuh ». Ttarra$-asen-d awal s usennexfet. ∑emmi yexôeb wudem-is. -£iwel ini-d anwa ? Ay$er ?
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- D Bussaed n Aemaô. - S ueemmed ? - Ih, yeb$a ay-ine$. Ugaren imeîîawen lehduô. Baba Lewnis yesfezwi am terûaût. Ur inuda ur ittnadi ad iéer amek tevra. Yerra-d ger wallen-is Bussaed, n wedrum nniven, d amenza$, yebbi-d lmus, yemme$ $ef mmis n gmas ur nebni fellas. Yeb$a ad imêu tawacult n at Musa, ad ine$ aneggaru deg warraw-is, ad igzem axalaf amecîuê… Yeîîef-itt d tazla, azduz deg ufus-is. Ulin-as wurfan s aqerru ; yerkem ; di temsalt n nnif ur yein yiwen. Yeédem ad yesken i medden amek i tga lêeôma n twacult. Ilaq a d-yerr ttaô : d tin i d tirrugza. Yemma tevfeô-it, tezzu$er yides akk at wexxam. Ïîfen-tt akk d tazla. waread nebbiv $er tejmaet mi tenhewwal liêala : asu$u, rregmat. Ttu$ ti$rit nni i yu$e$. yu$al-iyi d tugdin, ttargagi$ am yifer. Amôaê idemmek di l$aci a s-tiniv d aweîîuf. Ggri$-d weêdi. Anda tella yemma ? anda yella eemmi ? deg yiwet di tebbura n tejmaet tban-iyi-d terbaet n yergazen ttemdeggaren, eeqle$ yiwen ger leemum n Bussaed mi yeôjem, aéru nni yemmeôdex. Yiwen yu$was. eemmi nniven yesseêlelli taeekkazt, yeédem $er tlemmast, yemme$ $er lqaea ireed-ed yiwen : d baba Lewnis. Deg-yiwet n tezribt, tulawin ssekrent-ett garasent, d ççeqlala d umennu$ ur nesei sse. Ula
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d nutenti gant yiwet n tusna taberqact i deg dtifrar tebrek imendyal d tezwe$ n lefwavi. Tajmaet s-immal teççaçaô, yiwen ur yeîîif ti$meôt. Lkeôh ized$en ulawen yeffe$-ed, tiqdimin yettnadin kan tasebba keflent-ed. Teêma. Cwiî kan akka yebbev-ed Lamin. Yuli $ef teslaî. £er tama-s, yiwen wemôabev, yethuzzu amendil n leêrir awra$. - A s-d-tas deewassu i win a yernun ameslay ne$ tiyita, i yedea wemôabev nni, s leeyav d wurfan. Imiren kan, yefra umennu$ ger yergazen, ma d tilawin, ttemyettakent tiyita taneggarut, ulac tin yeb$an a d-teggri degs. Ul-iw yekkat a s-tiniv tura ad yetterveq, imetman kfan deg-imi-w, ta$uct-iw d icenfiren-iw qquren. Ivaôôen-iw cekklen, iéri-w yekkaw. Wala$ yemma, uzle$ $ures, acebbub-is akk yerwi, amendil-is ye$li, tettnadi a t-id-teddem degmi yi-d-twala teooa-t, teîîef-iyi-d di tettust teddez-ed iberdan-is. Ameééu$-is yettqudduô d idim, setti wis anta i dtessençew, yeççuô akk ufus-is d anéaden, Baya tebbi-d yides tafawett n lfuva n eini, tameîîut n Bussaed. Limmer tafent ur êebbsent ara, b$an-t ad rrnun-t amceççew, êmant d ayen kan. Seeégent-iyi s lqub d rregmat i ssawavent i tcunga nnsent, ula d nutenti ttarran-asent-id s wayen ssnent. Simi necem s axxam, at wezrib nne$ meôôa ççuren-d lêaôa, refden-d yidsen eemmi ur yettwaeqal ara. Yettwafeooeô s weéru deg uqerru,
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yettwet s lmus deg beôdi. Ula d dadda Qasi, yu$ kra n tyitwin s ueekkaz. Ma d adrum n Bussaed, ççan ti$rit uklalen : Bussaed yessexcawet-it baba Lewnis, zzu$erent s axxam ur yeéri anda yedda, gmas, yufeg usevsu ines, wiyav yal wa amek i tent yu$ : allen cuffent, udmawen xebcen, lêaûun… Banent-ed akk degsen ccwami umennu$ ; idammen ttqudduôen, iqendyaô qersen, ieumam fsin, mi sersen baba Lewnis $ef yiwen ulemsir, yemma teççuô-asen-d tabuqalt n waman iwakken ad ssirden. - Xaîi, xaîi ! i d-yenîeq yiwen. Anefet-asen akka i yfeddixen, anefet-asen akka i ydammen a ten-id-afen iôumyen. - A k-nesserkeb $ef zzayla, i d-yedda deg wawal amezwaru dda Qasi, a k-nawi $ur lqavi tura. - Ula d nutni d ayen a xedmen, ilaq-a$ a ten nezwir, i d-ileqqem ameslay yiwen nniven. Yal wa d tamusni-is, yal wa yettmeyyiz akken iwala, yettak-ed tidmi-s ; maca, imeslayen nnsen izde$-iten webruy ukukru. D yir tagnitt. Ugaden i d-tessegray. Kra sqerdcen, ulac tifrat f i ters nniya ne$ tin yeççuôen tiî. Fkan awal a du$alen tameddit a d-glun s wid nniven. Fellasen ad dduklen am yiwen. D tagmatt i d-isawlen ; At Musa mgal At Rabeê, isenned $ef udekkan, yeqqim. D ileméi yeddan d yiman-is, u yernu “d tacôaft”. Imeôôa rran iman nnsen ttun $ef wacu i dtusa, amzun maççi d nekk i d madakci. Maca tella
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Ëlima d yessis, smektayent-iyi-t-id s dd$el. Ëlima trekkem, tezza tasa-s. S nnig wul-is i tedda ula $er umennu$. Ka-ka a d-tekres anyir-is felli, a yi-dtveggeô tamu$li nni n weqjun amsuv. Yellis louheô tué-ed $uri tebbi-yi-d. - Muqel eemmik ! Iwennee. Fellak i d-yevra ubaxix agi. Ama d lehduô-is, ama d tubbya ines, $zen dgi am useffud yer$an. U$e$-tent $er zdaxel. Imeîîawen ugin a d-f$en, qqebre$. Muqle$ yemma, twala-d kra yellan, ur tezmir d acu a texdem. I$av-itt lêal, tebra i wallen-is s tmara : zi$en eemmi ur s-iôuê wacemma, iqeeed-ed imanis, isu$ $ef tmeîîut-is. - Ffe$-iyi sya, s kem s loifat-im. Tesmermez-ed tekka tabburt. - Iyya $uri a Furulu. Yak ur k-yu$ wara ? Yemêaleq-iyi-d $ures, allen-iw ççuôent-ed d imeîîawen, gre$-d nnehta, snexfta$-d abrid, îîôevqe$ d imeîîi. Yemma terfed-iyi-d, teffe$-ed ula d nettat. Teqqim yides setti akk d dadda Rabeê. Mi s-tvellu tajbirt yemmas netta yettweûûi dadda Rabeê : baba ulac-it. Di tafrara i ysewweq $er Tizi-Wezzu yebbi tteebga n téurin $ef we$yul. Ur d-yettu$al alarmi a ye$li yiîij. Ur yeéri acemma deg mennu$. Annect-agi, At Aemeô faqen-as. Zemren a szewren, a s-sqiîeen di kra uxenduq ; a s-inin a dnerr ttaô imi ten-nesdubez linna. At wedrum nne$ ttzuxxun imi ten nerna, imeôôa akka i tt-walin, nugar iten i b$un inin. At Aemeô da$en,
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ttmeyyizen akken nniven, $ursen d nutni i d imernayen. D acu tidmi nnsen ur d a$ tekcim sya ur d a$ teffi$ sya, ur ncukk ara deg yiman nne$. D ayagi i yessawven baba Lwenis yesseggra dadda Rabeê ur yeddi yara d wiyav. A t-yettweûûi ad yemmager baba, ad yawi yides imrigen, u ad yesseeddi awal i kra i$ yettilin, wid kan yebbi nnif, ad ff$en i taddart u ad aenun ti$emmaô iwatan i wesqiîîee. Tagnitt d yir nettat ! aêezzeb yugar leqvee. Mi d-yebbev baba s axxam ur t-yu$ ur tyebli, nefôeê imeôôa ; maca lfeôê nni amzun akken s acu i t ixuûûen ; messus. Annecten n lemêadra, aqeôôee nni imeôôa rnu $ures wid ttyeîîfen di ccedda, kra din akk di rrayee. Akken yeb$u yili menyif akka wala kteô. Iêun Öebbi, At Aemeô deg wakken yewsee wul nnsen, meyzen belli ugaren At Musa, ur sen-d-tuqie deg wayen nniven, qqimen $ef yiman nnsen deg yexxamen nnsen. Ti$ersi ieumam d iqendyaô, ixebbicen d ifexxuôen idammen, ttaken-d udem n îrad d ccwal ; d tamu$li yerran baba d azegga$, yettfuôu deg urfan. Yettgalla s ‘jmee liman n yergazen” a limmer yeêdiô i tme$ra n ûbeê. Amzun akken s acu i s-iôuêen. Yemme$ $ef yiwen udebbuz, yu$al iserreê-as irfed-ed ajenwi s yin yeédem $er yiwet n tmeéyant taqdimt yeddem-itt-id. Abrid-is $er tejmaet, tiî-is s amennu$. Setti, Ëlima d yessis jguglent degs ammer ig-xeddem di beôôa ; setti temêalleq-as-d di temgeôî, Ëlima d yesis ta degjufaô ta deg-$allen ; yal ta tejebbed degs akken ur
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itekk ara tabburt. Yemma tame$bunt, tessudenas ivaôôen, tetteenni $er ssaddatt. ∑emmi yugi a d-yekkes allen-is degs, maca ur d-yenni zzant wala r$ant. Ma d nekk urfan-is kksen-iyi tuggdin, tuzart n ta$ect-is tusa-yi-d $ef wul. Mi d-slan loiran, kecmen-d u êellen akk baba ; lad$a yiwen segsen yusa-d s $ur lamin, iceggeeit-id akken a ten-nerou netta d îemman akk d sin yemôabven n taddart. Setti imiren i tekker tessendeh tulawin i leftil n teôbut n seksu. Nettat s nnefxa d wezday n lqed i temme$ s acwari i deg yebbi baba tiéurin $er ssuq tekkes-ed aseeleq n weksum. - Tura a nwali ixanaben inna imecêaêen ma s weksum akka am nekkni a seççen agraw agi lxiô, i d-tewwet deg icunga nne$. - D lêemmeé aquran a sen-d-sersen, i dtedda yemma yides deg wawal. - Iban fellasen ! d tidett d igellilen i nella, maca s leun n Öebbi, irgazen nnkent di ddunit nnsen weroin u$alen wudmawen nnsen d izegga$en ne$ nneêcamen ma yilin inebgawen ne$ ma d-tas tizi n tirugza. Deg annect-a i dyettban yise$ n twacult. Maca d agacur kan, isewweq assenni baba ; xas limmer ulac aksum, setti a d teseu s wacu ar a tesseeddi iman-is, ur tetu$al ara d tazegga$t, ama d lêemmeé i sen d-tefka ama d ibawen. Mi d-yebbev yiv, dadda Qasi idegger-ed tabburt n wefrag, tujjaq uqbel ad-ikcem. Yezwared igad a yefrun tamsalt. Tura imi a d-asen
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imsefruyen, fiêel ma nga tasmilt n twacult, ur twulem i wacemma, ad tefru mebla tazla idammen. Dadda Qasi tennefsusi fellas teekumt. Ad isiwel i kra n yem$aren n wedrum nne$, wid iwezznen awal u yettnawalen taqbaylit, $ursen a d tili tsarutt. Baba ur yugi ara ; tettwacudd, ilaq a d tefsi. Dadda Qasi yeffe$. Tulawin akken ma llant ddzent iberdan nnsent, yefkatent wemnar n wexxam akin, rrant $er texxamin nniven. Maççi deg wexxam ideg a yili wegraw ar a qqiment ! anagar setti i yesbirecwen $er lkanun, tugi a d teffe$, ur tezmir ara ad teqqim ur d-teggar ara iman-is, awal-is a t-id-tini. Yusa-d lamin, vefôent-id sin yemôabven d wazal n mraw imusnawen. Nnven-d akk deg ibeônyas, kecmen-d $er lêaôa, leêêun s waddud yewzen yufrar, wa deffir wa. Baba yemmuger-iten s wawal aéidan, yessuden-asen i lecyax iqqerra nnsen $ummen iqlemyan. Baba Lewnis isenned deg yiwet n te$meôt, yettekka $er tesga. Yiwen weedil d azegga$ sersent-tt-id, yeîîef akk ti$er$ert. Mi d-zegren i wemnaô, kksen irkasen nnsen, sersen-ten din ; yal wa yeena amviq-is, zzin-d d tasqamutt. Baba yegguma ad yesers iman-is, yeqqim s ibeddi, isenned s asalas. yekesmumi amzun s acu s ieerqen. Üellan $ef nnbi (yess i d-zeggiren yal inaw), lamin yekker a d-yemmeslay. Baba igzem-as-d awal.
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- Tamezwarut, môeêba yiswen $urne$ ; tin $ers, uvan $ezzifit, zwiret deg-mensi, syin ôôay asaedi a t-id-yefk Öebbi. Ïîemman ôuêen ad gallen, maca d aseeddi n wawal kan, acku éran ilaq ad ççen, tura ne$ ticki. U yernu ad ççen snat n tikkal, imi ma ff$en s $urne$, $er yefnaten nne$ u$ur a ôuên. Meyzen garasen, ufan d Öemvan i yesean lêeq, limmer ad zwiren di seksu. Akkagi, ad yers lqut nni s leeql-is di teebbuî weqbel ad ççen wayev. Baba di tama-s, iwala tamsalt s wudem nniven : yeéra ma teççiv taggella d lmeleê akked yiwen, yeweeô akken a kyexdee. Iwakken a $-deun s lxiô u a ttewwet lbaôaka $urne$, ikmes-asen i sin yemôabven nni xemsa duôu i yiwen. Aba$ur n wecwari ame$bun yemmar s ifassen nnsen. Maca ulac u$ilif, ters-ed lehna. Seksu leali, aksum aleqqaq, tiéeî n wawal garane$ d lecyax, tesseqefev-as-d s cwiî n tecrift. Xas iles ôéag qeôôiê, ad yu$al d aéidan am tamemt. Tiyersi a d tefsi. Targa idammen ad tanef amer ad mmaren ger yemdanen yezzin s weerur i taluft. Ttif ôôay uzzal. Ama d at Aemeô, ama d nekkni, yiwen ur yettnadi ad yessem$er tisri. Maca, iwakken ad yeqqim yise$ zeddig, ulac wa yeréen $er wayev. Di tegnatin am tigi, imuqranen d lecyax n taddart ur ttarran ara taqejjirt $er deffir ; s werfad uqerru akk d leqder i d-ttadden, u l$aci imeôôa ta$en-asen awal. - Wali zi$ ! At Musa ma d ise$ nnsen nutni i d-yeseettben timira n wid yettgallan s jmee liman,
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usan-d ad ssinfen deewessu. A nessirem ad awven $er yeswi nnsen. Di tilawt, ulac win yunzan. Ur yuksan êed i t-yu$en ! Imêaddan yennumen timsal am tigi, éran belli, yal tikkelt, tferru s sin imensawen iéidanen d cwiî n lemleê ufus, ula d win s wudmawen. D$a mi fuken uççi, sdentt akken ilaq, swan s tawant ; eeddan ad fken lfattiêa : yiwet i wid yeddren, yiwet i wid yemmuten, yiwet i ssadatt d ieessasen, yiwet akken ad tewwet ûûaba, ma d taneggarut i yise$ n twacult. D tagi i s-d-yusan i setti deg wul, tellez am win yefuden yeswa. Akken llan medden a nili. Iwakken ur n teffe$ ara i leewayed n taddart, eemmi yeêka-yasd i lamin amek tevra. Atan : « Furulu yusa-d s axxam yettquddur d idammen, qrib yemmut. Rri$ $er Bussaed a yi-d-yini amek d-tusa, yerra-yi-d s yir awal. Nemyuîîaf, nennu$. Azrib nnsen, d ayen teéram, yezga-d $er tama n tejmaet, ff$en-d akk At Aemeô imi d-slan i wmennu$, wwten-iyi-d s lmus. Widak nne$ bbven-d, mi walan annecten, ur cudden ara ifassen nnsen. Tekker. Wwet a d wwte$. Syin tusam-d ». Tban am yiîij uzal. Darani $ursen akk axbiô amek i tebda amek i tekfa. Amezwaru i yellin taqaeett, am akken i s-nefka leqder i$ yefka lêeq, am akken i$ yefka lêeq a senyefk di$en lêeq i wiyav. Widak i d-ileqmen awal-is, nnan-d azun ayen d-yenna. Cebbêen-d kan ameslay s imedyaten, s yenzan d isefra dyebbi umeddaê di teqsiî. Awal tura i lecyax !
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Yiwen degsen yeddem-ed adlis d aqdim, yura s taerabt, berrik seg wabbu, yennev deg yiwen ubeênuq : d nnesxa. Ye$ra-d akken cwiî degs ur nefhim tabruyt. Yedea-ya$ s wayen yelhan u yessawel i lbaôaka, yu$al din din, yendeh s kra yellan d aeessas ar d a$-d-tas deewessu limmer a nesmenteg times. Imiren kan setti tekcem-itt tugdin, tué ar $ures tessuden adlis nni. Ma d eemmi ilaq-as ad yessers afus-is $ef nnesxa nni u ad iggal fellas ur inuda $ef At Aemeô, ur yessem$ar tisri. Ula d ifnaten nne$ da$en ad ggalen. Fiêel ma yesla uôumi a yesmeckuklen taluft. Maca imi yuzlen idamen, lqavi a d-yessekcem tacyaxt-is, d acu lamin a t-yessedhu s eecrin n duôu a s-yefk si leevil di loib-is sya ar asmi a s-tent ne$rem nekkni d At Aemeô. Annect-agi yakk nnan-a$-t-id. eemmi ur tid-yuli wawal, yerra s-ul-is ; isewweq ; baba yellez. Ma d lxiô gara$ d At Aemeô yegzem s ya $er zzat. Ulac win sent-igan ccan i tqulhatin agi imeôôa, awi-d kan a d-ters lehna, ad yekfu îîrad fellane$. Im$aren ff$en s $urne$. Rran $er At Aemeô a sen-d-sersen talwit am akken i $-tt-id-sersen, u seg wassagi akin ur nettemlaei yara yidsen. Tesqama-a$-d $layet. Nu$al d icunga. Wa ur yettaf wa, wa ur ixeddem lxiô i wa. Ma d Bussaed, xas ad ikkes a$bel i wul-is, maççi azekka a yi-d-yaf qqime$ $er tama-s iwakken ad lemde$ amek kesun iqecwalen n leqbayel.
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Xwalti zed$ent i snat deg wezniq nne$. Jeddi Ëmed yeooa-tent-id di texxamt ur nesei taerict ur nesei addaynin. Di te$meôt ieannec yiwen ukufi annect ilat iwumi ur zmirent xwalti at ççaôent. Ssqef yekna-d, ma d tabburt d yiwen n lluê i d nettat. Tehri n lêaôa ur teedda yara lqed n wergaz, te$zi-s dayen i d tasga. Nemdukmaô zzdaxel am ibuêeddaden di tewrizt. Maca leênana tufrar-ed : lêiv tmussev a k-d-yeslef amzun a kyessinef einettu, ijeqduren a s-tiniv ttecmumuêen-d di îlam. Awah, xaîi ! Lqefû , teméi-w ur yelli d lêebs, ur t-yezdi$ unu$ni. Ussan d-sseedda$ din ufgen am wavu. Ur ssine$ ara isem n xwalti almi tent ssne$ nutenti s tiad nnsent aîas. Isem, $er $uri, amzun ulac-it. Ur yesei anamek. Akka ula $er baba d
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yemma. Nekk $ile$ d nnecôaêa asmi, yellis n eemmi tamecîuêt tenna-yi-d belli baba isem-is Öemvan, babas Lewnis, yemma Favma ma d yemmas Ëlima. Imiren i faqe$ belli d wiyav i sen yessawalen akagi, wamma nekkni nefka-yasen awalen ççuren d sser d leênana u yernu n yiman nne$ kan. Nek $uri xwalti ur seint ara isem : yiwet xalti tayev nanna. Tin umi qqare$ xalti d nettat i d tamenzut. Ttwali$-tt ger wallen-iw teççuô, $ures tazmert. Tugar yemma i $er tettak cwiî acbi. Udem-is rqiq u $ezzif, tiênakin-is zegga$it am usisnu. £ures lqed d tuzert, allen d sin ieeqqayen uzemmur aseôôaoi, muqrit u berrikit. Ma d amzur, teskerfit ne$ teooit, seg wakken yeççuô, yezga cwiî kan $ef tuyat-is, maççi d ayen tett$umu ne$ yettaîîaf umendil. S wezday lqedd i tleêêu, akken d tuweiôt i d tushilt u d tasusamt am yemma ; d ayen teooa ta i teddem tayev. Ma d tayevnin sawale$-as Nanna. Mi sei$ setta iseggasen di leemô-iw, nettat tessawev eecrin. Kifkif-itent di lqedd nettat d louheô, yellis eemmi, d tizyiwin. Yessis eemmi akken ma llant qqaren-t-ed tif yessetmatsent di tezyen d ûûifa. Di leênana éri$. Tioiratin imeôôa êemlent-ett, tin yekkren a k tini « Yamina nne$ ». Babas ieuzz-itt $ef yessetmas, tiden u$alent-as am yemmas. Tennum tta$ent-as awal, tebbi-tt kan akken. Tesseqdac ula d Favma, xas akken s warraw-is. Ma d xalti, ur tt-id-ttqamaô deg wacemma, ur s-dteqqar la zzant wala rr$ant.
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Ma ttmeyze$ akka tura, afe$ $ursent lêeq imi s-fkant ôôay i nanna. Yemma yeddren ger lehmum d i$ublan, yeôwan asawen d ukessar, yeswan timeôéuga deg wasmi temmut setti, syin yerna $ures jeddi, teqqel am lexyal n tebêirt ; aksum yezwi, ôôay yesbek. Ur tettnamar, ur ttteddu di nneqma i wid têemmel. Ma yella win iréan awal-is mi d-tefka tidmi-s akka yiwen wass i useggas ur s-d-uqie ara, ad tessusem amzun kra wer yevri. Ma d xalti, awal sin teîîerveq. Têemmu am baba Lewnis, maca netta d argaz, yettnwal taqbaylit. Qqaren : « Ddaw webrid, nnig webrid, leqrar-is d abrid », $ur xalti xaîi, tezga tecev. S tikli am ta, d awez$i iwakken a d-ters talwit ne$ a tt-éev leêmala ger loiran. Xas rrsen-ted, ur ttdument ara. Maççi d tikkelt maççi d ssnat, xalti wiî ur tessemsi yessis n Ëmed deg ulawen n leemum nnsent. Imeîîawen n yemma ur gin leenaya, a$unzu n baba ur d-yeqvi liser, aêami n baba Lewnis am yile$ n wuffal, ur yebbi ur yerri. Iêun Öebbi tella « Yamina nne$ ». S lehduô ines êlawen, Qasi yessuruf i xalti ma yella tennu$ tameîît-is ; Dadda Aeôab yettara iman-is maççi fellas ma yella yettwargem ; tameîîut n Dadda Aemeô teseuééug i lqub. Iles aéidan iteîîev tasedda. Tefka-yas-tt-id twenza-s, i nanna ! Tuklal. - Ur smeêsiset ara i xalti, ay atmaten ! d tamehbult nne$. D tamhbult nnwen. Ilaq awen a s-tawim. Ssukkes-t-iyi-d ayen i wen yehwan, ssukkeset-as-d i Favma. Wama nettat ! ur
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tteççêet ara fellas, anef-as att smuhbel. Bih bih ad tu$al ad tendem. Akken i tveôôu. Xalti imir imir tettendemmay imi tt-yeffe$ leeqel. Lad$a att terr i ymeîîawen d usmu$ben, att ttlummu deg iman-is. Afus t$eééa, s tazla i tettôuêu $ures a tessuden. Tmeççeê kra tessusef. Wid yettna$en akked xalti ur ttamnen ara iman nnsen, maççi d tameîîut nni n lina, tikwal qqaren-as ma maççi d tameslubt i deg d-nemjadal. S umata tferru talft. Akken i ssurfen ass-a, i éran as surfen azekka. Xalti akken tesserwat i tessizdig. S sshala i si tgeddel is i tettu$al. Tettawi-d ccêani tamara ur tt-terri. Di tilawt, ddeqs i yesmusluben aka am nettat. A tenafev êninit wulawen nnsen. Ur teffren acemma ; ur teddun di nneqma ; ur ttarran nnmara ; ur sserfuyen yiwen. Ttawin ddeôk almi sen-yu$al d tucva. Teddun di leb$i i wiyav almi vuôôen iman nnsen. Imuqranen qaren-as wigi « d arrac ! ». Xalti segsen. Yura di twenza-s akken a teqqim alma temmut. Dayemi i sseuééugen i wayen a d-tini, teqnen allen nnsen $ef ayen a texdem. Tedder ddaw n tecvaî n Nanna, tetta$-as awal maca tikwal s nnig wul-is, s wekras n wenyir, am llufan nni ur nelliz ara, yesmermuzen kan weêdes ; akken xalti. Kra n teswiein tettaf-ed, ma k-d-tini lêaoa $ef yiwen am umesmaô di lluê, a s-tiniv tettkacaf. Tettaeqal wissen amek ? Win têemmel a tesdari $ef wayen n dir, d ayagi. U yernu, ur s-dyettas di lbal att-faôes tagnitt iwakken a tteseu cwiî n lhiba. Xaîi, tidmi-s teffer-itt $ures ; tabae ur
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tezmir ara a tt-id-tessefru, i wumi a tt-id-tini ? Tikwal da$en, ur tuksan ara att-îîef tavsa ne$ a tteffer imeîîi, tessufu$-ed kra yellan deg wul-is ; d leêmala ne$ d a$unzu, d lqeôê ne$ d lefeôê. Cwiî kan akka da$en ad tu$al ad ters. Ameyyez n xalti ires-as deg ul i Furulu am teêbult taêmayant di teebbuî. D tidett, nanna êemle$-tt nezzeh. Ma yi-terbu deg rebbi-s, tkemmez-iyi yakk, tssudun-iyi, tettbuddu-yi s kra yellan. T-tteddu-yi aîas di leb$i. Maca xalti, maççi akken. Tettwali dgi d amdan am nek am wiyav. Tettarra iman-is tettmeslay yidi s nniya-s, tettakiyi lêeq ma sei$-t, tessevlam-iyi ma ilaq. Amzun d tizyiwin, nettemceqlal seg-ul, s tidett nne$ ; u tikwal nettnecôaê am sin llufanat. Ufi$ iman-iw yides d ayen kan. D ayagi iyi ooan êemle$-tt. Asmi kecme$ i tikkelt tamezwarut $er xwalti, d wetma id-iyi-bbin. Tettbibbi-yi imi akken sei$ tamudi n sin iseggasen. D asedhu iyi tessedhu Baya nne$ iwakken a neoo yemmatne$ ad-telhu d leqdic-is. S yin, teqqel-iyi d tanmi. Degmi zemrent tqejjirin-iw ad iyi refdent, ttwintiyi, amzun ttwajebdent s ddkir, $er texxamt n xwalti. £er din kan i ttarra$, din kan i ttafe$ imaniw, ma xvi$ deg wexxam nne$, ur teseiv anda a yid-tafev s nnig axxamt nni n xwalti. Baya nne$ ezga $er xwalti, seg wasmi meééiyet. Yu$al d axxam nne$ wis sin. Nga tawacult nniven tamecîuêt garane$ kan, s lesrar-is, s wuraren-is, s wurfan-is. Ma d imennu$en nne$ tessefsaxiten leêmala am wedfel yessefsay yiîij.
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Xwalti xeddment afexxaô, xedment tavuî. Lêaôa tezga teççuô d tibuqalin. Di te$meôt, ar tama n lluê, tsenned taffa n yes$aren i s a d-qdent asmi a d-yawev lawan. Deg umezwaru n efsut i beddunt lxedma ufexxaô. Baya d xalti, seddaw taddart i d-ttemêelfafent s yesnan yeççuren d tala$t. D tirac itt-fettrent di lêaôa iwakken a ttekkiw, syin att-ddzent alma tu$al d awren. Attôôucent s waman a d-yeffe$ am urekti, a t-ooent a d-yekkussem. Mi eeddan fellas sin wussan, a t-idkksent, as-sefrurint kra iceqfan n tbuqalin yeréen a t-eerkent di snat yidsent akken ilaq lêal. Iceqfan nni yeqden yakan akk d tala$t tamaynut ttken-d afexxaô ur netteqqiq ara. Tura d afeûûel i dyeqqimen. Xalti, ad terfed abrue-s alma d tigecrar, a ttxemmel i i$allen-is alma d tuyat ; s ufella n yiwet n telwiêt, a d-tesers tala$t ; a tt-teddez, a ttteerek, din din a d-tessufe$ talqaet ama d uskir, d tarbut ne$ d tabuqalt, d taêbult timdewweôt. Ma tger iman-is deg ufexxaô, tettarra lwelha-s ala $er din. Nek éri$ maççi d lawan n lehduô. Ttanef$-as. Udem n Nanna yezga yecôeh, ur tettêiri ur yelli. Ula d nettat a d-teîîef ayen mi zemren ad awin ifassen-is n tala$t, ad treggi, ad tmettel, ad tberren degs alma yu$al d ajaebub, yettle$wi amzun d azrem; Mi meqqer, nettat teéra te$zi i silaqen, a d-tgezzem d tileqmin, syin a t-id-tezzi s lemêadra i teêbult nni i d-thegga Xalti. Afegrun deg ufus, ad tjebbed tala$t nni, ad tessirqiq degs
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alama teeôôeb-ed telqaet n lêila teb$a a dtessufe$. Mi tekfa yiwet ad tu$al $er tayev, kan akken, ur tetteeîîil ara tetteqvae-ed wetmas. Xwalti, ur d-ttheggint ara sennig ôebea n t$awsiwin $ef tikkelt, acku meééiyet lêaôa. Mi tekfa tneggarut, tamezwarut att-ya$ lêal tekkaw cwiî, teswa. A d-teddem taûveltt nniven yeççuôen d arukti a s-tt-ternu $ef yiran. S ufegrun tettekkay, tessirqiq, tesseedal tale$t nni i terna. Simmal tettemsal degs, iran ttalin-d, ta$awsa tetteeôôib-ed cwiî. Annect-agi yakk d Nanna i t-ixeddmen. S tvidac-is i d-wezzen lêila nni amer a s-teewej ne$ a d-teoo ieeôôiben s ibeôôa, teslufuy-as iwakken ad tilwi$ am win yeslufuyen i llufan ; leênana-s imeôôa teger-itt degs. Maççi ala tileqwae it-tteg Xalti, ula d nettat tessen am Nanna. Maca, win iddan iéra, tibuqalin id-ittef$en deg ifassen n Nanna weêdsent. Zgant weznent, qeedent, tuli-d teenqiqt nnsent u seant imi amzun yeffe$-ed si lqaleb. D tidak-is i d-yufraren, i smenyafent sut n taddart. £er tecbeê i cebênt tbuqalin-is, ternayasent tefses. Yal tin ixeddmen afexxaô udem i d as-tettak. Sekn-ed tabuqalt i tneggarut degsent a k-d-tini anwa afus itt-ixedmen. Degsent, yiwet ur tegdil Nanna ; Rnu acôah idehnen udem-is deg wemviq n nnefxa d zzux. £ef ayagi i tettwaêemmel di taddart, kra d-yeff$en deg ifassen-is yenza. Xalti, ur tettasem ara di metmas, mgal tulza i tellez imi tt-tesea. Neqqar s teqbaylit : “d ayen yellan deg wul n wemdan i d-yettef$en deg udem-is”. Deg ul n Nanna, anagar leênana i t-
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ized$en, d tin i d-ittef$en di t$awsiwin txeddem. Xalti, d tamezwarut i yfeôêen s wetmas, tettaoayas akk ayen iweeôen, nettat tlehu-d d tisebbalin d wuskiren d tuggiwin. Lêaôa d texxamt mdekmarent di leêwal, ula d akufi i$um. Tikli nne$ d acrured am win ileêêun $ef tmellalin, ambiwel nne$ s lemêadra amer i nettruéu. Xas akken, nek d Baya ur d a$-d-iris ara di lbal atent-neoo. Nessedhan allen nne$ s tmu$li. Xalti, yezga yekres wenyir-is, ma d Nanna ters am lmalykat. Yal ta$awsa s tmacahutt-is, ama d tafedreqt, ama d taberradit ama d ayen nniven ; simmal tettban-ed d acu-tt, simmal tettnerni ne$ t$elli deg wulawen nne$. Tikwal ma d-teffe$ yiwet tezleg ger ifassen n xalti, nettkaekie d tavsa, nettat imiren a d-yerwi ugellaô-is, att-teîîef atttewwet $er lqaea ad tefruri yakk d iceqfan. Nekkni d tarewla, a neffer deffir n kra n tsebbalt ibedden kan $ef cceê, a nettavsa d tufra ; cwiî kan akka, xalti a s-$lin wurfan. Mi kksent deg we$bel afeûûel ufexxaô, ayen iweeôen yekfa. Taekumt tennefsusi. Ayen dyeggran d dhu. Mi qqurent t$awsiwin nni ; ilaq ad bôeqcen. Tid ur teqdent ara, am tberruday, tisebbalin, ssedhanent-tent s tumlilt, mezzint-tent iwakken ad ilwi$ent. Acku tale$t s i ttwaxeddment tettak $er tewre$ ma maççi $er tezwe$. Ula d Baya akk d Titi ggarent ifassen nnsent. Amzay ur yeêwao ara aîas n tmusni, d aslufu s ufegrun ne$ s uzemzi alegga$ akk d tuksa ieerriben ne$ ikeeruren ma qimen ur sen girent ara tamawt
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tidak ifeûlen lêila nni. Yessetma yebbi-d fellasent ad lemdent ayen mi zemrent. Deg usberqec ur teseiv wa d-iêamin xwalti. Zeggirent di teemamt, a s-d-zzint i lêila s lme$ri, syin ad u$alent $er wesberqec s yemkuéen, ikerdisen d twinas. Ijeôôiven ireqaqen, anagar Nanna, yiwen ur yezmir a ten-id-yawi eedlen, weznen, ur zellgen akka d wakka. Ma twaliv ti$emmaô nni amek i tenttteerrib, a s-tiniv d ayagi kan i d cc$el-is am yiv am ass. A sent-ed-tezzi yiwet yiwet i texxamin nni d tiddas nni d-tessufe$ xalti. Weznent u gdant ta wer tugar ta. Nanna d taéurit d wawal. Tafsut meôôa seeddayent-ett deg ufexxaô. Ala tuqda i ttaooant i wnebdu, imiren i twulem. Mi ara d-yawev lawan nni, xwalti ur seeunt ugur, acku d asar$u i d a$bel, nutenti yu$ lêal teennec taffa di lêaôa nnsent aîas aya. Ass n wu$ud d ass asaedi. Tteegginent-ett. Ur yettili d lexmis wala d loemea, iêeôôem-it Nnbi, i d-nnant ... Letnayen da$en mêant-ett leewayed, wissen ay$er. £ef akken d-qqarent tid d-yecfan, tuqqda igerzen tettili deg wass n ttlata d wass n laôbea, axxi kan ad yelhu lêal. Takummict usigna deg genni ur ilaq ara ad tili. Cwiî ubeêri yezmer ad ig tawa$it imi di lexla, beôôa n taddart i ttarrant u$ud. Tasraft nni yu$alen d lkanun t$um imeôôa s ticcicin, acemma wer d-yettban degs ala abbu d-iteff$en i nettwali. Mi ar a tendeh tmes, lal ufexxaô tettergigi am yifer, amer i d-iveôôun : zzheô uewij, yir tawenza, lmektub, ayen $ef wer yebni bab-is, annect-a yakk yeskaway ifadden. Ajajiê yettenkaren zdaxel
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nsell-as izehher am asif d-iêemlen mi ara yeskefkuf. Ma yesteôviq tiqejmyaô akk d tiqecrin, yal wa tasa-s di lkumca-s, acku imiren ig ttfelliq ufexxaô, yettûeeûie am weebaô. Atan ayen ttaggden medden ; kra imeêêen bab-is deg useggas, kra yeôwa n lmerta ad iôuê deg yiwen wass. A d-ggrin d iceqfan : wa yebva, wa yewwet degs i$isi, wa yeffurem, lêaûun... Alamma d Öebbi ma yerra tiréi. Ur d-yett$am uba$ur. Yella deg wawal : terreé-as deg u$ud. A d-ggrint wallen i ymeîîi. Mi ar a twennee tuqda, yemma d baba icerreh wudem nnsen amzun d tame$ra $ursen maççi $ur xwalti. Yekkes unezgum n lqut, akufi nni amuqran n xwalti ur yett$imi ara d ilem, xas ur yettaççaô ara alama d imi, ayen is ar a sseeddint tagrest yella. Nnûib nnsent yusa-d. Lêilat timecîaê ttnuzunt s wayen ttawint n teméin ; tibuqalin d tberudday s wezgen umud, isugam d tsebbalin s umud. Baba tennefsusi fellas yiwet n teekumt, yeéra ula d arraw-is ad ttekkin di lqut nni, maca yeqqen allen-is, maççi s ufaôes ne$ d dd$el, d acu amzun d yiwet n tawacult. Darani, aêami yettêami tilewsatinis, ur yelli $ef udem n medden kan, seg ul zeddigen i yeggar afus-is. Itellez mi ar a $ektent tidi nnsent, ur meênent ara di rrayee ; muqqer ussis wer yumis. D netta i d-yettawin iqjemyaô, d netta i yettqeddiren tiqecrin, d netta i yessendahen yemma akk d Baya iwakken a dawint tale$t u ad êamint xwalti di leqdic afessas n wexxam. Ass n wu$ud yettqerrie $ef user$u nni
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amer it yettawin, yu$ lêal srusuyent tameddit, ttheggint i wzekka nni. Akken kan a d-yenqer yiîij, xwalti di snat ad krent ad $iwlent $er din. Ma ssi$ent times, baba yettili yidsent. Mi tekfa tuqda, amviq nni yettu$al d ôôeêba n tlawin d tullas. Ggarent meôôa ifassen nnsent, ttêamintent deg siwev. Maca, llant tid umi zzur wudem, tid umi $uzzif ufus ur nettêezzib i tukerva. Xwalti iteffe$itent leeqel deg wannecten n lhul. Baba di îîerf yeggar tamawt, kra yellan $ef tiî-is. Ur d-tezzi yara dduôt ne$ snat, kra din yenza. Timéin kecment-ed, yu$al fellasent u$ummu, yal wa yufa leêsab-is. Amdukmer yekfa, laé nezzi-yas s weerur. Ma d azeîîa, xas ur yettawi yara amviq aîas, yeêwao nnveô. Ggarent-ett di tesga ; a d-sbeddent snat n trigliwin, ifeggagen ad wwten si trigla $er tayev, asegru a ten-yeîîef am cced. Ala azal ideg a yeeddi wemdan i s-ttaooant garas d we$rab. I yeb$u yekkit, ulac win yerza u$bel-is. Mi ar a zeîîent, a d-sersent alemsir ne$ tagertilt ad qiment fellas, ad sendent $er lêiv. Mmeslay $ef yiman-ik : êku-d tamacahutt, awi-d timesaeraq, ssefru, ur tvurrev yiwen. Amzun d asedhu i ssedhuyent iman nnsent degs ma ulac cc$el nniven. Uqbel a iger uzeîîa, xwalti sqerdicent taduî. Mi ttgant d tibnavin, ad ttelment s yeédi syin s truka. D ulman yesean inze$ i yettu$alen d ided. Nanna tessufu$-iten-id d ireqqaqen am imezran ueudiw, tesse$may-iten, u tesberqic azeîîa am akken tesberqic afexxaô. Ma d xalti, a s-
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tafev ixef-is di lxedma ufexxaô, wama deg uzeîîa tesferfuc d nnger. Ma teddez s uyaéil, tikwal s lem$awla tikwal s ttawil ; ur tesei yara yakk lmizan. Mi teêbes, xas in-as d yiwen deg ulman nni i tesse$res, ilaq-as at-cudd. Ur tbeqqu yara Nanna, maca limmer a s-d-tesbin ne$ att-kres fellas anyir-is, xalti imiren ad tdegger kullec u ad tekker din. £ef ayagi i teb$u tessexseô wetmas teqqen allen-is Nanna. Iwakken ad tekfu ayen tger, ama d aedil ama d abernus ama d ayen nniven, Nanna tezga tetteawaz $er teftilt tader$alt n yiwen lmeûbaê aqdim. Maççi d tikkelt ne$ d snat iyi tezzuzen s tuddza uyaéil, i îîse$ ger xalti akk d Baya. Ma wer a$-d-iris ara naddam, ma tili Nanna tzeîî nekkat-ed timucuha u nettwanas-it. Zemre$ a d-ini$ belli timucuha jebdent-iyi $ur xwalti am ddkir. Baba akked yemma weroin sen-sli$ wweten-a$-d yiwet kra n wass. £ursen d timucuha n ddunit kan i yellan : ta tûubb ta tuli, ta tezleg ta tselles ; êala ayen umi ur éri$ tigert. Di kra n teswiein d tuççit n weksum di loaô ne$ deg yiwen i$-yettilin i wakken ad yemsu deg ul-iw. Aeiwez yidsen ur yesei lbenna $uri. Maççi am xalti, ma d-têekku nettu$al nek yides d wiyav. Tettlaled tefsut deg meslayen-is xas d agris i ygezzmen di beôôa. Tkeççem dgi tmacahutt. Limmer ttafe$ ad ççe$ tasa-s d tazegzawt i ugellid d-i$evlen rrebrab di tmurt-is ; tettrusu-yi $ef ul tmettant n tteryel s ufus n Mqidec ; $ellin-iyi-d iberquqen ma tili ya m bab teooa i laé arbib-is yeggujlen s yemmas u tagara ma d-yas wergaz-is a d-tesbib
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tilufa $ef weqcic wer nednib ad yernu ad ya$ ti$rit ; tikwal ssarame$ ad ili$ d igellil d-yufraren s tiêôci-s ger tezyiwin-is i tefren yellis ugellid nni mi yeslef sser. Ayen beedent nnehtat d werkas n wenyir imawlan-iw ! Tamacahutt tettquddur degymi n xalti u tesse$-tt am aman unebdu. Wala$ uêric d nniya, bu tissas d bu tasa n tyaziî, bvi$ ger tidett d tkerkas, ger ûwab akk d targit. Xalti tezmer a yi-d-tessevs am akken a yi-d-tesru. Wissen ma yi-$iv win i yittilin am akken iyi tt$aven isaven n tmucuha ? Ma ten-t-id-kkat xalti, t-tettu iman-is amzun tettamen yissent. Ula d nettat tettavsa u tettru yidi. Ma ttili d tmacahutt i$yesnu$nin neggan ulawen nne$ qebren, ma d tin yessexlaeen ttergigi$ am yifer êerûe$ $ures a yitekkes cwiî n tugdi. U$ale$ sne$ d acu i d anza, d acu i d tawkilt ; lfal n temôeqemt, n bururu, n wemcic aberkan, n wewtul ... Ddaw weelaw, i lêamu ger Baya nne$ d Xalti, tabburt n wefrag d tin n texxamt sekkôent send a d-ye$li yiv, imeééu$en-iw llin, kra yellan iqbel-it lmux-iw. A mendeô ma ylaq-iyi ad ff$e$ $er lêaôa weêdi? Aksum-iw ad yeccirew, ul-iw ad yekkat amendayer ma d i$esmaren-iw ad ceîîêen ; cwiî uskerwec n wemcic ne$ n wavu ad su$e$ ne$ ad qare$ din amzun d kra i d-ileêêun $uri ne$ i yi-dyesbecbucen. Lexyal yellan a t-wali$ d alaxeôt ne$ d awa$zen-iw. Awah ! Xelûe$-t $lay lawan nni aéidan n tmucuha acku ar tura teqqim-iyi-d lxulea. Asu$u n tekeebt ne$ n bururu tthabi$-ten, êala yir lfal i ttwali$ degsen, êala abaxix umi sawalen. I
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b$u$ nedôe$ iman-iw, tamu$li n lmegget tezga tessexcawat-iyi, ne$ ahat ad zegre$ timeqbert n Tizi deg yiv ur yi-d-teccef ara tidi tasemmaî ? d awez$i. Akken yeb$u yili, tajmilt n Xalti muqqret imi yi-tessekcem tirga, imi yi-tesselmed di teméi-w amek a d-snulfu$ tagelda deg i ttelze$ ma xaqe$, tagelda m tsarutt n wewra$ yettwafren u tin mi medlent tebbura anagar i nek.
- VI Ccfi$ am ass-a i tikkelt tamezwarut mi zegre$ amnaô n lakul. Üûbeê nni, lli$ seêmuye$ di lêaôa, akken kan tekcem yemma s axxam a d-tawi ôôefea n lemleê d wuraw n seksu, baba yusa-d di tejmaet ; yecôeh wudem-is u yetqelleq. Tifedôeqt uyefki trekkem s ufella n lkanun. I nek umi dteeddel yemma d acu ara ççe$. Maca, i wakken a yi-d-iûaê imekli am win n wassen, ilaq a t-ssefk teswiet : ad yili seksu, a d-yagar uyefki u da$en zzehô-iw ad yili d adrar,wetma tamecîuêt ur tettili yara din ; acku ula d nettat a d-tessuter amur-is, ayen a yawin yemma a$-d-ternu ne$ a$ tebvu winna yellan, u ma ulac aîas, d asqav kan a $tesqev. Assagi tevsa-yi-d. Weêdi i eence$ zzat n tfedôeqt nni. Xas akken ttnudume$ u allen-iw ççurent d tirtaw, aeebbuv-iw yuki-d. Qqaren : ala ayen yuran kan a teççev ; d tidett. Segmi d-yenîeq baba, yufeg felli naddam, réag deg-imi-w lqut. Ur d-yemmeslay ara : isu$-
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ed. Yessefrawes-iyi. Imiren kan uki$-d am win iyi d-iôuccen s waman. - £iwel, $iwel, i s-yenna i yemma, ssired-as tifettusin-is d wudem-is, tamgeôî-is d timeééu$inis. Tenniv-as ahat ccix ad yeqbel ibki am wagi ? - Ula d tabeônust-is tumes. Anef-as ar azekka a s-tt-sirde$ ad iôuê d azedgan. T$illev yella kra umi sli$ deg wayen d-tenna yemma ! - Teb$iv ad izewwer abîal i t$uri ines. Azekka ad ttwaîîfen akk imukan. Nnan-d weeôen iôumyen, u yernu ala netta i nesea. Ur ilaq ara ad ya$ ti$rit $ef demma nne$. Darani ; maççi ass amezwaru a nawev d ineggura. £iwel, $iwel. S lem$awla iyi tessared yemma. Imiren kan bbve$ $er lakul. Amôaê yemdukmer deg warrac am tzemmurt di zzerzuô. Mazal-iyi îîeglile$. Ah ! Anda-t imekli inu ... Deg wexxam, wetma tamecîuêt, titi, ad taf iman-is ; weêdes a tessewlellef tifedôeqt nni n seksu d uyefki. Ass am ass-a ad as-tecfu. D tawenza-s i s-t-yefkan. Ass amezwaru, dduôt tamezwarut, aseggas amezwaru, ur d-ooin ara lateô dgi. Ayen b$u$ nuda$ di lmux-iw, ulac i d-yufraren. £urne$ sin lecyax, d arraw n tmurt di sin. Yiwen d azuran, d awezlan, d bu leênak, a s-tiniv yezga yecmumeê wudem-is. Ma d wayev d bu $enjuô, d areqqaq, d a$uzfan, xas akken meqqrit icenfiren-is, d asusam ; ula d netta igerrez, yes$aray imecîaê acku d netta i d ameéyan. Zgan s ikustimen d ibernyas icebêanen am wedfel. Tban-iyi-d tmelsa
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nni tif akk tiyav, teqqim-iyi ger wallen-iw acêal d aseggas amzun akken tufrar-ed nnig-sent, tebbev taqacuct n ccbaêa. Ma d lecyax, ar ass-a, seg wezday lqed, di tikli, di lhiba sean i ttwali$ udem n ccix n lakul di tuddar nne$. Lli$ êeôce$ ne$ euggne$, lemde$ aîas ne$ drus, ur éri$ ara, ur cfi$ i wacemma. D acu, lakul ur tekôihe$ ara. Nek d wemddakel-iw, Akli, i neddukul; yu$ lêal yezwar-iyi s useggas. Yettêamid felli am zik, seddaw n tecvaî-is i ttili$. Übeê a yid-isiwel, ad i-yarou zzat n tebburt a nûubb akken. £ef leêdac a d-nu$al da$en di sin. S wul afessas d nnefxa i d-kkate$ amecwaô nni yellan ger lakul d wexxam nne$, am win d-yeqvan ta$awsa, am win d-yekksen ayen t-yeggunin deg we$bel. Akli, akka akka itett yidi imekli. Tikwal, d uraw ini$man i stettak yemma, tazwara yettagi, simmal simmal almi s-tu$al d tanumi ; di lbal-is yessas-iten-id imi yettêarab $ef Furulu. ∑adde$ $ef udem-is ger tezyiwin-iw, yiwen ur-yi-d-yettawev acku ttagaden-t. Ma d imuqranen ula i $-d-yasen segsen, nettkalay $ef gmas yeqqaren yidsen. Xas akken meééiyit, cceêna akk zed$ent imawlan nne$ di teméi ar tem$er nnsen. Deg wezrib nne$ îîuqten warrac, garasen llan wid meqqren yettaran ger wallen nnsen wid n wedrum nniven, xas akken lli$ d amaggad u d mmis n ccuq, ur êusbe$ ara am wiyav asmi kecme$ $er lakul acku yella yidi wembbanes. Ur s-tegga$ yakk leêsab i t$uri. Ttôuêu$ imi ttôuêun warrac nniven. D tame$ra nne$ ma
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tendeh d leêdac, a d-nali nnahet $er seksu i $yettôaoun yal wa deg wexxam nnsen. Yella di$en wurar, maççi s lakul i ten-nessen, netturar mebla yess. Mi muqqre$, éri$ belli yezmer bab-is ad yelmed aîas n t$awsiwin di lakul, ad yessexdem alla$-is fiêel ma imeêêen. Llant tirayin tifessasin ur ncudd $er lmerta, tid i s a-yaki, a llint wallen-is, a-yfiq i ddunit. Annect-a yella, ula d im$aren ur ne$ri umnen yess. N win d iyi ccban, Aqbayli amecîuê n sebea iseggasen ur yeêwao ara yakk tigi. D tugdin akk d nnif i t-yesduqsen. Ad iqeôôee iman-is $ef te$rit n ccix d ueekki n tizya-s t-yifen. Syin $er zzat, ta$uri a s-tili di lbal, ad yissin d acu i d azal-is, a d-ifaq, tuggdin a s-tekkes. D ayen i diyi-vôan. Igad ur nfaq ara, ttnamen tiyitwin, u$alen ur tent-ttaggaden ara, ddubzen, ma d nnif nnsen ttaooant di beôôa : êeôcen deg wurar ne$ kkaten ddree. Ma d-neffe$ di lakul, yiwen ur yettzuxxu s wayen d-yelmed. Deg wezrib nne$, d yiwen bu feôvas ur qbilen ara di lakul i d aqerru fellane$ deg wurar. Ur yeêqir ara iman-is zzat nne$. Darani $ures lêeq. Lecyax akk d imawlan nne$ a s-tiniv ur sen d-tuqie ara degne$, ur ggaren ara tamawt $ef wayen nxeddem di lakul. £ef waya i d-a$-yu$al wurar d a$bel amuqran. Yal lawan s wurar-is, alma yezzi-d useggas. Deg mezwaru n tegrest d labil, d ibellav n tqeffalin, d tisedray akk d ibulîa ad ttuqecmen meôôa, syin $ers d tizerbuvin. Ma dtawev tefsut, d timeéyanin s warwuri i d-ngezzem deg wasif. Di tagara nettu$al $er iqewwasen d
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tjewwaqin u$anim. D tigi i wumi cfi$ aîas, ooanted dgi later ur t-sfavayen iseggasen. Yiwet n tikelt, akk d kra n terbaet n warrac annect-iw, seadda$-d meôôa tameddit n wass di beôôa n taddart. Mi s-qqle$ s axxam, tajewwaqt ger ifassen, kate$ kate$ a d-awi$ yiwen ucewiq akenni lemde$, ulac. Baba yella $ef wemnaô, itekkes icifav, imiren i d-yu$al di lexla. Yu$ lêal, yemma teêwao-iyi, tettnadi-yi kra tekka tmeddit, almi ur d-iyi-tufi yara, aeni tecekta-yas i baba. - Atan, atan, i s-yenna, ur ttaggad yu$al-amd. U yernu s tjewwaqt ! Lêmdu llah, meqqer ma ur yelmid acemma di lakul, ur yettveggiô ara lweqt-is d yemdukal-is. - Akka dgek ! i yi-d-yenna. £ef ayagi i diberra fellak ccix-ik. A ttwali$ dgek tedhiv, yezha wul-ik. Zi$en $ures lêeq imi ur k-ibeddel ara lakul, yenna-yi-d. D tidett, ilindi i kecme$ maca ur eedda$ ara $er lakul wis sin. Yesla. Qqure$ s ibeddi mi yiyenna. Iban d ccix i s-ihedôen felli. Rri$ di lbal-iw, fre$ ger xemsin n yemdukal dgi qqare$, atan zi$ yessen-iyi mliê, yessen baba. £ef akka, yessen akk arrac yes$aray ihi ! Iêemmel uêôicen, yekôeh iîeglulen. Maca ur itegg maêyaf garane$, ur dyeskan belli yesmenyaf yiwen $ef wayev. Ayen wwte$ a d-afe$, eeddi keçç ! Anef, ayen yevran yevra... yeseedda awal i baba, win i$il a d iyi $iv lêal mi d-isu$ felli. Deg wul-iw feôêe$ imi sli$ di lbal, imi yga a$bel $ef nek d-yezgan d anegaru, imi maççi ala ccix i yesmuqulen sani i ssawve$.
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Cwiî umennu$ nni yerra-yi-d ul i leqraya. Ula d nek sme$re$ kan tisri. D acali i ttcali$ i $ef yerfa baba wala ayen nniven. Zemre$ ad gre$ afus-iw di tmes ar s zzher ne$ d awal kan i d-yebbin wayev mi llan ttmeslayen i s-yehdeô ccix felli, maççi d acetki. Akken yeb$u yili, d taswiet nni i yi-beddlen tikli : seg wassen êeôce$ tu$al-iyi leqraya am akken teshel. Tabae d ayen i yi-wulmen. Yal tikkelt i deg a$-d-inin di lakul d acu neb$a a nexdem sya $er zzat, ne$ d acu nessaram a nili mi ar a nim$ur, zgi$ ttecmumuêe$ u skada$ deg yemdukal-iw d nek nella u d acu nxeddem. D ayen i sehlen. Llan wid yekkaten abunyiw, $eîlen-d lbeq di lakul ma sen-yehwu. Nettqadar-iten akken ma nella. Llan içaqlalen, ttarran-tt ala i wurar d tazla, skarayen rdiê d tevsa. I ysusamen, nniyat, imaggaden, yegra-d wemviq n loid : leqraya d lefhama. D win mi meqqer uzal $er $ursen acku ala win umi zemren, tuîîfa ines d iswi nnsen. Nek, imi lli$ d ushil, d uêdiq, di terbaet tamezwarut yekkes-iyi-tt ddree, di tis snat tekkes-iyi-tt leêya. Ilaq-iyi ad îîfe$ di lêaoa, u$ale$ bbi$-tt-id d amezwaru di leqraya. Acêal n wid i neqqen iman nnsen akken a yi-d-rren $er deffir, ur uein ara, acku tikwal nnif n wedrum yettrusu-d di ôôeêba. Yekfa kan useggas nni, lhi$-d ala d leqraya. Lemde$ seg ul. Imawlan-iw, yiwen degsen ur dyeggar tamawt dgi, ur d-clieen imeôôa. Wissen ccix ma yella kra n wass i s-yenna i baba ? Ur éri$. Wid yettegririben akken a d-awin a$rum, akken a d-
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sseôwun tiebav ten-yeggunin deg wexxam, tefkayasen teswiet a d-lhun d walla$ n dderya nnsen ?... - VII Yeôwa lmerta baba iwakken a d-yawi lqut i yat wexxam. Ma yili$ di lakul, ttêellin-d amur-iw n seksu d tazart. Ur yelli d tikerkas i êemle$ ad leqme$, maca cfi$-as-d. Lad$a deg-unebdu, zgi$ deg-wexxam, yemma tettêiri ad ifak ttriê. Smeckukulen am nettat am baba, ssexdamen tiêila d tiêeôci, ur tt-cuêêun i tezmert nnsen akken ad rnun tameddit. Arraw n Caeban ur d-ufin ara kra n lweôt ne$ trika s$ur babatsen. Kkren-d d igellilen, liêala nnsen rqiqet. Segmi a yali wass alama ye$li yiîij, nutni d lxedma, akken aseggas meôôa. Astaefu ulac. Laé nnsen d ushil, zemren-as ; xas akken nnêafen, skanen-d iman nnsen $er beôôa amzun tteummun di tawant. “Mi ten-id ssuf$en lsan, ur érin $ef wayeg nnsan”. Asmi nella di dduks, $ef tuyat n setti i ters teekumt ; d nettat i d-itekksen i nnwal, d nettat i ybeîîun. Tesselhuy axxam s nnver, meééi meqqer tta$en-as awal. Temmut aseggas nni deg i kecme$ ar lakul. Weread ssine$ mliê d acu i d tamettant. Tislatin-is ttrunt fellas cwiî $ef udem n medden. Imiren rrant-ed ger wallen nnsent tilelli, akken ad ilint amek b$ant. Arraw-is neîlen-tt s wayen mi zemren. Deg-iv nni eawzen fellas azal n tlatin ixuniyen, ttdekkiôen almi yuli wass. Nezla ikerri,
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nsebb seksu, d lweeda i deg i ççan akk ime$ban n taddart. L$aci yakk ddan $er tmeqbert, imôabven $ran fellas kra n tûurtin din uqbel a tt-rren saxxam-is n lebda. Acemma ur ixuû. Im$aren d tem$arin yettwalin ass nnsen la d-iteddu ssarmen tanîelt am tinna n setti. D ayen sen yekksen lxiq i baba akked eemmi. Mi tt-id-ttcekkiôen ne$ mi ttid-ttaddren medden, qqaren-d akk d nettat i d lsas, i d tigejdit n wexxam. Ur eeîîle$ ara fehme$ anamek. Tameddit nni kan, Ëlima d yemma nnu$ent $ef lqec n setti tame$bunt. Ayen i yiswehmen aîas d eemmi akk d baba i sent-yeddan di leb$i, i sent-yeîîfen afus. Maççi kan d aya, ula d tugrin gren-d iman nnsen yal wa yettêami-d tameîîut-is. ∑eddan kra n wussan, labud-as leqrar i wexxam. Tlaq-as tmeîîut a t-yeîîfen. Llant snat. D amyezwer bbaygarasent. Tioiratin sseêmant iôidaê, smentagent times ger yemma d Ëlima. Tiyessetmatin n ta yakk d ta zgant ttweûûint degsent. Tagra baba yeooa di leêq-is, yefka-yas ôôay i tmeîîut n daddas. Iquder gmas ameqran. Baba Lewnis yeéra azal n leqder, iga-yas ccan gmas amecîuê, yellez wul-is u yecôeh wudem-is, ma d tameîîut-is ur s-d-tuqie imeôôa, $ures ur yebbi ur yerri. Yemma ur tessiger iman-is, ur tebri i yfassen-is. D beîîu i teb$a. Darani $er wannect-a i t-tteddu, ula d tanuî-is d ayen i tettnadi. D acu teb$iv ay ader$al... Awah ! Ur tdum ara tdukli nni. Tameîîut n eemmi ur tzewwer ara nniya, terra-tt i tukaôva. Tin $ezzif ufus-is ma d yemma berqent
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wallen-is. Ur teeîîel ara yemma tfaq-as, tenna-yas i baba. Cwiî kan akka yeîîef-itt s ucedluê n leid deg-ufus-is. Acedluê nni $er beôôa i yteddu maççi $er tasilt nne$. Teîîerveq. Tevêa-d b$an akk beîîu seg wul. Ur d-tegri tudert n dduks deg wexxam deg i yekfa lxiô, deg i yezde$ îîiq deg wulawen, deg i yenfa laman. Zi$en $ef aya i d-qqaren d setti i d tigejdit n wexxam, imi akken kan temmut tenîel yides nniya. D acu ar a bvun ? Ur izad wara. Tella tnezdu$t : degs axxam d snat n texxamin t-idiqublen, tekka garasen lêaôa. Axxam nni meqqer, $ures taerict teççuô d ikufan, d iqnac d yecbula n zzit, adaynin yettawi tayuga n yezgaren, amerkub d sin waxfiwen. Baba s lemqadra yeooa-yas i daddas yeffren, win yebbi axxam nni. Yemma tekker dges tmes, irkeb-itt lehwil. Snat n texxamin nni i d a$-d-iûaêen, nekkes-asent lêiv nni garasent, u$alent d axxam annect n winna nniven. Lêaôa nebva-tt di tlemmast s wemrar, f$ent-ed sya u sya snat n leêwaôi timecîaê di tehri, d acu $ezzifit. Llant da$en snat n tferkiwin : yiwet d l$ella, tayev tesea azemmur. Bvan-tent s leedel. Tajenjart agi ad tili d abandu, qele-ed tilisa sya ééué-itent $er da, kecm-ed di tama nni ufella, .. lêaûun yeîîef-asen beîîu n tferkiwin dduôt meôôa. Syin u$alen s ijeqduren, $er lmal akk d îîlaba n medden. Kra tekka dduôt tulawin ce$lent, dhant. Udmawen nnsent yedhen si lfeôê. Tioiratin ta deffir ta i d-rezzunt $ursent, yal ta $er tin d-tusa
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tessaram-as tudert n lehna deg wexxam-is amaynut. - A Favma, i s-d-qqarent i yemma, êmed Öebbi, tura aqli-kem-id $er yiman-im, xas teççiv akal yiwen ur kem yeéri. Yemmam d tameîîut leali, tebbiv degs lbaôaka, s lxiô i d am tdeeu. - A m-iêrez i teseiv, i m-ttarra$ di lxiô. Am ass-a, ma irad weênin, a nase$ $er lfeôê-im, i sent-tettara yemma. Leêdaqa d lekyasa ttquddurent garasent. Atmaten êussen-as, te$li-d rrehba fellasen. Taekumt eebban di sin, tu$al-asen $ef snat, zik akken teb$u taéay zzin-as ; i wzekka ? Tessexcawet-iten tmu$li-s ; ttwalin immal nnsen t$ummit tagut. Afud yebva, laé ad yennerni. Mmu$ebnen. Mi ara bvun watmaten, neqqar : beîîun ccwal. Xas tadukli yewwet-itt i$isi, tagmatt ur t-ttceqqiq, ad tdum i yeb$un yevru. Ussan nni imezwura, ttemyencaden s imensi. ∑emmi yezga yessawal-iyi-d ad ççe$ imekli $ures. Ula d Ëlima tettbuddu-yi, ur tfaq d yiman-is. Tura mi tebbev $er wanda ur d-tettu$al ndemmen deg wayen xedmen. Simmal tteeddin wussan, tatut tettrusu-d am buberrak, tiêsifin ttekfalent-ed, imennu$en ttlalen-d ttleqqimen $ef wiyav, rnu $ures tismin, yella deg wawal : tismin n tnuvin... Baba akk d baba Lewnis ttazalen yal wa $ef wexxam-is, lhan-d d we$bel ten-yeggunin ; a$bel n we$rum. Ma ur sen-yefki wul nnsen ad mbudden ayen n dir, ur sen-tefki teswiet ad mêamin. Msakit, “yiwen meeduô, wayev aêlil“.
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Tulawin nnsen sseknent-ed einani udem nnsent. D tibeôaniyin i snat, weroin myeêmalent. Ur uôoint yiwen a tent-iweûûi akken ad msekôahent. Ssuf$ent-ed kra yellan deg ulawen nnsent, di tezmert nnsent. Hebrent deg iv deg wass, sseêôacent dderya nnsent, ttêamint irgazen nnsent di cc$el, ssarament ad awvent $er leb$i n wul nnsent : d askan i medden belli ur a $-iôuê wara mi nebva, tura i nufa iman nne$ wala zik, u yernu menyif nekkni wayev. Baba d afellaê, d akal i d cc$el-is : ikerrez, iferres, ittleqqim, itteééu... Kra iseggasen kan, tiferkiwin nne$ fkant-ed udem nniven. £urne$ tayuga n yezgaren, a$yul, ta$aî d sin wakraren. Izgaren maççi d ayla nne$, n yiwen umaôkanti i sen-t-id-yeooan i baba di tefsut. Neseelfiten u nkerrez yissen lexla nne$. Di lexôif ad nnzen wa nawi amur wis tlata deg uba$ur. Lmal nniven ur a$-yettalas degs yiwen. A$yul netteêwio-it d ayen kan. Kra n tteebga yellan fellas : is$aren akk d leêcic si lexla s axxam, le$beô seg wexxam $er tmazirt. Yettawi da$en baba fellas acwari n téurin ne$ tacekkaôt ini$man $er temdint, yettara-d timéin fellas ma yewea iman-is a tent-id-ya$. Lawan n lxuvôa, tetteebbi yemma fellas ifelfel, îumaîic, taxsayt i teznuzuy i sut n taddart s wazal nnsen n lêebb. Akraren d nekkni i ten-yettôebbin. A ten-idya$ baba d izamaren, mi d-yezzi useggas a ten-idyaf lêal mmden. Yiwen a t-nezlu di leid, wayev a tyezzenz wa d-yerr azal nnsen di sin. Akka yal leid
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tamuqrant, nzellu ikerri mebla ma iûeôôef baba acemma fellas. Maççi ala i wyefki umi nettôebbi ta$aî. Tezga tettak-a$-d yiwen ne$ sin i$iden i yettawi baba, s lfeôê, $er ssuq mi ara yawven i uzenzi. Ttilint teswiein i deg ntett akka yiwen. “Ur ttweûûi ara agujil $ef imeîîawen”. Igellilen am nekkni, mi ar a yili uqelwac ger wallen nne$, maççi d ssebbat i yxuûûen akken a t nessexbibev. Yemma ttafen-tt sin ne$ tlata waîîanen, d acu weroin d-banen fellas. Kra ma d-téur, d aqelwac i s-d-ceôven iwakken a tteêlu. Zzheô nne$ d adrar! Acku yal tikkelt, d aqelwac bu yini s i yeberqec win yeggunin deg udaynin nne$ i d ddwa ines. Ma maççi d yemma, d baba i yekkat tikwal îîaglal. Neéra akk belli aîîan agi itekk-ed si leonun. Iwakken ad ff$en, ilaq ad azlen idammen, yernu d widen uqelwac. Da$en, cceôî ad yili am winna nne$. Wis tlata i fi$ef yettazzal ujenwi $er temgeôî uqelwac ame$bun d amenzu n wexxam. Ma dyessetma, leonun nnsent sehlen, d tuzya n tmellalin kan i ylaqen. Iwakken a$-d-ya$ baba cwiî n weksum di sssuq, yal sin wagguren ne$ tlata, d aêellel degs dduôt meôôa. Ma yili d aqelwac dnôebba, ur s d-tuqie ara, ini-yas kan atan yezla-t. Akka yakk i gan ifellaêen n tmurt nne$. Rrqiqet liêala nne$, êercawet ddunit, îîaxeîîa win d-yetta$en aksum. Nessawev ead keçç i weksum ! lqut nne$ n yal ass d seksu. Ma d aseqqi, ççaô tugi d aman, veggeô-as takummict ibawen ne$ lêemmeé, abruy n tassemt ma tella, tanfev a dterkem. Akka tikwal, nrennu sin ini$man d zzit.
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Iêun Öebbi llan lexlawi, ççuôen d tuzevla, waêrir, bibras, tizwal atg... akk d waman n leêlu dyettqudduôen di leewanûer, semvit deg nebdu u êman di tegrest. Ma d lberquq, ifires d ttefaê, akken d azegzaw i t-n$eéé, awi-d kan as-izmirent tu$mas. £urne$ win ur nezmir i lêif a t-yawi wasif. Lêif d ddel maççi d atmaten, acku ddel nugi-t meôôa ; $ef ayagi i muhabit. Zgan qaren-a$-d : “Tweeôem kunwi s imesdurar”. D lawan i yweeôen, ilaq ad tiweiôev yides ma ulac ak-ye$vel. Aéar yeîîafar aéar. Win ur nebbi iri d teméi-s, ur t-idtettaf tefsut n tnubit. Ma d win mi zzur yi$es-is, ad yagar tameddit, yezmer ad yehtuti di tagara-s, udem-is ad yucnan uqbel lawan, maca ad yidir. D tin i d lfayda. Ma d-nu$al s at Musa, Öemvan yekkat s wayen yewea, s kra yellan di tezmert-is akken a dyawi a$rum i yat wexxam. Mi ara kfun lec$al n lexla, tayerza d tmegra akk d userwet, lawan nni garasen, iteddu d amsetjaô s wass. Ixeddem d sin ibennayen. Lad$a asmi yessuli yiwen umeôkanti lemeineûra tamezwarut di taddart nne$, ccfi$-asd. Baba yesseedda din tnayen ueecrin n wussan. Vebeen deg qerruy-is. Deg menzu unebdu, icebba-yi Öebbi, is rran lsas, weread d-neffi$ di lakul. Yebna-tt bab-is nnig wanda neqqar, teffe$ cwiî i taddart. Ger wid ixedmen din akk d baba, yella dadda Qasi - yiwen n eemmi - d dadda Aeôab. Arraw nnsen, Saeid nne$ d ∑acuô, qqaren yidi. Ass amezwaru, akken kan d-neffe$ di lakul, Saeid i$emmez-a$-d,
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yennak ma nalit $ursen. Nemyesmuqal nek d ∑acuô, ur nefhim ara mliê acu$er, nu$al nennayas : Lêu. Maççi $ef leêdac i yêebbes wemeellem lxudma akken ad yeçç imekli ? Ye$ra ciîuê ; yeb$a a tt-id-yawi am iôumyen, itett di lawan. Imestijaô-is da$en akken. Ne$li swa swa fellassen mi sen-d-eedlen imekli. Ibabaten nne$ u$alen d izegga$en, ma d ameellem ênin wul-is, yenna-ya$d qqimet. Nebra i yqerray nne$, ntett. Nesqev. Nesevêa maca ntett. Zzwaren-d di leêmis n lbaîaîa s yiwet n teêdert tamuqrant n temtunt, s yin $ers d seksu n smid s weftat n weksum. Deg wannecten n lxiô, lfeôê yerra-d $er deffir leêya. Akken ddre$len ieebbav nne$ si laé i ddre$len walla$en nne$, d ilmawen di sin. D ti$ri n ieebbav nne$ umi nnsel. Simi tent-id-nssed, neîîef-itt-id d tarewla, awal ur d a$ d-yuli ama din ama deg webrid. Nettceôcuô d tidi si leêya d tuf$a n leeqel. Ayen d-nessagar n temtunt d weksum negla-d yess. Mi d-nebbev anda ur d a$-d-ttwalin ara, tu$al-a$-d teôwiêt. Yal wa yesken-d d acu d-yebbi deg urawen-is. Uqbel a nemsefraq, s nnig wul i ncekkeô Saeid imi $-yemla abrid. Ula d netta yesseuééeg. Nnger di temda ilu$en ! neéra ulawen n ibabaten nne$ ad qebren s wurfan ; allen nnsen a d-brunt i webruy n leêzen. Anda-t wudem a tenimmagren tameddit ? Akken i ttebni$ i teffe$. Baba ikres-ed anyiris felli, yeçça-t wul-is. Yerfa $ef tedyant xedme$, maca ur s-tefki yara tasa-s a d-isu$ aîas amer ad iyi ssnu$ni. Yeggul, ar yal tameddit, ar d ayi-d-
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yeglu s umur amuqran n wayen a t-id-iûaêen deg mekli. Ula d nek ggulle$ ur u$ale$ ad rzu$ fellas $er din. Yeîîef deg wawal-is, nek xaîi. Rréi$ awalis u êente$. Azekka nni di lakul, yiwen di tlata yidne$ ur d-yebdir ivelli nni. Amek i sent-tevra i Saeid d eacuô zzat ibabaten nnsen ? ur éri$ ur ten steqsa$. D acu éri$, uyr llin d arraw n ccuq... £ef leêdac mi d-neffe$, amzun nem$unza, yiwen ur imuqel wayev, yal wa yeddez igerzan-is s axxam. Yegguni-ya$ seksu n teméin, ala win i yellan, ilaq a nesteqnee. Nestummen-as limmer ur neeriv ara lqut nni. Teggumma ad tekkes tiéeî-is deg imawen nne$, nezga nettmekti-tt-id. ∑eddan sin wussan, Saeid ur yezmir ara ad yeîîef, di lakul iyi-d-yemmeslay $ef leêmis nni ameezuz. Tikta nne$ mmlalent, ur iban wi yeddan di leb$i i wayev. Imeddukal nne$ imeôôa fkan-d tameééu$t, mecêen icenfiren nnsen a s-tiniv atta zzatsen. Yak tura dayen, ayen yevran yevra, nezmer a nemmeslay $ef yiman nne$. Maca anwa degne$ a yinin i wayev a nu$al ? D tidett, cedha$ lqut am win, ûeqve$, maca cukke$ Saeid yugariyi. Acku, uqbel a d-yas $uri, ieedda $ef eacuô “yeksa-t-id” ciîuê, yufa-tt $ures qerriêet. Aeni weread semvet tyita nni. Nerra-t di rrif, ur nettkalay ara fellas. Nek sehle$. Yesxedm-iyi-d kan cwiî, fki$-as azu$er. Simi d-neffe$ $ef leêdac, inîev-ed dgi am llazuq, yedda-d deg-ijufaô-iw am tili-w.
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Nebbev s anda mmlalen iberdan, nnbedd. Ur zmire$ ad îîfe$. Öuêent wallen-iw $er lemeineûra a s-tiniv d ddkir i tent-ijebden. Netta da$en ur yuksan ara, am nek, d aeebbuv-is yexwan i ywehhan tamu$li-s $er din. Yezzi-d $uri, mmlalent wallen nne$, nemsefham. Yeîîef-iyi-d deg ufus, nesse$res am teôûaûin $er ixeddamen. Ur nuki d yiman nne$ almi sen-nnbedd $er içumar nnsen. A tawa$it nne$ ! Nôuê a neffer deffir yiwen waggay usa$ur, yu$ lêal dayen ! walan-a$-d. Dadda Qasi isu$-ed fella$ a nebren syin, Saeid yesfezwi s axxam, anexzuô $er deffir ulac. Nek tfuk felli ddunit. Baba yekker-ed s leeqel, yenna-k ur ttembiwil ara din. Qqure$ si tugdin, kfan dgi idammen si leêya. Yebbev-ed $uri, isers-ed s lemêadra afus nni ines yeççuôen d abe$li $ef tqerruyt-iw, yenna-d : - Anef-as ad iôuê. eeddi ad teqqimev $er dadda-k Qasi, ad teççev amur-iw. Ad ali$ s axxam, ad serse$ cwiî i$san-iw. Tabae, assagi ur lluée$ ara. Rréag deg-imi-w imekli n wassen. Dadda Qasi d Dda Aeôab smuqulen-iyi-d s-ddaw tiî, kkaten deg wid ur nessin ad ôebbin dderya nnsen. Faqe$ dgi i d-lhan, ttu$ale$ d awra$, d azegga$ ; limmer telli lqaea ad kecme$ degs. Iwakken ad sseeddi$ iman-iw, nni$-asen belli baba ur yellué ara. Ssedha$ kan ul-iw, acku mi d-bbve$ s axxam, ufi$-d taqedduêt nni inu taberqact ger ifassen-is. Imiren i yekfa seksu nni inu aberkan. Ass-nni, yu$al $er lxedma taeebbuî-is texwa,
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maca tasa-s yeççuren d leênana $ef mmis teôsex, i lebda, deg-ul n Furulu.
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Ëlima, u yernu akken meééiyet warraw-is $ef wid n tnuî-is i meééiyet teebbav nnsen. D aba$ur kan a s-ad-yeglu beîîu. Maççi d aeraq i s-teereq i Ëlima, ne$ yella kra yeffren fellas. Twala u téra amek teddunt temsal, ur dre$lent ara wallen-is. Xas Öemvan ixeddem, Lewnis issen aîas n medden, yeççuô d imdukal a t-id-yallen di tizi n îîiq. Tettkel fellas i yeb$un yevru-d. “D amusnaw” wergaz-is, ulac agraw a yilin ur s-d-ssawalen ara. Darani, “ma qessiêet terest ad tefk adfel”. Ma ulac ula d netta ad ixemmel i y$allen-is, ad iwet aqabac am gmas. Teéra belli a t-id-têami s wayen mi tezmer, ad tili $er yidis-is, ma tenkamer ad teîîef amviq-is, ay$er xaîi ? Yak i yessis maççi i medden ! Ma ddant s ixxamen nnsent, taemamt n Lewnis, ma ur sentid-tefki yara twenza nnsent, tifettusin nnsent teêwao-itent Ëlima. Tamenzut degsent d Louheô, $ures eecrin iseggasen asmi nebva. D tareqqaqt u d tuweiôt, allen-is d ifeîîiwjen ; d tuccent di tiêeôci. Tezmer weêdes i wexxam s leqdic-is d nnwal-is. Telha-d d yemma : tettqarae-itt, tettnamar-itt u teggar-ed fellas ixerriven. Tu$al-as d tizemt di lêaôa. Melxiô d taqelluét kan. Tettak acbi $er baba, mad îîbiea terra-d $er yemmas. Baba Lewnis yeéra ulac win a tt-yawin i mmis. Medden zgan d alaqeb degs, nettat tezga d amennu$ yidsen. Ëlima teb$a a s-tesselmed lxudma ufexxaô d uéeîîa. Tin tettmeêêin di ôôuê-is alarmi telmed,
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xas tiha n babas akk d tismin n yemma smeckuklent-as taswiet. Smina d tizya n Baya, wetma tamenzut. Mmsekôahent am wemcic d u$erda. Amennu$ d ccwal yellan ger yemma d Ëlima, tismin d u$unzu yezde$en ulawen n tnuvin, zereen degsent. D nutenti i d lemri n tyemmatin nnsent. £ef akken wala$, itt-yettawven. Baya nne$ tettarra-d ttaô n yemma degs. D lêif n tyita n wuzzal i s i tessugut awal Smina, ala asu$u i wumi tessen. £ures aqemmuc meqqer, s unamek yugdan d win iwehhan. Ma tt-teîîef Baya nne$ ger ifassen-is, txeddem degs ayen ixeddem wemger deg yiger. Smina meskint, imeîîawen ileddayen axlul, acebbub yerwi, s usnexfet d usfe$nen i dtettlaqab weltma, tdeeu-yas-d u zunik tettgalla degs. Cabêa, xas d tamaéuét ger yessis n eemmi, tugar Titi, wetma tamecîuêt. Yiwen ur d-yelhi yides, gedlen-tt meôôa. Amzun îîfen-as tuêsift mi d-tlul, u nettat am akken tedda-yasen di nneqma acku teckuntev di tmeddurt. Teêôec d ayen kan. Mebla ma yella win s-yemlan, telmed afexxaô ugar wetmas Melxiô. Ala nettat i têemmel yemma, acku ul-is zeddig $uri. Ur tesmeêsis i wmennu$ n imuqranen, ur tesmuqul i ccwal iten ized$en, ur tettak tameééu$t i leeyav nnsen. Yegguma a syekcem di tqerruyt nni ines tamecîuêt ay$er d i tekôeh yammas. Acêal aya deg i temmut Cabêa tame$bunt, Cabêa nne$ tukyist, maca ur zmire$
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ara ad tt-ttu$. Zdi$ yides leêmala n llufanat, d nettat i d tamddakelt-iw tamezwarut. Degmi nebva, Ëlima ten$a iman-is s cc$el. Teb$a ad tezwi lêif $ef tikelt, ad terbeê deg yiwen wass. Tessufe$-ed tuccar-is, ur tcuê i tmeddurt-is wala i tin n yessis ; yeçça-tt wul-is $ef timmu$bent ines, t$il wwet-it kan tebzeg tiî-is. D acu bvan watmaten ? D acu d-iûaêen i yal yiwen degsen ? d acu yellan di lmizan ? Deg yiwet n tama : snat n tferkiwin yiwet uzemmur tayev n tneqlin, di tama nniven : îlaba d usenker n dderya. Aseggas amezwaru, iwakken a d-tesbin iman-is Ëlima tifa$, têettem deg wergaz-is ad yeîîef snat n tferkiwin uzemmur n yiwen eemmi ameôkanti. Annect-a yezga $urne$ : bab n wayla a k-yeoo lexla d-yezgan deg wemviq flan i deg llant acêal n tzemrin. Fers-it, eass-it, leqv-it, mi dtezvev azemmur nni ad yawi amur-is n zzit. S umata, sin yeêricen di tlata. Yal wa yeéra d acu yurwent tzemrin-is, amek iga lêebb nnsent, acêal a d-fkent n zzit u amek-itt. Llant snat n tal$iwin n tuîîfa uzemmur. Tamezwarut, uqbel ad tefru l$ella, bab n wayla a k-ed-yecrev amur-is n zzit ar a yawi. Ma d lkaree i yella, yezmer ad yexlu win ye^^iîfen ayla-s. Maççi d tikelt maççi d snat i rrnan îlaba, nniyat mmsakit, s-nnig umermed nnsen d win n dderya nnsen deg gersan d isemmaven n tegrest. Ur sen-d-yerri yara uzemmur leqven azal n zzit i ylaq ad fken di tazwara. Tis snat, bab n wayla ad yawi amur-is di
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l$ella. S umata, sin imuren di tlata. Win a yeîîfen taferka n yiwen at yaker cwiî, akken yeb$u yexdem bab n wayla nni. £ef ayagi i ttkukrun l$aci ad fken ayla nnsen d ucrik, u ma fkan-t, fernen ger wid sen-yettilin, teqnen allen nnsen fellasen. Qaren-as, anef ad yerbeê fellane$. £as akenni, ur s-ttaken ara tizemrin yelhan ne$ tid iqerben taddart. Rnu $ures, ma wer yettsetêi yara win a yeîîfen taferka. Acku ilaq-as ad yefk tameîîut-is d yessis $er tferkiwin n medden ad leqvent azemmur. Maççi di tudert n setti i tezmer Ëlima a d-tawi abrid d-tebbi ass-a ! £ur setti, nnif yufrar-ed, yugar kra yellan. Llant tilas ur izegger yiwen. Leêya icudden ifassen n baba Lewnis di tazwara isfev-it usirem uba$ur. Yeîîef sin lexlawi nni s tis tlata n zzit. Bab n wayla yettili-ya$. Leemum nne$ meôôa lhan-d d baba Lewnis, yal wa amek yeb$a a t-iêami, ulac win d-iceleen di baba, amzun stehzan degs. Yemma tettfuôu di tismin, baba ixemmel i y$allen-is, u yesban-ed tazmertis. Di lawan i deg i yemma d Baya nne$ ttêawacent-ed cwiî n tzemrin nni nesea, yiwet yiwet, leqvent-ed aeqa aeqa, ttaçaôent-ed ass-a aqecwal ass-a taqecwalt tamecîuêt, Ëlima d yessis ur qvieent ara. Lmuden kkrent, nsell-asent ma ttheggint iman nnsent. Aoadaômi garasent d Ëlima i sent ibeîîun cc$el. Timeîîuôfa yakk d nutenti a tent-id-inadin. Azemmur ye$lin s i$zeô a t-id-leqvent, amviq waread nefris a t-id-fersent i wzekka nni. Bab n tferka d bu cci, ur d ineûûeê
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ara meôôa ayla-s, anda yeweeô yettaooa-t, ur yeéri i yellan degs. - Ger tamawt a yelli, wagi yakk d aba$ur i nekkni, i tettweûûi Ëlima di yellis. “A win ihedôen a win ifehmen” i neqqar. Inas awal i Louheô telqef-it. Tefhem leb$i n yemmas. S umata, d i$ezôan i d tilisa. Amek a teeqlev azemmur-ik deg win n loaô ? Louheô d yammas ur tent-izeggir yiwen. Fersent kra yellan : tuzzutt teqlee, aéru yettwakkes, asennan akken. £as ifassen ttwaxebcen, lfeôê ieum ulawen. S tevsa a naker loaô. Melxiô d Smina akken i xeddment. Tezga yemmatsent d aweûûi degsent. Tettceggie-itent $er lexla nniven. Imi ur tettkalay ara fellasent, ttelqavent-ed ala imevqan nni tefres nettat. Sennig uzemmur d-ttawint tameddit s axxam di ôebea yidsent, yal yiwet ilaq a d-ternu ayen umi tezmer deg yes$aren. Cwiî cwiî almi tessawev Ëlima taffa user$u annect-ilatt. Ulac win yesean deg wezrib taffa yugaren tin. Aîas i tesqev. Weread d-tettifrir tafat ma d-sseêmunt imekli, s umata d seksu ne$ d berkukes. Ad zzint $ef tfedreqt nni yeêman, s lemêirat n win yegguni cc$el i seeddayent ayen yellan. Syin Ëlima a senttebvu cwiî ini$man s lem$awla. Ad rrent tabburt, timlilit ar tameddit. Ula d Cabêa tamecîuêt tettenkar-ed yidsent. £ures acu texdem. Llant snat n tzemrin ddaw taddart, $er rrif n webrid. Deg-iv, yesse$valed wavu azemmur $er din, fellas ad tezwir
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imsebriden u a t-id-telqev skud ur teefisen. Mi ara d-tu$al yemmas tameddit di lexla, tufa-d azemmur din yettwaôkev, in-as Cabêa tame$bunt ad teeddi di tessirt. Atta ger wallen-iw, Cabêa meskint, s tqerruyt nni ines tamecîuêt yesburren amendil aqdim. Acebbub-is ur yemciv, yettawi-t ubeêri akka d wakka. Tiênakin-is yessizwi$-itent wavu am ilizaq. I teb$u tsuv di tvudac-is zgant gersent. Tinzarin-is ttquddurent. Tettergigi am yifer daxel n tqenduôt nni ines tawejnaêt. Yettaàaô wul-is d lfeôê ma d-teççaô taqecwalt-is d azemmur. Tleqqev s icewwiqen d ccna. Mi tekfa, tessefqad s axxam, xas akken tu$al tabburt, tella lêaôa akked taffa user$u. Tessedhuy iman-is di beôôa, tetturar d tizya-s. Am wefrux i tleqqev lqut sya u sya, da d talqimt n we$rum, da d ta$enoawt n seksu, da d takummict ini$man. Ma d-ieeddi zzerzuô, ur stettaooa ara ad yers $ef tizemrin-is. Att-teîîef d tazla a ten-tesêaêi s ta$uct nni ines tareqqaqt d yiwen svel ger ifassen-is swayes teskaray ahôiêu. Lêaûun, teus igenni terna lqaea. Di tama nniven, Ëlima terra-yas-d ul i lxedma i baba Lewnis. Ula d netta yeb$a a d-yifrir. L$aci n Tizi ttwalin arraw n Caeban lhan-d d cc$el nnsen am zik asmi llan zdin. Imiren teddun tayett $er tayett, teekumt refden-tt di sin, i teb$u taéay zzin-as. Tura yal wa ijebbed $er tama-s, yal wa yesseuééug i wayev, tezzi-d fellasen ddunit u tezmer att-tesker garasen, acku i$eblan-is teddzen tasa.
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Acêal iberdan i yeqber Öemvan seg wurfan. Itett-it wul-is ma iwali daddas ihebber s uqabac. Ur yezmir ad yeûber, yettixiô syin u yettbeddil cc$el. Ibeqqu a s-yekkes agelzim nni a s-yini ôuê ad tefruv timsal n taddart. Twulmev i wefsay n tyersiwin maççi wefras n tzemrin ; tgiv i wewzan n wawal maççi i wexbac n wakal. Yenna-yi-d baba belli d netta i yfersen i baba Lewnis tineqlin inna, d netta i s-ineqcen ti$mert inna dahi, maca ur stefki yara teswiet a d-yelhu d lexlawi meôôa am zik. Beîîu qeôôiê. D asenker n dderya i yezwaren. Zman êercaw, ilaq a s-yeddu bab-is s nndeô. A ktessiwev tegnitt alama tenniv-as : “Darani, yal yiwen i yman-is”. Tameddurt n baba Lewnis tettifsus simmal. Tameîîut-is d yessis eawenen-t-ett aîas. Yu$al am zik d îîamen di taddart ; Agraw yevran a s-dsiwlen. Ma deg wexxam tella Ëlima, kullec ileêêu $ef ufus-is. Tikwal yiwen ger leemum nne$ ne$ yiwen ger yemdukal-is yettak-as-d tayuga ad yekrez. Lmal ? Sin zgan $ures : ta$aî d ikerri n leid. Yessis lhant-ed d ufexxaô akked uéeîîa. Afexxaô tettbeddil-it yemmatsent s teméin, ma d ayen grent deg uéeîîa, mi yuli kksent-ett-id yeznuzuy-it netta di ssuq. Anagar baba Lewnis, ulac win ifernen di lqut ; ama d tameîîut-is ama d yessis tettent kan ayen yellan. Ma nmeyyez, a naf Ëlima têebbeôasent meôôa. Limer s-terni nniya d tiéeô n wawal a d-tifrir $ef yemma.Argaz-is yennum-itt, yessen-itt. D lbext-is i s-tt-yuran, ula i yexdem. Ibub-itt am
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win ibubben taerurt. Neéra yakk tettaker asmi nella nezdi deg yiwen n wexxam. Aeni tbeddel tikli ? ur itettu uvebbal ahuzzu n tuyat ! Tura d argazis i tettaker. Kra d-ikecmen s axxam - d zzit, d tazart, d tavuî, d timéin - tekkes degs cwiî ad tzzenz i yiman-is. Tikwal trennu asniger $er texôiî n wergaz-is. Tga taezzult. Ass-a a d-ta$ ameqyas ne$ amendil i Louheô, ass-a d timengucin ne$ d timeêremt i Melxiô. Teznuzuy s-ddaw n ssuma, tetta$ sennig ssuma. D tamara itt-yerran. Tetta$ tasusmi n wid u$ur d-qevvu d wid umi teznuzuy. Ulac s wacu ur tbudd tim$arin itt-yesqavayen a sd-afent irgazen i yessis. Tiyemmatin n yelmeéyen waread nezwio tseççitent yiwet yiwet. Ur teooi imôabven, ur d-gin leêruz terra ddaw n tsumtiwin n yessis, i txav di tqendyar nnsent. Ur yelli uêeckul ur teelleq zzat n wexxam tessarem i yiwet degsent. Kra din ur yebbi ur yerri. D yessis n baba Lewnis d yedrimen-is i yett$aven ; nutenti qiment, widen ur qimen ur d-qvin. Baba Lewnis ifaq i leêruz d ikururen n Ëlima. Akka yakk i xeddment tulawin $urne$. Aeni nettat ad tanef i webrid nnsent ? Yessen-itt, maççi d tizizwa itt-yeévan ! Ula d nettat tessen-it ; teéra limer ad ivil $ef ikururen d leêruz i txeddem ad isew idammen-is. Tamcumt tquree-it, t-tteddu-yas di leb$i. Netta yeeya, maççi d yiwen wass. A dyernu i$eblan $er tewser ? Iserreê-as, yunef-as anda teqqen ad tebru. Darani iêûa-tt asmi meééi, yura deg wenyir-is, ur yettu$al ara d amaôkanti. Yak maççi $ef aya i tebna ddunit !
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Ulac d acu a d-rnu$ $ef tmeddurt n baba Lewnis, Ëlima d yessitsen. Nu$al am loiran i$-dyezzin. Simmal tteeddin wussan yettim$ur wegdal, tettnerni tatut garane$. Neéra i$eblan nne$ yiwen nnsen, tamu$li nne$ tewwet $er yiwet n tama, sseaya nne$ tugda. Ur yelli s-wacu nemyif, ur teseiv d acu nemyuffar. Tuff$a n leeqel d lemêirat yeîîfen yemma d Ëlima di tazwara fsint am waman n wedfel. Qqiment-ed tismin ttenfufudent degne$, llzent di tudert taqucaêt deg i nettexbibiv. Leêôaôa n wussan imezwura i kecmen ibabaten yeréa-tt uêebbeô d unadi $ef we$rum. U$alen am yezgaren nni ufôiden. Di sin d izelmaven.. Lqut n dderya nnsen icudd $ursen am uzaglu $ef tuyat. Asmi zdin, ssnen abrid, zemren i ccedda. Tura, wa yekkat ad ieeddi nniges, wayev ddaw-as. Azaglu ten-yeqqnen ééay, anzel yeççan ibeôdiyen nnsen qerriê. Tegguni-ten tmeddit, ilaq att-rrnun. Yessefk att-mmed tiremt ! labudd ad kfun avôef. Yessis n baba Lewnis ad u$alent ad ddunt ahat s ixxamen nnsent, am yessetma. Akka i dyeooa Öebbi ddunit. A d-nlal, a neg axxam, a dneseu dderya, a nu$al s afus n bab nne$. Tikwal neggar-ed nnhati, nesteqsay ul nne$ $ef ayen ur yeéri. D acu a yexdem bab-is ? Anef i ddunit ad telêu. S umata, teméi n Furulu, mmis n mmis n Caeban, teedda s sshala am îaqa n tezyiwin-is, tenser d tasellawt, tecrured d tilemt ur tufiv i d-
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yufraren degs. Ma d-ttmekti$ iseggasen nni ttafe$ten d isemmaven, ur ten iôuc webruy n lfeôê, ur tent dhin tiqit n sser, ur sen yettwazuzer ueeqqa n lmelê. Ttwali$ iman-iw s yiwet n tqenduôt sfesxen iseggasen n tarda, tacacit tamamust yulmen di leryuf, ivaôôen êafi ma d taserwalt Öebbi a d-yawi, acku $uri yezga d anebdu. Udem-iw ye$ma si tidi, iqejjiôen-iw seg u$ebbar, accaren-iw seg wakal, allen-iw zegga$it ma d ifassen zegzwen si leêcic am leryuf n temda seg udal n waman. Ass i deg ar a yeccucef Furulu, yettban-ed d nek n tura, kkes tamart d ccla$em. Timmi tazurant, allen tiberkanin tesself tmu$li êlawen, tinzert d tin n yemma ma d imi d taçamart d Öemvan Kkes-it ffer-it. Ma smuqule$ ger warrac s$araye$ ass-a, ttafe$-d iman-iw, asmi lli$ annect nnsen, ger wuêdiqen, uveifen, wid ur nesmuncuf ara, igad yettaken tameééu$t, ikeôhen urar, yesmeêsisen i ccix u yettnadin ad leqven cwiî n tmusni. Ussan n tafat d-yu$en $ef teméi-w, tafsut ttyesberqcen d tament tt-yeééaéden ur ggunint amnaô, ur eencent di tesga, ur zdi$ent deg wexxam nne$. Atnan îîsen, dlen, yuli fellasen wabbu di teerict n texxamt n xwalti. Iêun Öebbi sei$-tent ! a wi yufan ussan n din d acmumeê akken ma llan ! £as tikwal ttlu$en, irezzuten-id le$mam, akken yeb$u yili, leêlu yugar lqares. Llufan ur yeskad ara $er tayri imawlan-is. Yeéra tezde$-iten. D tasa. Ur s-iteg ara ccan amuqran. Yezmer ad yeeyu degs ma yella ttbuddun-t s-waîas. £ures tina tusa-d s ufella,
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amzun d timerna. Limer d leb$i ad yaf tayev. Yessaram $er leêmala tis snat, yettnadi-tt deg wuden n wid s-yettilin, yesnulfuy-ed imeddukal ; s umata yesseêmal iman-is. Yessenday urawen-is, i telli ul-is, yezmer ad yexdee yemmas u ad yesmenyif yiwen nniven $ef babas, awi-d kan ad yaf leênana. Asirem ines d nniya ines yekkat-iten wugur, acku yiwen ur sen-yeggar tamawt. Imuqranen teqqnen allen nnsen, llufan yettarra $er wul-is, yett$av-it lêal : yettjeôôib teréeg. Lad$a ma yilin aîas yidsen d arrac deg yiwet n twacult, ttarran-tt ala i wmennu$ garasen. Ma d imarawen nnsen, idegger-iten wakud, tdehem-iten teswiet ; a$bel nnsen : d lqut n yal ass akk d lqecc n leeyudat. Ïîuqten wulawen n llufanat tezde$ tevsa d nnecôaêa, ulawen ineflen di tayri, tayri ur nufi tavwiqt ad teôôeeôee am ujeooig nni n tefsut. Win d iyi-cban, nek $uri zzheô. Imi ala nek i d aqcic deg wexxam nne$, kkre$-d s ttnefcic, rwi$ tiéidanin mi ar a ilint. D aqcic n ccuq ! Di beôôa ufi$ da$en tayri tis snat iyi-zuzunen. Ar tura ma dttmekti$ ussan nni d-sseedda$ $ur xwalti idehhu wul-iw. Ur éri$ ara belli Nanna tezweo almi d asmi muqre$ ssne$. Argaz-is yunag $er Fôansa, qqarenas eumaô. Xwalti ttaddrent-tt-id tikwal, maca ala deg wayen n dir. Xalti ur t-êemmel ara yakk. Nanna ur tezmir a d-têami fellas. Nek $uri, udem n eumaô icudd s udem n yemmas. Waread tessine$ netta asmi yemmas teb$a ad tefsi tiyersi, ad tenîel cceêna taqdimt, ad tefru nettat d yessis
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n Ëmed. Afexxaô ileêêu, yettnuzu, $ures azal-is ! Tam$art d tuêôict : eumaô yeooa Nanna kra n wagguren kan segmi zewoen, iôuê $er Fôansa, yeqqimen din, yewwet-itt $ef yiwen ubeôdi. Ddnub-is i yiri-s ! Maca yemmas teqqar-ed belli tu$alin n mmis $er tmurt d a$bel-is. Anta yugin argaz-is ? Anta t-yerran $ef yiri n wemnaô, lad$a ma yugi berru ? Iban belli xalti maççi s tiéeî umeslay ne$ s uslewlew i temmuger taveggalt. Maca, d acu yellan deg ufus n Nanna meskint ? Tefka yiwet n tmeééu$t i tem$ert-is, tayev i wul-is. Tella meééiyet, tezyen, teeceq, tessen argaz-is, ur tuksan ara ma wer tezmir a t-ttu ! Atan $ef wacu ur faqe$ amek tevra, almi qqle$ ttemlili$-d $ur xwalti tam$art weroin ssine$. Nettat teêdeq almi d ulamek, nekkni fella$ ad ttneuzz. Mazal ttwali$ taîîucin-is : muqqrit am tid n tfunast u berrikit am tbuxin. D loenn-iw ma drrsent felli, keççment dgi am terûaûin. Di tazwara ttagada$-tt, syin u$ale$ keôhe$-tt am qevran. Limer ttafe$ ur ttmagarent ara wallen-iw udem nni ines aquran, a s-tiniv ulac degs ôôuê. Amzun d alaxeôt usevsu ines mi ar a d-tecmumeê. Yal tikkelt ma tekker ad tôuê, Nanna ne$ Xalti a s-tekmes awemmus i tettarra s lfeôê s-iciwis. Ass-a d tazart, ass-a d awren ne$ d timéin. Almi d yiwen wass, atan yejba-d eumaô deg inig, yerra Nanna s axxam nnsen. Yusa-d leowiban ttûeffiôen, ifassen d ilmawen. Yedduri tacvaî n imawlan-is, yeqqim ddaw ivarren nnsen. Ayetmaten-is d yessetmas dullen-t, ur s-fkin abruy
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n leqder. Ula d Nanna glan yis, rran-tt am netta, acku xalti, mi d-tegra weêdes, ur tufi d acu a tekmes i tem$art tamcumt. Cc$el ééayen d eumaô a yembarrazen yides. Yewqa i xedmen asmi ttyefka i jjiê ! Yeéra maççi d tafenîazit i yexdem, maççi d tafaliêt i s a yelêu s wezday n lqedd ; iseggasen yesseedda di Lpari ôuêen-as am wavu ; ma d tura ad yemger i yezree, ggran-as-d wussan d iberkanen. Yellumet, yebra i ymeééu$en-is, d acu deg walla$-is trekkem trewla ; d tin n lebda, tamu$li $er deffir ulac. Yesseedda-yas-d awal i tmeîîut-is. Ula d Nanna meskint temceê ayla-s n teréeg, tbubb amur-is n ccêani. Ur cfi$ acêal tedda akken, almi d yiwet n tmeddit n tagara n tefsut ne$ umezwaru unebdu, yu$ lêal ye$li yiîij maca tiziri am zal, neqqim nek d Baya nne$ akked xalti di lêaôa ines, a$-d-têekku tamacahutt umekôev. Ahat d tikelt tis eecrin i d a$-tt-id-twwet. Ass-a d imekôev d tuga, ass-a d win n tsita, ass-a d aôeêwi amednus. Yal tikkelt d acu n wudem a s-tefk ; maca tikti ines yiwet. Öebbi ma yeb$a a t-yefveê, yettakas-d takkeebt teîîafaô-it s isu$an-is, seg useklu $er wayev. £ur xalti, askeewew n tekkeebt d yir lfal. Cwiî kan akka, nesla i wesîebîeb di lluê, Baya tuzzel telli-t-id. Nanna akked eumaô drebzen-d s nnhati, amzun ulin-d asawen. Nanna tebbub-ed awemmus annect ilat i deg i d-terra meôôa iceîîiven-is. eumaô yennev-ed deg waedil, yewwi-d deg yiwen ufus tasumta deg wayev yeîîefed ayen d-ieebba $ef tayett-is : aelaw d yiwet n
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tsenduqt taberqact i deg tettaooa Nanna imeqyasen, timengucin akked lfeîîa ines. eeqle$tt tsenduqt nni. Anagar tin i weroin d-i-teooi Nanna att-lli$ ne$ att-masse$ s ôôay uqerru-w. Tegla-d yis asmi tedda d tislit. D acu-t uhewwel agi ? Di tafat n tziri, banent-iyi-d wallen n xalti ttberriqent si lfeôê, udem-is yecôeh. Zi$en $ures lexbaô. Nekcem i xemsa $er daxel, yal wa anda yeqqim ger lqecc nni. Fki$ tameééu$t, almi d ass nni i gre$ tamawt i eumaô. Sakde$ deg udem-is, ttwali$ udem n yemmas, allen d tiberkanin, imi d afermac; ur d-yessefruy ara mliê imeslayen, am win umi itennev yiles. D areqqaq u di lqedd ur yugar ara Nanna. Weroin t-yebbi wul-iw ; xas akken ur t-ttagade$ ara, ur t-êemle$ ara. Maca deg iv nni i$av-iyi, lad$a mi yebra i wqerru-s, i$um udem-is, s wecvav ubernus nni s-teéva Nanna, yesnexfit. Yettru garane$, nemmesmuqal, neggugem. Nanna tekkesmumi maca teîîef imeîîawen-is. Mi d-yerfed aqerru-s, texseô ûûifa-s, yerwi wudem-is ; allen nni ines tiberkanin u$alent d tizegga$in am tid d-yeççuôen d idammen. Weroin wala$ argaz yettru. £ile$ d ayen wer dnveôôu yara akk di lqaea Öebbi. Tugi ay i tekcem deg walla$. Amek ? Ttrun yergazen ? Zi$en ur yelli i muqqren di eumaô, amzun annect-iw i yu$al. D tizya-w, am wamddakel-iw. Mi nwala iéri n Nanna yettceôcuô, nserreê-as nek d Baya d imeîîi. Xalti ur d-mremcent ara yakk wallen-is ! D urfan i tt-id-yulin. Limer a d-te$li akka tura ger ifassen-is tem$art nni tamcumt ! a s-terr tunîict-is
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alma tenfel lêila ; ama di lemôaô i s-tessew s ubuqal, ama deg usawen i s-tessuli s weerur. Ma d imeîîi i wacu-t ? - Qimet i sin dagi, yella littae. Yak imarawen-ik ugin-k ? Anef ! Sekn-asen-d belli keç d argaz d wawal ! Ur ttaggad. Di snat yidenta$ acemma ur k-yettxaûûa... Ma a s-yehwu att-ssedhu yiwen, xalti tessen. £ef nneqma n tem$art a tt-tveggeô iman-is $er wannu iwakken ur s-yettu$al ara mmis. eumaô yezde$ $ur xwalti, nutenti teddunt-as di leb$i, netta yufa iman-is. Yufrar-ed fellane$ am zzit $ef waman. Maççi d ayen iy i-d-yusan deg wul, tetti teswiet felli. Tam$art tessufe$ awal di taddart belli mmis wwint-as-t yessis n Ëmed. Yemma teseuéeg-as, baba yekres kan anyir-is, ulac i yellan deg ufus-is. Ma d xwalti sssuf$en-t-ed tuccar nnsent $ef wayen yeenan eumaô. Ur iban amek i smeckuklent almi i ssemdent azal n rrekba. Yiwen wass yehna-tt $er Fôansa, ur yelli d inig i s-yellan deg wul, d jjiê i dyerra ger wallen-is. Deg wassen, ulac win t-idyuddren. Ahat tura yemmut. Akkagi i heddôen medden. Ma d nek, ama $uri lêeq ama xaîi, ur ssurufe$ ara. Yekrez di tasa-w avref amezwaru n ubaxix. Ccfaya n teméi amzun yuli-tt wadal, kra n tfawtin kan i d-yeqqimen. Tidenni man tent-idyeleqqev walla$ a tent-yettcuddu yiwet yiwet, idehhu yisent wul. Ger yektayen d-yeooan dgi ccama umi d-ccfi$ nezzeh : yiwen wass lli$ nek d
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yemma deg wexxam ; d tagrest. Asemmiv di beôôa yessufe$-ed tisuqas. Azeqqur n tasaft ieennec di tlemmast n lkanun, kra n tqecrin uzemmur zzintas am umeqyas, times ineddhen degsent tefka-d tafat am tiziri unebdu u tettemeirriv i wzeqqur nni ansi a s-tezwir. Attaya Nanna a tetteêtutuy deg usemmiv. Terra-d qbala $er garane$. Tuéam awal, s acu n we$bel tt-id-yecqan. Telsa-d yiwet n tqendurt tamellalt s-berqcent tjeooigin tizegga$in timecîaê terna-yas-d lfuva d-cudd s usaru. Ur tettlawi tisfifin teqnent akk tizya-s. Tferree ivaôôen-is d-yessezwe$ usemmiv u d-yeselxes ugeffur a tent-sskiw, tesmenteg times u terfed abrue-is amer a t-ser$. - Têussev s taéayt ? itt-tesseqsa yemma. - D aerur-iw i yessebraqen. - D agur wis sebea ? - Xaîi ! Bdu-d si teacuôt. Wagi d wis tmanya, i s-d-tenna Nanna. - A s-tiniv ur tefidev ara yakk ! - Tawalav ! Amzun akken d tussda i tt-idssde$ s lqut. Maca nek éri$ belli iqreê-iyi. Yemma tecmumeê. Nek muqle$ Nanna, icenfiren-is bezgen, allen-is cuffent, udem-is warra$. Ur telli bxiô, aîîan tt-i-zed$en maççi d ushil. - Tadist tamenzut ur tesse$val aeebbuv. Ad teérev sya $er zzat sser a kem-idehnen. A t-yegg Öebbi kan d aqcic ! - Ahbuh a wetma ! Tenjerv-iyi-d abrid s tlata yessim timenza. Awi-d kan a$-d-tessiger
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teswiet. Üûiê agi i gezzmen dgi seg yivelli, kukra$t. £ef waya i d-usi$ $urem. - £as kkes a$bel i wul-im, ad yu$al a kem ieeddi, i s-tenna yemma. - Ala yir turga i ttargu$ ussan agi. Am qqaren slan-as-d di tejmaet mi tettsu$u tinna akken d-yeooan takniwin. - Aqla-kem ger ifassen n Öebbi a yelli. Ur teseiv a tagadev. Tella kra n ddeewessu i txedmev ? D nnuba-m a tt-feôêev cwiî, u yernu yidem a yili$. D nek am-d-yefken afus, xas ur tegg ara a$ilif. Caxent di lehduô. Tikwal s lemeani i dttveggiôent awalen, ur fehme$ tigert. Tu$al Nanna tesken-d aeebbuv-is. Ur yelli degs leib wala leêya. Yak nek d idammen n idammen nnsent... Deg usaru n ccafawt inu, tugna d-ivefôen d ta: d tameddit n wass, ageffur yekkat, izenqan ççuôen d aluv ; aman n ssaqiya rnan-d aceôceô nnsen. Iberdan n taddart wwten i$ezran di tlemmast nnsen. Ixxamen myeêôasen mbu garasen, wa yeffer wa, sseméin iman nnsen seddaw wagu ten-yedlen, di le$mam d-ye$lin fellasen send iv. Rri$ $ur xwalti, l$aci maççi d kra. S-ufella ukufi yers lmeûbaê ; zdaxel n lkanun yetteka uqejmuô ireq. Akken bedde$ $ef tebburt, Baya nne$ temmuger-iyi-d, warre$et, teeggen-iyi-d ma yerra-yi wemnaô $er daxel. Xaîi ! Ur tef$e$ ara, dagi a qqime$. Yemma teîîef-ed Nanna seddaw te$rut, teb$a a tt-id-tesbedd, att-tesselêu. Udem n Nanna yeffer felli, $umment-ett tulawin nniven.
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Yiwet degsent tettâmi yemma. Xalti tesser$ay, deg yiwen uceqquf yeççuren d tirgin, isufar d-yettaken abbu d yiwet n rriêa taqesêant. Yiwet n tem$art tessendah-itent meôôa. Allen n xalti rsent-ed felli, maca éri$ ur yi-d-twala yara. Din rewle$-d. - Azekka ad tessudnev mmis n Nanna, i yid-tesbecbec Titi s ameééu$ mi d-wwve$ s axxam. D ayagi umi ccfi$. Ur éri$ d acu xedme$ nniven, amek i neîîes mebla yemmatne$ u ayen yevran deg iv nni. D isu$an akk d imeîîawen n yemma d yessetma i yi-d-yessefrawsen. Kre$-d ufi$-d lamana tewwev bab-is, Nanna aezizen tessufe$ taôwiêt. Awwah ! Ur zmire$ ad sefve$ di lmux-iw imeooiden n wassen, ne$ ahat ad ttu$ tugdin nni yi-d-yessekren? Yi-d-yessuf$en deg usu u d iyiooan su$e$ s wayen yellan di ta$ect-iw ? Deg wassen, mi sli$ i tmeîîut tmeooed $ef lmegget ad yeccirew weksum-iw, a yi-tekcem tergagit, acku yezga yezzenzun deg walla$-iw imeîîi i cergen tasa-w, yi-d-yessuf$en deg usu s udduqes, iyi mmlan tamettant n Nanna. Weread d-tufrar tafrara, Nanna tbeddel axxam. Ger ifassen n yessetma yeffe$ leeqel i tesselqef. Kra yekka yiv d amerret.. £er yidis-is i yers llufan d-turew. Tagara, mmzu$aren $er tmuqbert ; xaîi, yezzu$er-itt yides ! kra eawzent fellas, nettat tettnusu am tcemmaet, teffe$-itt tezmert cwiî cwiî almi tu$al d acettiv. Iéerman-is ttijiqen, idammen tt-ceôcuôen degs am umizab. D ayen i s-yura lmelk. Yura di twenza-s ar ttessufe$
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ôôuê ma tekker a d-teoo ôôuê. D ayen i s-yuran di ddunit, ur t$av bab-is. Teîîef almi d tikli ad yali wass. Texsi teftilt-is mi yexsi yetri n ûûbeê ; yemmut yiv tedda yides. Ttwali$ Nanna ger wallen-iw mi tt-éélen di t$er$ert, tessa aedil, t$um s ubeênuq amellal, amendil awra$ n leêrir icudd-as a$esmar u yennev $ef uqerru-s. Allen qnent, udem werra$ am umendil s-rran. A s-tiniv d ives i teîîes, maca tban belli maççi d taguni itt-tewwet ; acku tella tguni taéayant n eeggu, taguni tafessast n westeefu, ives n tmara n win yulwan. Tamettant d ayen nniven akk. Degmi éri$ aîas n wudmawen n lmegtin, udem n Nanna ur t-yekriz wurrif, ur s-yesself wecmumeê, ur t-yessekmumec eeggu. Ulac d acu i t-idehnen, ur d-iban wara fellas. Win aezizen fellak i$eééa iles-is, ur ittnadi i t-icudden $ur-k. Abernus ittwaeelqen di tesga, nettwali degs bab-is ugar tafekka-s tasemmaî. D acu d-yettfuôun deg udem n Nanna, udem yevsan i medden meôôa, udem êemlen akk l$aci ? Tamettant tesfev kra yellan. Yegra-ya$-d lexyal d-ibedden am tise$lit zzat lemêayen i$-yurzen ne$ am u$alad d-yerran tili i wbaxix i$-yedlen akked teqreê yezzan tasa.
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-XAyen i$-yevran, $er imezda$ n taddart, ur dyennulfa degne$. Ulac axxam ur nsebb nnei-s. Tezga tmettant tettêuccu medden di tefsut n tudert nnsen. Ad isaê yeéri, ad tebbeêbeê ta$uct, ad yexreb wudem, tagara, a s-nini mmôeêba s tikci n Öebbi. A d-tezzi dduôt ur tunif terga yenjeô lbext nne$. A nnfaq neggra-d, ilaq a nefdu iman nne$, a nesfi ti$ezza yessebben degne$, imi yiwen ur yezmir ad yesfev ayen yuran. Aôôan ur nesei ddwa, fessus, ur yelli d taekumt, imi yura deg wenyir. Yemma tedder i gmas, yessetmas, yemmas d babas. Twala-ten akk mi mmuten. Tennum anu$ni d tasusmi. Tu$al am uêeccad d-yem$in deg ubabder, igemmun s nnmara, ur ieeggeb we$éaé n t$eîîen d uqeccem imeksawen, ur ser$en igersan wala izilan. Mi s-tendef tfidi i yemma, ad t$ezz deg icenfiren-is. Teççuô d tissas ne$ teddez tasa-s, anwa i yeéran ? Taluft agi ad tesbeô i tyita-s, ur tt-t$eîîel. Ad teeddi am timezwura, u skud zerrin wussan tettrus-ed tatut. Tin iêussen aîas i tyita d Xalti, tawa$it dyersen d nettat i tu$. Nanna ur telli dwetma-s kan. D a$eric degs. D aêric ameqran. Akken kan tessufe$ ôôuê Yamina, tamu$li n Xalti teqqur. Tesmuqul ur tettwali, tleêêu am umaîîas, ur tettarra awal i yiwen, tôuê am teeééugt. Deg uzal, ger usnexfet d imeooiden n sut taddart, ur s-d-
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te$li tiqit imeîîi. Teqqim $er ivaôôen n wetmas, ur d-clie di tmu$li n yemeazzan wala deg mùennan nnsen. Teseuééeg i kra yellan ; teggugem am yes$i, tesbev am weblav. Yemma d-yelhan d leqdic, tikwal tettveggiô tiî-is $er Xalti, tfaq yeffe$itt leeqel, tugad fellas. Yewwev-ed lawan i deg ilaq a d sirdent lmegget, win yellan din fellas ad yeffe$. Xalti tegguma. I b$unt êellent-ett, tugi ad tembbiwel. D awez$i att-id-terrev s abrid. Tamu$li ines d tader$alt. Yettekesmumi uqadum-is am win yeccarwen. Mi kkren ad ûubben lecfaô-is a dtefriwes ; mi ôuêent ad qnent wallen-is a tent-idtelli s lem$awla. Tezga d aôeieec. Mi d-wwin nneac ad refden Nanna a tt-awin s axxam-is aneggaru, teôvqent-ed wallen-is d imeîîawen. Iberquqen dyettezririgen $ef leênak n xalti d igugamen. Idel wudem-is lêaf asemmav. Tulawin îîafaôent lmegget sent-yettilin alma n taddart. Yemma, yessetma, yessis n eemmi, lêaûun sut Musa meôôa gant taqufett deffir Nanna Yamina yeîîfen abrid-is $er tmeqbert n Tizi. Tegla s aéekka-s, ddaw n tzemmurt nni d-yecfan i jeddi, s sser-is, s wecmumeê-is, s tieêôci-s d leênana-s. Tegzem tasa n sut taddart. Ttrunt fellas seg ul. Ah ! limmer a Nanna ad twali tiî-im imeîîawen agi yakk yemmaren fellam d wannect-a n l$aci yeddan yidem, ahat, a m-yekkes cwiî n lxiq, imi maççi s tufra i tôuêev. Xalti ur tevfiô ara wetmas $er tmeqbert. N$il tessggra kan taqejjiôt. Mi faqent yemmad yessetma, yu$ lêal terra-d $ef yiman-is tabburt n
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texxamt akked d tin n wefrag. Yiwen ur yezmir a tt-id-yessufe$. I neb$u nesîebîeb, nessawel, nsu$, ulac. Xalti teseuééeg i wêellel d imeîîawen amzun rrebg tt-icudden $er ddunit yegzem, ur dtegri lbenna wala tiéeî. Tezza tasa nne$ meôôa, t$av-a$ d ayen kan. Yemma teqqim zzat n tebburt, almi tuyes. Ifadden-is kkawen, ta$uct-is teqqur. Tagara lem$ivat nni tu$al-as i yemma d urfan, maççi $ef wetmas, tin mi iceqqeq wul, tin mi tejreê tasa, tin yessexbabev lmektub, maca $ef lmektub nni s timmad-is d-isersen taggest-is n nnei u yettnadin asfel wis sin. Teîîef-iyi-d deg ufus : - Yyaw, yyaw a tarwa, i$-d-tenna mi i$-dtezzu$er s axxam. Ma d keç a bab igenwan, ooi$ak-tt. Attan $ur-k. £as awi-tt, d aya i s-d-yeggran. Tabae attan am igider ameréu. A d ise$-ik ! a d cciea-k ma terniv-tt $er tin iôuêen ! Te$li-d rrehba deg wexxam nne$. Tioiratin, t$av Xalti, eervent a tt-id-sneîqent ne$ a sent-id-lli tabburt ulac. Ula d Baba akk d baba Lewnis ur sen-d-tefki udem. Mi d-ye$li yiv, yemma tuqae di ttelbiba, tugad $ef wetmas yettamnen s tmucuha n tteryel, ad teîîes weêdes deg wexxam deg i yeffe$ asseni lmeôêum. Tu$al $ures i tikkelt taneggarut a s-tessawal. Tefka tameééu$t tesla-yas tettawi tettarra di lêaôa. Yemma teqber ; tu$al teeggev fellas imi tugi ad tesbeô s wayen i d-yefka Öebbi. Tettna$-itt imi teqqur tasa-s fellane$, telha-d kan d yiman-is. Tsu$ fellas akken a$-d-telli tabburt a neîîes yides
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ne$ a d-tas ad teîîes $urne$. Xalti ur tt-id-yuli umeslay. Teêbes tikli. Nesmeêsis ur nesli i wacemma d$a neooa-tt din. Lewhi n wezgen n yiv, terra-tt xalti i lehduô d tevsa. Leêwal te$vel-iten-id, akufi te$li degs s tyitwin. Syin tcennu s îîelq n ta$uct-is, tettawi-d tibu$arin a s-tiniv tella teslit yides umi tteqnen lêenni, tikwal d asihel n tayri d ccbaêa ne$ d adekkeô di ûûellaê d ieessasen. Tessaki-d meôôa loiran, yiwen ur yezmir a t-id-yas naddam seg wannecten n leeyav. Usan-d $urne$ a$-d-eeggnen belli xalti tekcem-itt tiselbi. Neggugem u neqqur, cudden ifassen nne$. Di beôôa i neqqim, nettôaou zzat n tebburt almi d tikli ad yali wass. Akken kan d-yenqer yiîij, xalti tessebôaôeê-ed tibbura u tekkeekee d tavsa. Nedderbez s axxaml. A tawa$it d-yersen ! ijeqduren meôôa mmwezzaeen di lqaea, tincirin d tilmawin, usu yakk yexôeb. Di tafat nni n tafrara, ttbanent-a$-d t$emmar n texxamt ççurent d lqec akked leêwal : tasebbalt tenneggdam u amnaô yeggelgel d aman, timéin wezzeent u gant tirect $er yimi ukufi d-ye$lin ur yuklal. Ger wannecten n temterwit, xalti tesbedd lqedd-is, amzur yevleq si tuyat almi d ammas. Yufrar-ed sser $ef wudem-is u tennerna di ccbaêa. Yemma d tulawin nniven walant ûûifa nni n tsekkurt iêrqan maca faqent belli tame$bunt n xalti tôuê degsent: alla$ yunag, ûwab yeooa-tt. Trevqent d imeîîi. D abaxix am wagi i tkukra yemma. Am yivelli nni, l$aci gguginad s axxam, lêaôa ur teqqim d tilemt, tdemmek.
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Yeggul Öebbi deg At n Taddart ar mazal ad slen s yessis n Ëmed time$bunin. Kra n innerza nnan-d belli ad yu$al a syekkes, acêal d win $ef i teedda akka. Tevra maççi abrid maççi sin. Neqqim di lêaôa n xalti, nemyeêôas wa $er wa, nettqarae-itt. Neskad ma dyifrir cwiî n ûwab di tmu$li ines isewqen, ma dyebru waddud ines ajelwaê i webruy n leeqel. Nettnadi ma anaf tabburt i wesxeôwev tt-ized$en. Aharao n kra yekka yiv yessefcel xalti. Tekkaw. Teqqim $ef yiri n wemnaô teîîafaô s yir tamu$li wid d-yettasen. Tikwal, a d-tessers $ef yedmaren-is imezran-is a d-tessekkraf degsen. Tdehhu, a s-tiniv ters, cwiî kan akka alma tessencew acebbub-is ; udem-is ad yekkesmumi afus-is ad yeççaô d anéaden, a ten-twet $er tmurt. Seg wakken teclex iman-is mi teqqim, banen-d meôôa imeûûaven-is. Yemma tué $ures a s-tûub abrue-is a s-tessemlil ivaôôen, xalti tekker, tu$was u tcemmeô almi d timiî-is. Irgazen zzin allen nnsen, tthuccun iqerray nnsen, kkan tabburt, ooan tulawin garasent. Xalti tebra i wqerruy-is, texmet. Nekkni nettqarae degs, acemma ur d a$yensir. Am win ma d-yeggri yiwen uéar n leeqel yessexdam-it tikwal, akkeni xalti, tfaq-a$ belli neggar-as tamawt. Mi tserreê i yiman-is s lemeanda tban tundi-tt. Wissen acu n ôôay s-yellan di lbal ? Ma d yemma, ur nuyis, mi d-yeggra uéenéun usirem, tekkat akk yissent : teîîef-iyi-d deg ufus tewwi-yi $ures.
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- Muqel-it-id, yak têmmleî ? Yak ur ilaq ara kem-yaggad ? Trefd-ed $uri allen-is, d ibeôôaniyen. D tamu$li yugin a yi-twali, d allen yettneqlaben ger wid yettfeooioen am teftilt d wid idel l$im. D tamu$li yettrusun u tkeççem dgi akked tin isewqen. Awah ! Allen umeslub, mi tent-éri$ ad yendef wul. D nutenti i d lemri n ôôuê ageswaê. D nutenti i yettnadin ayen yennesren i wul d wayen yufgen $ef walla$. £ef aya i ssexxlaeent, i ttaggadent u tt$ivent. Öebbi d-yeooan Tisselbi, ayùer ur yeqqin allen i wid ùef i d-ters ? Ahat attifsus fellasen tµakkwemt ? Ikecm-iyi rrebrab zdat xalti, tin d iyiûemlen, yi-bubben u yi-zzuznen, tin d iyi-slemden aûemmel n tissas d ime§§i n lemùiôat. Tfaq-iyi ugadaù-tt neù d zzher i d-ifeôûen tihuditiw ? Akken yebùu yili, tjebd-iyi ùures tessuden-iyi sya u sya, tezzi aqerru-s, terra-tt i teôsa. Tulawin, s yiles aâidan d wul afessas i ttwennitent tasudent nni n xalti. D lawan nni i tefren nettat i trewla. Tezger lûara, tekka tabburt u te§§ef-itt d tazla deg wezniq. Tamuùli ùer deffir ulac. Nekwni deffir-s. Aqerru-s µaryan, amzur ùef tuyat yettawi-t waôu, taqendurt mebla agus tewweô-as-d almi d igwerzan. Rewlen akw warrac tt-idyemlalen ; yiwet n temùart tebùa a s-d-tegzem abrid tufa-d iman-is di lqaµa ; tezzuùer-aù almi d beêêa n taddart. Arrac nneù, yuù lûal yeffeù
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wawal, ôefren-tt, §fen-tt-id u rran-tt-id ccil assuùu fellasen, rregmat t-tyitwin degsen. Maáái ùer texxamt-is i tt-newwi, s axxam nneù. Nerra-d tabburt n wefrag neqqim yides. Allen-is ttberriqent, udem-is d-iwet ubeûri asemmaô n tafrara yeñquddur d sser. A s-tiniô teñgalla degneù, am win yebùan a d-yer ññar, te§§ef-aù-ñ t-taûsift. Ur tberru i wallen-is anaggar zdat baba ma yekres anyir-is fellas. Nebùa-t ad yezg yidneù^acku neqwel neñagwad-iñ, maca ur stessefk ara teswiµt i baba ad yeqqim deg wexxam imi yeggni-t cùwel n beêêa. Xalti teñecmumuû amzu terra-d s lexwbaê. Yiwet n tikelt, cfiù am assa, xalti tsenned ùer lûiô nek beddeù ùer tama n wemnar, din I yi-teshel trewla, Titi twala amdiqiw yufrar-d nnig win te§§ef, tella teqqim di tesga, tebùa a d-truû ùuri, akken kan d-tµedda zdat xalti, tin temmeù fellas s aqarru tgebd-iñ-id deg wcebbub : - yyaù ùur xaltim ! Ayùer tt-tugadeô ? Titi texbabeô tuùwas. Nek d Baya nesfezwi ùer lûara. Yemma tegr-d at-tûud yellis tegla yess xalti. Ûlima, yessis akw túiratin slant-d i ysuùan nneù uzlent-d. Zzint-as i xalti §§fent-tt, qurµant-tt almi d-yewweô baba. Ayen râagit wussan nni ! Tamsalt n xalti tessaweôaù almi d tikli nettu nana meskint, tin mi werµad yeqqur uâekka. Tura µarqent-aù, negwra-d newqaµ. Amek a s-neg i xalti ? Ala yiwen wexxam i ùurneù, anda a tt-nesgen ? Anida a tt-neûbes maáái ? Acku m’ur tt-ncudd ara ammer i txeddem neù at-terwel. T-tarewla i ykukra a§as baba. Sliù94
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as mi sen-yettmeslay i xwali ; ugaden i yôaôôun ma terwel. Ma tecceô ar nexnunes! W’iâran ? Tame§§ut meââiyet, ma tejba ùer tmurt tabeêêanit tezmer at-teññukellex. Imeksawen §§uqten, yurz-iten weùbel di tmeslubt ? A dtegwri d ccama i twacult. Ma deg wexxam, baba yugad fellaneù, i limmer at-tencer ? Ulamek a yilin akw d xalti imeqwranen kra yekka was. Taswiµt-a tifrat-is d cced iôarren sya ar t-teûlu neù ar t-ters. Azekka nni ffùen imarrawen nneù ùer lexla úúan xalti yidneù, nek d Titi. S temrart yeksan s cµar n taùa§ i tt-cudden, ùer tgejdit n taµrict, deg ôarren almi d ammas. Tejreû tasa nneù. Cfiù-as-d i weltma, mi ters ti§-is ùef xaltis at-te§§erdeq d ime§§i. Negguma an-neffeù ùer beêêa an-urar, ur d aù-yefki yara wul nneù n llufan a tt-neú weûdes, tùaô-aù. Neqqim yides almi d-uùalent yemma akw d Baya. Deg yiô nni, di taµrict ay §seù nek d yessetma. Baba yefsi-yas-d i xalti akken at-teáá imensi. Slaµyaô i s-yettmeslay, ttemyexâaren am sin yebùan ad nnaùen ; ttwaggaden. Cwi§ kan akka terra-tt xalti i wsuùu, baba yunef-as. Tuùal temmeù ùer tfedêeqt nni n seksu tsers-itt-id s irebbi-s, ttett s ufus ; s lemûirat, tijùwelt teùli ger iôarren-is. Imiren kan tessµadda kra yella di tfedêeqt u send a d-yekker ùures baba, tewwet-itt ùer tesga tebôa d iceqfan. Yemma teûzen maca ur yelli i wacu mi tezmer. Ur nessaweô an nerfed tameslubt nneù nessagger iwakken a s-neddu di lebùi. Zzher n
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imarrawen nneù d uzlig. Wagi d ayen d-ibanen, mazal ayen d-iteddun ; d yir tagwnitt fellasen. Tamezwarut ilaq kra yekk yiô d aµawez, win ye§§sen wayeô a d-yakwi, d aqaraµ di xalti ammer i tteg n “tmeùriwin” : tezmer at-tesker times deg wexxam, at-twezzaµ acbayli, at-terâ takufit, attneù izimer neù ma yefka Êebbi tirâi at-texneq yiwen degneù. Mi d-fsin ifassen-is at-ttettcarrig di tqendyar-is. S ijerbuben i tebùa at-teqqim. Ur tµa§§el ara tessenger weltmas acku mi qqaêsent tqwendyar s d-teúúa nana meskint ur s d-yeggri wara, u baba ur yessaweô ara a s-d-yaù tiyaô. Tin ùers, tuùal t-talexxaxt nettat yellan zeddiget : tteffeù anda tettùimi, tettaggad aman am tmes u wer tettanef i yiwen a s-yemceô. Werúin yumis wexxam nneù am ussan agi ineggura. Ayen yessewhamen di xalti t-tadawsa ines : tettcuffu, yettizwiù wudem-is u tettuzur taùwect-is. Ayen dyeùlin n lqut ger ifassen-is tessµadda-t, aùunfu tennuù yides. Tuùal am tileft ma d leµqel yezga yunag. Ma d yemma meskint tecrew, ala agwlim ùef yeùsan i d-yeggran degs. Tùaô medden meêêa maca lemùiôat ula i ù-d-gent. Tura ùef yiman nneù i nettru maáái ùef xalti. Nettnadi tifrat, akken tebùu tili neù ansi tebùu tekk-ed, âidet. Zrin kra n wussan, xalti tuùal ters. Truû am tin yekkawen, tefcel. Deg wexxam kksen-as cced. Degmi a yali was, nettat t-tiùimit deg yiwet n tdekkant ddaw useqqif. Allen unagent, tettargu s ibeddi. Tilkin yulin ùef i jerbuben-is d uqerruy-is ttqeggilent i yi§ij aûmayan n tegrest. Ur ilaq wa tt96
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ilaµin neù wa tt-imassen. Yemma tenna-k ttalemmast n wagur i d-isersen talwit di weltmas. Tkukra fellas a tt-id-yuùal werway nni ines di tagara neù di tlalit n wagur amaynut. Ma t-tiúiratin skerkisent : nnant-as belli d leúnun i ykecmen xalti ; sya ùer zdat at-tuùal at-tetkacef u a d-tessis ayen a s a tidir twacult di liser. Zemreù a d-iniù belli baba yettak tameââuùt u westewtew n temùarin seg wakken ûercawet ddunit. Ma d yemma trekkem seg wurfan, ur s-yefki yara wul-is at-tfaêes deg ubaxix yuùen weltmas. Ur tettanef ara i yiwet di yessis n Ûmed at-tuùal t-taseûûart neù t-tamkaceft. I âideô a lûif! Menyif tamettant n tmeslubt ! a s-yeddun di lebùi d aggay n weltmas ùer yemêabôen a s-darun neù s alebµaô n lemqamat a s-ssufùen leúnun. £as, tamezwarut, ur tettamen ara a§as s lecyax, tis snat ur yeshil ara ùef baba ad yawi yides tameslubt. Laqen yedrimen, amerkub, imûamiyen, ad yeúú axxam t-tferka, ad yeûbes lxwedma,… Maáái d yiwet ; Taggara tin d-iseqfen sufella ùef tikli ger iberdan d lµtab d umesruf, xalti rqiq §maµ n ûellu-s a§as a§as. Degmi ters cwi§ xalti, At Musa uùalen lhan-d d ccùel nnsen am zik. Ger lmerta n ddunit d iùeblan nnsen, imarawen nneù ttun tameslubt yettidiren garasen, ttmektin-tt-id kan ma tili zdat wallen nnsen. Tuùal d aµggal nniôen deg wexxam. Tuùmest n ûellu ines nqeôµ-itt u aqaraµ degs nekkes-it. Tikwal akka xallti tteffeù u teñruûu ùur lúiran. Mi tessebêareû lluû useqqif n yiwen, a stbedd zdat wemnaê awal ur ñ-id-yettali. Ayen
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µarôent tulawin a tt-id-sne§qent ulac. Ma fkant-asd talqwimt n weùrum neù takwemmict n iniùman añ-te§§ef mebla ma tga-yas ccan ; Ma t-tamuùli ines tezga tunag. yiwet n tmeddit, Faôma, Baya d Êemdan mi dusan di lexla ur d-ufin ara xalti deg wexxam. Titi yezgan teñbibbi Âazu tamaâuzt, tella di lûara teññurar. Twala xaltis mi teffeù cwi§ deffir babas d yemmas. Nek mi tt-âriù zdat lakul ùef lewhi n lµacra, bùiù a ñ-id-rreù s axxam. - Anef-iyi a d-âreù weltma, i yi-d-tenna. Mêemcent-ed wallen n yemma d ime§§awen mi s-d-ûkiù. Almi d assen i d-tuder xalti weltmas yemmuten. D leµqel i tt-idyeññuùalen ? Imi timeqbert tezga-d akin kan cwi§ i lakul yuzen-aù baba nek d Titi an-nmuqel xalti ma tt-naf ùer tama uâekka n nana. tenna-k yemma din kan a tili, maca yiwen ur yexliq di tmeqbert. Deg wezrib daùen ulac. Azal n ssaµa nekwni d anadi ùef xalti almi s d-yenna yiwen umeksa i baba belli iwala-tt mi tâub s Amalu. Amalu t-taferka d-yeúúa jeddi Ûmed i yessis di tlata. Degs azemmur d lexrif. Tezga-d deg uzaùar ukessar, igezm-itt yiwen yeùâer, yedrem u yal ma wwten waman yettaûmal-d. Tabri§ yettawin ùures tenneô, yezzi-yas-d sya u sya yinijel t-tidekt aîubbu ùures azal n wezgen n ssaµa ma d alluy tµedda ssaµa. Tafsut t-tafsut u t-tikli a dyeùli yiô. Kkawen ifadden n baba tessaµwej tyerza n kra yekka was, yessewµaê a tt-yehnu alma d Amalu a d-yerr xalti.
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Darani tura ters. Meêêa nùil at-tens deg uµacciw deg ttaooant xwalti asaùur iwakken a t-zzenzent. Yerna xalti tessen Amalu tardast tardast. Yemma s timmad-is akka i tmeyyez. Wiâran ? Yiwen yiô i tziri, ger ijeúúigen, ahat ad yelli tibbura uqerru n tmeslubt? Neù d iùilifen a d-yuùalen ? Deg wexxam, ùas nenneùwni cwi§ nestehza daùen a§as. Lûaîun, nwet akw nneû, yiwen ur ttyekcim weùbel. Tignawt n Meùres ttetti am tata ; d ayen i yeôran deg yiô nni : ixeîr-d lûal deg yiwet n teswiµt. Ageffur yekkat s uzayaô, aôu yebùa ad yessifeg lqermud ula ùer ger lecqayeq n lelwaû yettsuôu-d. Yemma terra-d weltmas ger wallen-is, tkecm-itt tergagit. Ayen yeµreô baba a s-yekkes aùbel tegguma. Ula d netta ur yerkid ara, rnu ineâmi n yemma t-yesµuâgen ladùa ideggeê taduli, yekker yelsa lqecc-is yeffeù. Nesla-yas mi s-yessawal i gmas. Rran di sin ssakwin-d kra n laµmum usan-d s axxam zzin d agraw. Ahat di xemsa neù di setta yidsen i llan. Meêêa lsan-d icifad, nnôen deg yebrenyas iqdimen, taqelmunt tùum iqerra ùef lehwa. Gland s iµawzen, tikli n yiô ilaq-as uûezzeb… Ma d ageffur yekkat irennu, tegguma at-teswawi. Simi zegren amnaê ùellint-d tmeqwa a s-tiniô d abruri. Fùen wa deffir wa, d leûzen d-yufraren ùef wudmawen nnsen i ù-yeskecmen aùbel, ttasusmi sen-icudden imi i ù-d-úúan t-tamwanest. Drebzen di §lam §§fen abrid d akessar. Ddaw tiùilt deg i tejgugel taddart zemren ad seln i weskefkef n yeùâer umalu.
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Ssbeû, mi d-ukiù, ufiù-d abernus n baba yebêuri, iµelleq ùer tagwest di lûid, ùer tama n tebburt, ineggi s amnaê. Baba yenneô deg waµlaw, ye§§es di teùmert. Ta§§ucin n yemma ttizeggwaùin deg me§§i, ur ufin ara xalti. Deg wassen ur tôal ti§ nneù fellas i yiwen deg wexxam ur yeâri amek i d-as-teôra i tmeùbunt. Ma d nek cukkeù d iùâer umalu i t-yeááan. Deg uzaùar n Tizi Wezzu, asif n Taxuxt d iùeâran d-yemlalen din zgan ssusufen-d widan wwin. Tafekka umeùbun ááan att-tafeô tezzegzew, aµebbuv yeqbeê deg waman icuf am teylut, allen fùent-ed, imi yelli, iles yeµluleq. Wissen lbext n xalti m’akken i s-iga at-tekfu ussan-is ? Yiwen maáái yeâra. Ma yafen medden yiwen lmegget iôegger-it-id wasif ùer rrif-is, ad ssufùen awal, ad yelûu ùef tuddar, a d-asen lùaci a t-walin. Ma nnsen a t-awin s axxam-is ad µiwzen fellas a tne§len azekka nni, ma wer taµqilen ara ad yettwanîel wissen amek di tmurt taberranit. Tabaµ d akal n Êebbi yakk. Ma d imawlan-is a taysen. Akken i d aù-teôra i nekwni. Dduêt meêêa d anadi ùef xalti, later-is ur iban. Ula d aîubbu ines s Amalu yuùal di ccek, acku ameksa nni ur ye§§if ara deg wawal-is degmi yesla i tulawin fkant-as udem nniôen. Ur d-gireù ara axerriô ùef xalti mi sd-nniù i yemma walaù-tt zdat lakul mi terra ùer tmeqbert ; seg imiren yal wa taùwect d-yettawi : Tameslubt meskint tùab, tuùal am lmalayekkat, tezger di ddunit ùer laxert, teôfer weltmas amzun tbeddek kan axxam. Wid yettmeyyizen ur sen-gin
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ara ccan i ymennan agi, ur sen-kcimen sya ur senffiùen sya. Yemma tejreû tasa-s acku werµad yeûli udeddic n tmettant n nanna mi tendef s twaùit yeglan s xalti. Ma nniù-d neñru a§as xalti, skadbeù, acku deg wasmi temmut nanna amzun akken leêzen yezga deg wexxam nneù, yezdeù degneù u yettidir yidneù, rnu iùeblan d iµakkkiêen n yal ass. Limmer an-nerr tasa d lemùiôat di rrif nezmer a d-nini belli neµya di tegnitt deg nella u nessaram ci§uû n liser t-tmendit. Ala yemma i s-iûulfan mliû i tyita yagi taneggarut. Tenna-k yerreâ ufurek aneggaru n twacult – ahbuh… afurek useklu iwet maras -, ur d-yeggri uâar wuùur a terzu neù a dyerzun fellas, ur tesµi yiwen nniôen ûala Êebbi d wexxam n wergaz-is akked laûnana n dderya-s. Tikwal tettlummu deg yiman-is, teqqar stehzeù di weltma. Nekkni s imec§aû nfaq belli truû tùawsa yesµan azal ameqwran : taxxamt n xwalti. Yezzenz-itt baba i yiwen lúar ihudden aùrab nni garas d wexxam is. Taferka nni tamcumt ur nmuqel ara ùures : xwali, At Musa zzenzen-tt u bôan idrimen-is. Dayen… Yensa ucewwiq n texxamt d aù-yezzuzunen, yexla lµec nneù ur nusim di dduû, tùum teôwiqt n tafat deg i teêêaµraµ temâi nneù, ur d-yeqqim win ar annûemmel nnig imarrawen nneù, kfant tid i ùiteddun di lebùi, tid i $-iteggen ccan. Yeggra-yaùd baba d yemma nezzi-yasen-d am ifeôôaú.
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Assa, d laâ mi sebêen watmaten iw ; d lûif ten-yerâan ur tennessekna, i d-iyi-rnan di ccan. Zik, rriù-ten d lµib u ffreù-ten deg wul-iw. I yecbeû wudem n leqdeê ! MICLI
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-IAseggwas nni deg mmutent xwaltis, deg ssaramen meêêa cwi§ n talwit, yerna weqcic deg wexxam n Furulu i wumi semman Dadaê. Talalit yesmentgen tismin di Ûlima. Dayen, yekkes-as i Furulu yisem n wewûid tine§den, yuùal d amenzu deg warrac. M ilaq-as ad izerr timsal t-yeggunin m’ara yimùur gmas, u silaµôil ad ifaêes taggnitt. Di tazwara, ùures amur di tâidanin t-ttett tmennifrit n yemmas (aksum, timellalin, tamtunt) iwakken at-teûlu. Syin ùers gmas nni ùas d llufan d aµeggal, gan-as amur di kra a yettwabôun, maca aûric-is iùelli s afus n Furulu i d-ttîaûen akken sin imuren. Tiyessetmatin ur tent-id-yettali wawal : Ma yerna weqcic amur-is i dadda-s, yella win a s-d-ikecmen degs ! Ma d nutenti a wer d-uùalent, t-tiqcicin i llant. Atta twacult Nat Musa. Di sebµa yidsen. Yiwen i d-yessasayen aùrum. D babatsen. Ihebber am yilef, ur syettêuû yiwen wass, itekkes-itt i tµabbu§-is yettak-it i warraw-is, iâemd agus almi d ulamek, ur yettôeggir ur yettanef i win a yôegren. Yettergigi i laµyudat i sekfuyen adrim, yettaggad tagrest i tetten deg kufan. Furulu, gmas d yessetmas kren-d akken wµan. S umata, ur tulwa yara tudert nnsen, tin wer d-neúúi lateê di tqerrut n Furulu, maca yir tiswiµin yessµadda di temâi-s yettwali-tent am di lemri. £ures ûdac iseggasen asmi yeffeù babas d amuôin seg wakken yefka dderk i yiman-is s lxedma. T-taggara n lexêif, uôan akk n Êemôan di lexla yettqaraµ idenyen n tazert. Mi d-tufrar tafat a d-yali s axxam. Yiwet n tikkelt yusa-d udem-is weêêaù, allen-is nexêent, ssuêa-s teûma.
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Yesres tacekkaêt n weslen d-yemûelfaf ùef waµrur-is, yerra ad ye§§es. £iwel ssu-yas-d, del-it, rnu-yas tasumta. Lqut râag deg yimi-s, d iôes kan. Tame§§ut-is tùil a s-iµeddi, yessis tmesmuqalent ma d runt, ma d Furulu skud ur t-taµni temsalt yesbeô. Tabaµ babas yeúhed, yezmer i dderk netta, maáái d cwi§ n wa§§an a t-iùeôlen. - Ulac llµelf i yezgaren iô agi, teâriô neù xa§i ? i sd-tenna yemma. Muqel ma tzemreô a sen-d-tawiô aggay usaùur. - Ruûet kem d warrawim, nek ur zmireù ara. Ûuccet-d taslent nni talemmast, meââiyet u teshel i walluy. Bùiù a tt-sseggriù, maca imi akka i d-tusa, anef. £urem Furulu ad yali, netta fek-it a d-yessew izgaren. Tura úú-iyi ad §§seù cwi§, tessufù-ô arrac ùer beêêa ad uraren. Tameddit, tuùal-d ùures yemma tûerî-it. - Cwi-k ? Ma tesµukzeô, ahat at-tizmireô attqarµeô iniùman iô-a ? Axxi a k-id-walin medden ! - Inn-as i dadda ad iêuû deg webdil-iw. Xa§i ! Siwel-as a d-yas, ceyyaµ-as Furulu, tawiô-i-d ad ssweù. - Tebùiô a k-d-llfeù aµrur-ik ? -Awwaû ! Atan râen akk leµôam-iw, saûeù meêêa. - I wgazu n tâurin ? Neù ahat seksu d yiùi ? A kid-yessakwi ! Remôan yessusem, yeqqen allen-is. Ur tent-idyelli almi d-yewweô gmas. Lewnis, ula d netta, ur iga yara aùbel, iùil ur yuù wara gmas. Ulac uùilif, d Lewnis a yqarµen tazert, maca azekka nni, ùures ccùel, zik a ye§§ef abrid alma d ass yecban assa a d-yuùal. Deg iô nni, amuôin yulwa, yennerna degs wa§an. Yettlejlij, yessawal i yemmas yemmuten, ilehhet u yettuùu am akken llan zdates lùaci..
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Yeqqar-d a ttgallan dgi. Tame§§ut-is iêuû-as yiôes, arraw-is daùen akken. Qquren u ggugmen si tugdin. - D leúnun, i ù-d-tessefra yemma. Si linna i yettnaù yidsen babatwen. Furulu yeffer u yessemâi iman-is, awi-d kan ur tid-ttwalin ara leúnun. Ziùen waµren ! Imi ùeôlen babas, zemren ! £as yennum yeggan ad yerwu iôes, azekka nni, akken kan d-yenqer yi§ij yekker-d ad yeddu d Baya nnsen ùer lexla. Ilaq-asen a d-ssufùen idenyen deg uµacciw, a ten-fesren deg wennar, a d-leqwôen iniùman d yeùlin ddaw tneqwlin, ad ksen akraren u a d-awin tacekkart nni n weslen d-iûuc µammitsen deg iô nni. Ma d-yaweô s axxam yeâra ggunin-t yezgaren a ten-id-yessew u tameddit ad yuùal alma d lexla ad yessekcem tazart nni s aµecciw, a d-yezden u a d-yeglu s usaùur. Yessarem ad yefreû yess babas. Deg wexxam, yufa-d yiwen ccix a yettaru lûerz. Babas yella ye§§es, d amêabed nni i t-id-yessakwin. Yesteqsa-t, Remôan yenna-yas-d amek teôra yides. Iban d leúnun i t-ikecmen. Di lµinser, seddaw wennar, i ttwawôen deg yiô ur iµabbed yiwen degsen. Ayen d-yusan s ùursen ùef demma n umuôin. Tura, iwakken a t-fùen, tlaq tazla idammen uqelwac akw d ubexxer s ifarrawen ilili yura ufus n §§aleb di snat tamiwin. Tlata tikkal n ubexxer u yal abrid s yiwen yifer. Akken ur µarqen ara deg farrawen, yal yiwen iµarreb-it ccix s yiwen, s sin d tlata ijeêêiden. Leúnun ùeôlen-d rrehba di Furulu, a sen-yecfu limmer a ten-inamer ! Yemmekta-d tamacahutt sen-d-iwet ccix di lakul, i deg, iwakken ad yeddu di lebùi i yemmas yettûellilen degs a s-d-yaru lûerz ùer wemêabeô, yeddem-d iccer n
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lkaùeô yaµôef s lemûadra yura degs asefru n Si muû u Mûend. Annect-a, akken a d-yini i yessetmas belli netta yeùra u yefhem ; Tikerkas n bu taµmamt ten-yeâgen s mitin n duêu ur d-ttawint ur ttarrant. Yewwet-asent-d tamacahutt nni u yenna-yasent-id belli asefru n Si muû u Mûend yessaûla tamùart nni ugar n lûerz n wemêabeô. Maca ur t-ssawôent ara tissas-is a tt-id-yeûku zdat §§aleb d-yuran llûerz neù skud ur ye§§is ara babas, acku ma dyakwi umuôin, ma k-id-yesmuqul, w’iâran ma d netta neù d leúnun t-izedùen i k-id-yeááan s wallen ? Ahat a ten-idnnfeû a d-uùalen ùurek ? Di teswiµin am tigi i yebùu yecnu ccix n lakul aµbaê-is ur ye§§erdiq ara; Furulu yerra iman-is d niyya yessusem, ye§§ef tiùmert yexmet! U yernu yehwa-yas kan iùeôl-ed ùef yiman-is aêµiµec, ggumman leúnun ad fùen bab nnsen. Yusa-d wemêabeô wis sin, yerna-d wis tlata maca yiwen nnsen, ulac win d-yeglan s ûellu. Ma d-yakki Remôan, ad ifaq d yiman-is, yeqqar-asen-d belli ur tyezdiù wara, maca ma s-tesleô yettlejlij, yewµar a s-tiniô ulac-iten degs. Tezzi-d ddurt, yuùal-d dda Lewnis. Yewhem mi d-yufa gmas yennerna degs wa§an. Ziùen maáái ttiqecmaµ. “Azger mi yeùli, §§uqutent tferyin“ : £er wa§§an n Êemdan, terna-d truâi n tseùlit uµacciw. Yiwen yiô, imi ulac win a yqarµen, ukren ddeqs di tazert u râan kra n idenyen. Dda Lewnis yerfed taµkkemt n wexxam n gmas, yuùal d aqerru. Imi ur nezmir an-nqam tayuga, yemsefham d baba zzenzen-tt. Abaùur a ù-d-iîaûen an-nqabel yess amuôin, maca ur ye§§if ara a§as. Ilaq smid d weksum yal dduêt. Nezla aqelwac nniôen ; tikwal akka t-tayazi§. Tewweô-d Lµid laqen lqec i warrac yenza umerkub d ikerri. Lûaîun, Êemdan yezlef
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send ad yerfed iman-is. Dda Lewnis, akken ad yesseûlu gmas yettûeôôif irennu : a d-yenfeq d arrac a t-yeááen, a dsebwen tacrift amuôin ad isew afenúal dayen. Asmi yeûla cwi§ Êemdan, yehwa-yas-d lqut ur yufi d acu a yerr ddaw tuùmest. Ur d-yeggri wacemma, la di tkufit wala taxri§. Ladù yerra-tt i wre§§al akken ad yawi iri u ad yessider at wexxam. Temmugr-aù-d tegrest, yerna-d daùen are§§al almi t-tafsut. Tuùal-d tezmert i Êemdan mi d-usan wussan igerzen : di tefsut. Mi ywala tasraft deg yeùli tceqqeq tasa-s. Ine§§ed wass lûif deg jufaê, yecrew, a§an yessaweô-it ùer telqaµt n wannuy. I tikkelt tamezwarut deg wasmi yebôa netta d gmas, terra-t tmara ùer lqaôi yerhen axxam t-tferka. Asenni, mi d-yerna are§§al, ma yecfa mliû Furulu, d ass n ssuq. Babas, akken ad yekkes ùef ul-is inefq-asen-d asaµlaq ikerciwen. £as ssaramen ùursen, asenni rzag-it deg yimi. Kra n wussan kan, iweîîa gmas ùef wexxam, Êemdan yehna-tt ùer Fêansa. Iruû ad yinig. D win kan i d ixef-is. D asirem aneggaru, ulac tifrat nniôen. Ur d-teggri lxwedma di tmurt. Yeâra limmer ad yeqqim, §laba attettembibbi ta ùef ta, at-tettnerni, at-tettimùur alma tegla s cwi§ d-yeúúa jeddi.
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-IIYiwen, ger warraw-is, ur d-yewwi s lexbaê belli babatsen ad ye§§ef, azekka nni, abrid-is s inig. Iûun Êebbi, Furulu yuki-d deg-yiô nni. Babas ur ye§§is ara. Di §lam i yettâalla. Maáái s tufra, maáái deg ul-is i ydaµu at-tefsi tyersi t-yurzen, a sd-llint tebbura n lxir, at-tekfu cedda fellas. Yettµenni ùer Êebbi a d-isel i wawal-is. Di taggara yessaram di bab igenwan ad iûareb ùef warraw-is. Taùect n Êemdan tettcerrig tasusmi n yiô, imeslayen-is tedl-iten rrehba, asiwel ines yessergagay tasa. Atteccirweô tamara. Ifesserd merra iùweblan t-yessenûafen, ibedr-d akk timsal syesbuxsen tameddurt. Yerra-yas-d Êebbi di lbal i Furulu belli yella lmelk nnigsen d-isellen u d-yettwalin ùer tqaµett. Yewhem. Yezmer ad imas babas limmer yeââil afus-is, acku yeggan ùer tama-s, maca yegguma, yellumet u yettraúu d acu a yeôrun. Tasa n llufan t-taleqqaqt, tendef ; teqreû n babas tûuz-it, yeqber. S lemùiôat cêecrent-ed wallen-is d ime§§i. D ime§§awen igugamen. Ayen te§§ef tâallit, Furulu ur t-id-yusi naddam. Yettnadi a d-yaf d acu n twaùit d-yeùlin ùef wexxam nnsen. Degmi wer d-yufi yara, yenna-yas ahat akka yakk i deµun imeqqranen s tufra, ma ttuûeêsent twaculin nnsen neù ma ten-ternu ddunit – Am liûala deg llan nitni s wat Musa. Yuùal yettûami-d babas di ddeµa n lxir almi tyewwi nadam ur yeâri amek ye§§es. Azekka nni, mi d-yuki d aneggaru am laµwayedis, yufa-d yemmas d yessetmas s ime§§awen, babas yeffeù di tafrara, u iwakken ur irennu aqbar i wul-is yesmenyaf ad iruû s tufra fiûel ma yesneùni yiwen. Yuzen-d abernus-is d uqendur-is i yiwen wemdakwel-is. D
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akustim s-d-yefka yiwen xali i yelsa u ddurt ni iµeddan, neâra-t mi t-yeúúeyib u mi s-yettxiô tiqeffal. Yesmekta-d Furulu ayen yeâra deg yiô nni. Tecmameû-as-d yemmas u tenna-yas-d belli ula d nettat tesla. Tellez mi twala mmis ur ye§§is ara lawan nni. Tullas uùalent t-tizegwaùin di leûya. Amek tent-yewwi naddam ? Ur ûemlent ara ihi babatsent imi wer d-ukint ara? - Xa§i ! i s-yenna Furulu deg wul-is. Tura iban belli yemma ur tezmir ara at-tettkel fellasent, felli kan i ùer a tsenned m’akka ulac baba. Tikti yagi terna-yas-d cwi§ n tissas, ur yettru yara am yessetmas. Isebbeê-itent yuùal ye§§ef abrid-is ùer lakul. Maca, tikwal akka, amzun tella lûaúa i ybernen di tµabbu§-is, tettali-yas-d s idmaren, tqebber-it u tettawqaµ-as di taùect. Tezzi-d dduêt tis tlata tewweô-d tebêatt tamezwarut. D lamin i tt-yefkan s axxam. Yiwen ur yezmir a tt-yelli send rebµa, acku imiren di lakul i yella Furulu. Deg fassen n Baya i tt-yufa, tefka-yas-tt-id ye§§efitt yessuden tajellabt-is. Zzin-as am weglaf. Gmas amec§uû, Dadaê, i jebbed-it-id di tqenduêt-is yettûellil degs : “Awi-d, awi-d ad waliù Baba”. Furulu ikukra. Tabratt tura s tefêansist, ùas yeùra rebµa iseggwasen n tefêansist yugad-itt acku ilaq-as a tt-id-yessefru. Akken ad yekkes ccek, isawel-as i yiwen meqwren fellas dyefùen di lakul s uselkim. Win ur yurúi yara a t-ûellen. Yusa-d, yelli tabratt nni mebla akukru. Simmal yeqqar-itt-id yettara-tt-id ùer teqbaylit ifaq Furulu belli maáái d ayen yellan nnig tezmert-is, ziùen ula d netta yessaweô a tt-id-iùer am akken tt-idyeùra wemdakwel-is. Yecreh wudem-is.
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Babas atan bxiê u yessaram tabratt agi a ten-taf daùen bxiê. Yufa lxwdma, ur yettµa§§il ara a d-iceggaµ cwi§ uîurdi. Yettweîîi deg warrac ur smuncufen ara a dttaùen awal i yemmatsen. £urwat taùa§ at-tekcem anda llant tleqqamin, ùurwat at-tettum at-tµalqem ddekwar i tneqwlin. T-taslent nni di tiùilt a tûuccem t-tamezwarut, ttameùust nni ddaw i taùa§ wayeô ad yenz. Lûaîun… Tabratt meêêa d aweîîi, amzun akken dagi i yella. Syin d asteqsi ùef wayen d-yeggran di tkufit d wecbayli, ùef leµmum d xwali amek ttilin. Yekfa-d tabratt s « wazzul ùef at wexxam meââi meqwer, yal wa s yisem-is “ Ula d win tt-id-yuren i Êemdan isellem-d fellaù. At wexxam meêêa yekkes-asen lxiq. Zzin-asen-d am umeqyas i Furulu d wemdakwel-is ; iban-asen-d Êemdan deg yiccer n lkaùeô. Tura a s-nerr tabratt. Lkaùeô d tjellabt heggant, win a tt-yarun daùen yella. Yefka-yas-d Furulu adlis i f a yessers lkaùeô, ye§§ef-as-d tadwatt deg a yessisen ticcert. Win yeqqummec, Furulu iggar ti§-is. Acemma ur ilaq ara a s-yenser. Fellas a dyelmed s ysa ùer zdat tira n tebratin. Tabratt tamezwarut yeswaµr-itt. Yeâra llant kra n tenfalyin i s ara yezwir t-tid a s ara yekfu, werµad tentyessin. Maca deg assagi akin dayen, yeggul deg yiman-is ur yuùal a d-ig tajmilt i yiwen. Llant tid yelmed : “Seg ul zddigen am aman”, “mmik n tasa t-tµabbu§”, “azul aûmayan”. Tismin t-izdùen ufrarent-d acku ayen yura wemdakwel-is maáái kan izemr-as maca yessaweô almi s-d-yekkes sin igulen, tabaµ maáái seg ul i s-yenna tanemmirt-ik ! Azekka nni yegla s tebratt nni ùer lakul iwakken a tt-yefk ccix i wfactur, ccix yewhem mi ywala tira maáái t-tid n win yesùaray. Yenna-yas-d belli iùil-it yezmer ad yaru i babas. Zzint-d snat ledwaê Furulu yewwi-yas tabratt nniôen, tansa n babas di tjellabt teôbaµ
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s tira ines : “Êemdan at Musa, 23, abrid n la goutte d’or, Paris wis 18”. Mi ydeggeê ti§-is ccix yeµqel belli Furulu yettraúu lûaúa ssegs. - Yelha ! is-d-yenna ; Furulu yellez. Tazwert n tebratt tis tlata n Furulu i babas t-ta : “S wul yennecêaûen i d-ddmeù imru akken a k-d-alùeù belli wwiù-d aselkim…” . Tawinest-a yelmed, mi sen-d-yefka ccix ùef usentel n tsekla – “Tettekim ger wid irebûen, turam-as i wemdakkwel nnwen” –tban-as-d tgerrez s-timmad-is u daùen tuklal a tt-ùren di Lpari. Tennerna cbabûa-s mi tsawel tidett u teffeù-d di ticcert umaras amaynut. Yefreû, send at-taweô, ùef wudem a tefk i win a s-dyeùren tabratt nni i babas. Yewwi-d aselkim netta d sin yemdukal-is. Ssµaddan di Larbµa Nat Yiraten azal n µacrin killumi§r ùef taddart nnsen. T-tamdint d wawal : degs a§as iêumyen, ùures timezduùin meqwrit, tiûuna cebûit, izenqan hrawit rnu tikeêyas iteddun i yman nnsent. Anda d-tban Tizi ? Kra yellan degs iwala-t zeddig, yelha u annect-ilat. Akka yernu qqaren-d medden t-taddart tamec§uût ! Yeêwa amerreû degs, yezzi-yas-d meêêa u iwala kra tesµa, acku iruû yibbas send assµaddi. Yewhem deg yiman-is u yefreû mi yfaq belli yessen tafêansist. Icax mi yesla i warrac imec§aû ttmeslayen taêumit am netta neù ahat ifent s taùwect nnsen taûlawant. Ar ass-a mazal teââenzun deg meââuùen-is tiùri n yismawen n wid deg i yessµadda. Ddeqs Iêumyen i yellan di lecyax d wid a yµassen. Yekcem, fkan-asen-d ùef tsekla t-tusnakt, yessers lbal-is, yessufeù-d meêêa tamusni-s yerbeû di tira. Gwran-d iseqsiyen. Limmer yelli ccix-is din ur t-yettaµqal ara, acku maáái d Furulu n zik, leûya nni tufeg, tuggdin t-yurzen tefsex.
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Deg yiô i d-uùalen ùer taddart netta d yemdukalis. £as akkenni fesren di µeggu, d nitni i d-yekkren azekka nni d imezwura, ssufùen awal ger lecyax d yemdukal nnsen. Cekêen-ten meêêa. Furulu idel di lferû d zzux. Ilaq ad isel babas. Ye§§ef-d tabrañ ùer yessaram deg i d-ddant µacrin alef. Yegla-d yissent yiwen wemdakwel d-yusan di Fransa i yzedùen akw d babas. Mi d yewweô wargaz agi ùer taddart rzan meêêa medden s axxam-is. Steqsayent-t ùef iminigen sen-yettilin m’ur ten-yuù wara. Yessuden Furulu “di lbidal n babas” u yefka idrimen nni i yemmas. Ijebd-d deg weqrab sin yedlisen n tayri yuran s tefêansist. - A Furulu, waqila teùriô ? Igerrez ! ax ihi. Idlisen agi yefka-yak-ten-id babak. Yefreû yissek, teâriô ? Yerra-ten-id ddaw teùru§ yeffeù-d.
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-IIIDeg waggur n Tuber, Furulu ur d-yeffiù ara si lakul, t-tuùalin i yuùal, yebùa ad iheggi ad yesµaddi amzazwer ma s-dfken taggazt. Deg wul-is yeâra belli a tûwiúen deg wexxam d ameksa. Maca imedukal-is dyewwin yides akayad ur d-§§axren ara. Ur itegg ara netta akken nniôen ! Iµuned-iten. U yernu, d acu yellan n lmal deg wexxam ? Taùa§ d mmis. Zunik teûwaú yiwen ad ibedd fellas ! Darani a tt-nger ùer tqeôµit n taddart. Yal aggur neù sin yezmer ad yeb§el yiwen wass ad yeks leûq-is. Syin ad yeggani ar t-id-taweô nnuba-s. £as teqqim deg wexxam, tefsut, tase§§a uzemmur neù ucekkir di tegrest d cwi§ d usaùur ma yella ilmendad. M s wannect-a yakk, yernu Furulu d gmas ur êebbun ara seksu d uyefki, awer tili taùa§ am ta ! Imeksawen maáái ala tayessawt i ten-yeggunin, ùursen lecùwal nniôen : ttûuccun-d, zedmen-d, di lawan uzemmur d alqaô, di lawan iniùman daùen akken, ttqaraµen tibûirin nnsen ; maca Furulu ur yesµi yara snat yessetmas timeqranin di ba§el. Ur iôur yiwen ma yruû ùer lakul. Yemmas d yessetmas §§fen-t lexla d wexxam, babas yezga yettcegiµ-d xemse§§ac neù µacrin alef i tuúwin n temâin, babas Lewnis iqe§§u-d di ssuq ayen ilaqen i wexxam. Di lawan n uzemmur kan i yettasem cwi§ deg wid d-yeffùen di lakul. D igelfan n ââerzur d umergu i diùellin ùef tzemrin. M’ara d-lhin yergazen d wecraw, tilawin d welqaô, imeksawen, nitni, ttarantt i tanduyt. Ulac tardast deg ur ssentayen ara taqellaµt. Yal wa degsen ùures mitin, teltmeyya, llan wid yessawôen xems-meyya. Mi d-kkren i tafrara, ad ffùen akken i wsemmiô, ad-
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µaddin fellasent yiwet yiwet, ma ylaq a sent-bedlen azemmur – asent-rren win ye§§ecêuruqen -, syin ad alin ùer kra n tiùilt ad qqimen t-tirebbuyaµ ddaw tzemmurt a tent-id-ttµassan. Ad ssiùen times ad ssaûmun ifassen nnsen d iôarren nnsen u ad rúun, tasa nnsen di lkemca, lawan usefqed. Ula d Furulu, deg wussan n tesriû, iúúarib, yekkat wul-is ma yettqaraµ tiqellaµin-is u yessaram ùer wayen a d-ye§§ef. Arrac nni yettandin ur send-tuqiµ deg ugeffur, ur ttkukrun isennanen, ur ten-ineq usemmiô, ur tenyessefcal laâ. Yettafeg degsen µaggu, ma walin aâerzur yaµluleq deg useôru. Ifrax nni ad mmezlen, ad necwen u ad ááaren yissen tiqelmunin nnsen ; ma d wid d-tta§afen timeddiyin n wass ttawin-ten-tid s axxam d imudduren. Ma d-mlilen d warrac d-yeffùen di lakul, t-tazla i ttazalen ùursen ttmagaren-ten s wannecten n yefrax akken a tensseqôen. Acûal n tikkal yundi Furulu deg wayla nnsen, maca zgan ttakren-as imeksawen tiqellaµin-is m’ara yili di lakul. Irekkem seg urfan ma ywali wwin-as taqellaµt d umergu nni te§§ef. Ur yesµi s wacu a d-yerr ttar, ladùa yessaram, s wayen yellan deg ul-is, melmi a d-yaweô wass deg a yuùalen yefrax agi “iminigen” – s wezday n lqed i d-yessfruy i w’ibùun a d-isel anamek n wawal -, u yettûiri a d-yas wagur n Meùres a deg a tekfu tanduyt akked welqaô uzemmur. Degmi yesmenyaf tùuri ùef tanduyt d wurar, yegwra-yas-d kan ad yeûrec di lakul. Dayen i s-yeôran u yewwi-d amzazwar s sshala. Ass n wessµaddi, fkan-asend asentel n tsekla ùef iminig wer neùri : “Babatwen d axeddam di Fêansa, ur yessin ad iùer wala ad yaru, yendem imi werúin yekcim ùer lakul. Yeûka-yawen-d tamedêurt-is akk t-tlufa d-ttmagaren wid yellan am netta.
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Yessµadda-yawen-d awal ùef wazal tesµa tùuri”. Dùa babas di liûala am tin i deg yella. Yettwali-t ; Yettmeyyiz-d ger wallen-is tiµuggent n babas ma yruû a d-yeqôu, uguren d-yettemlili ma ynadi axeddim neù ma yesteqsat-id yiwen. Yezmer a s-yeµreq webrid, ur yettaf sani a yerr ur yessin d acu a yini. Tella daùen lbaôna n wexxam-is, âran-tt wiyaô acku ilaq-as win a s-yarun tibratin. Lûaîun ! Maáái t-tiktiwin i yneggren deg wallaù n Furulu, iwennaµ-asen aôris. Ma t-tusnakt tteklen akk fellas, t-tin i yûemmel nezzeh. Ggran-d iseqsiyen, ur yugad ara, yufrar-d ula deg widak. Yuùal-d s axxam yenfel wul-is si lferû, yeâra yewwi-t-id. Yettxemmim ùef twinest s wayes a ygerrez tabratt i babas. Maca tikkelt agi ur s-d-teôsi yara teswiµt. Lferû nni ines yefsex. Yusa-d yiwen di Fêansa, d ilemâi, qqaren-as Aµmer, yegla-d s yir isalen. Yemmurger-d Furulu zdat lqahwa yemsalam yides yenna-yas : - Tebùiô a yi-d-testeqsid ma âriù babak ? Ur ttagad, âriù-t-id. Tura, azzel siwel-as-d i yemmak, ùuri yiwet lamana a s-ttefkeù. - Atta di lúib-iw, maca in-as qbel i yemmak a dtas. Iwala Furulu udem n uminig idehn-it leûzen. Attan tewweô-d Faôma. S wawal afessas i tt-yemmuger Aµmer. - A nna Faôma, ùursen zzher warraw-im. £as fek lwaµda i wµassas n taddart. Cwi§ ur yemmut wergaz-im. Xas kkes aùbel i wul-im, tura yemneµ. Tame§§ut tameùbunt akked mmis uùalen d iwêaùen. - D acu i t-yuùen ? Ini-d kan ayen yellan. Ma yemmut neù yen§er, fiûel ma tefreô, tidett at-tuùal a dtban. Sin waguren ayagi maáái yura-d. - Xa§i ! Nniù-am yeûla. D yiwen uceryun n wuzzal i t-iûuzen. Yekcem ùer sbi§ar, úúiù-t-in t-tikli a d-
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yeffeù. Ad yuùal ùer lxedma-s ussan agi. Ax, tentan rebµin meyya duru iwen-d-iceyyeµ. - mazal-it di sbi§ar ? - ddurt iµeddan i ylaq a d-yeffeù. - I yedrimen agi ùures a yellan ? - Uuuh ! Yenna-yi-d fek-asen µecrin alef, atentan. Zemreù a wen-d-runù ma tebùam. Attan tebratt a Furulu. A wen-yeqqar ur tegget ara aùilif felli. T-tidett, nniqal yen§er ma t-tura ccwi-t. D Êebbi ur nebùi yara ad yesgujjel arraw-im di babatsen. Aqcic d yemmas uùalen s axxam ûeznen. Mi dusant teqcicin di lexla mlalen-d meêêa, zzin ùef lkanun. Ulawen ááuren, udmawen cerwen. Tikwal, tseffeô allenis Faôma s ijifeê n tmeûremt-is. Ula d ime§§i s tufra, ammer lúiran ad âren tawaùit yuùen axxam n Êemdan. Tameddit n wass i d-yekcem Dda Lewnis. Yewwi-d isalen s usefruri. Yebùa ad yekkes anweùni i warraw n gmas. Ula d netta ur iris ara lxa§er-is yaµni ! Isawel tidett Aµmer ? Ulac d acu yeffer ? Faôma tettûellil deg ulwes-is a s-d-yini ayen yeâra. Netta yettgalla ar gmas ar yeûla, ar ulac i t-yuùen, fiûel ma rnan-d aùbel wer nelli. Yebùa ad yawi arrac, di sin, ad ááen imensi ùures. Faôma tugi, yeffeù s wurfan. Yuli-ten yakk wurrif d uùilif. Qebren ùer daxel, tuqaµ-asen am tyersi di tgerjumt. Tabratt ur tesµiô i d-tssefra : “Idrimen i wennefkiù cuûet-asen ci§uû. Ur sµiù d acu a wen-n-rnuù, îebret kra n waguren. Ma twalam ur kken-tqaddan ara, zzenzet taùa§ d yiwen useklu...”. Azekka nni di lakul, yessefra-yasen-d ccix yiwen weôris : “Ulac i yâiden am temâi. Kunwi s warrac n lakul, ur tesµim d acu i kken-iceùben nnig taùuri d wurar. Ives nnwen fessus, ur yelli cwal a t-yerwin, ur yelli wayen a kken-yesneùnin. Tikwal babatwen yettruûu-yas
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yiôes iô meêêa, ttemseôfarent-d tlufa t-yezzan yiwet yiwet ger wallen-is. Yetterkab-it wurrif, yettergigi ùef dderya-s, yettkukru ime§§ulba a t-ûerîen, yettaggad ikufan ad qqimen d ilmawen. Kunwi ur kken-yerzi weùbel, ùurwen ur teqris ur tmal ; timsal teddunt s liser. “Xati ! Ur teâriô tabruyt ! i s-yeqqar Furulu deg ul-is m’akken dyettmeslay ccix. Yebùa a s-yini tamsirt agi inek tebna ùef tkerkas. Ula d arrac tjerreû tasa nnsen, be§§un tilufa n imarrawen nnsen. Zrin kra n wussan, yeffeù wawal ùef Êemdan di taddart, simmal ileûûu yettiùzif u simmal yettiùzif yettarâag. Tawacult tameùbunt yeffeù-itt laµqel : Atan gezmen-as aôar, waqila di sin ; kra qqaren-d yedderùel, wiyaô yemmut maôi. Yuùal dda Lewnis iîub ùer TiziWezzu iceyyeµ ddibic ùer usensu anda yezdeù gmas. Bihbih yuùal-ed, tôeffer-it-id tebratt. Aêumi ur t-terri tmara a d-yeskiddeb. Almi d akken i d-ters talwit deg wexxam.
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-IVAseggwas d wezgen i n-yeqqim Êemdan di Fêansa. Yiwet n tmeddit umezwaru n lexêif, Furulu netta d gmas uùalen-d di lexla, nehêen-d tajlibt n tùe§§en. Mi ttikli a d-awôen taddart mlalen-d Ûsen, mmis n xal nnsen. Yewwi aùyul-is a t-id-yessew. Ûsen yekna ùer Dadaê yebbi-t di teûnakt-is yenna-yas : - Azzel, zwir gmas s axxam, yusa-d babak. Arrac bedden di tlemmast n webrid am wid iseêµen ; llin allen nnsen d iqemmac nnsen, ggugmen. Ûsen ikemmel abrid-is yettecmumuû. Yiwet n teswiµt ijelleb Furulu amzun di tnafa i d-yefrawes, isarreû-as ttazla s axxam, yeúúa lmal-is u yettu gmas Dadar yettmaûûinen deg yiman-is akken a t-id-yeqôaµ. Deg wexxam, zzin-as lúiran akw t-túiratin i Êemdan am weglaf, ma Faôma tcebbeû teqqim zdat wemnar tettmagar wid d-irezzun. Arrac daûûsen, gan-d abrid ger lùaci almi wwôen ùer babatsen ten-yessudnen, mi sen-yemûalleq, yiwet n temùart tenna-yas : - Yewweô d argaz Furulu a t-iûerz Êebbi. - A kem-ihenni Êebbi. T-tidett meqwer. Tabaµ d lawan, aqli fukeù. - Keááini ? Tura i t-úehdeô wala zik ! Win a ymuqlen mliû di Êemdan, a t-yaf ibeddel nezzeh : iêebba leûnak, yebbelbel, taksumt-is mellulet, udem-is d azubaù ; amzun werúin yuôin? - U yernu itett mliû ula d asmi yella da, i d-ten§eq Faôma. D ayen teâramt meêêa, lûemdu lleh, ur nettcuûu yara ùef tµabbaô nneù. - Ahbuh a Faôma ! I s d-rrant tiyaô, Fêansa maáái am dagi.
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Iûar Furulu melmi a fùen lùaci akken a d-yeqqim netta d imawlan-is kan. Ti§-is ùer yiwet n teùmert anda tµennec yiwet n tbalizt d yiwen weqrab. Dadaê, ur ddyecliµ deg yiwen, iruû issers iman-is ùef tbalizt nni u yettemûelfaf s waccaren-is d wuglan-is netta t-tnelli icudden aqrab akken a tt-id-yefsi. Âazu, ááan-tt tismin, tebùa a t-id-testixxer. Ssekren ááaqlala d laµyaô almi dgren imeqranen. Kra n win yesµan win s-yettilin di Lpari yesteqsay fellas, Êemdan yettara-d i tuttriwin nnsen s wawal afessas d yiles aâidan, u yefka i kra degsen tiùawsiwin s-i d-yegla s ùur wid yellan dihin. Arraw n Êemdan yenfel wul nnsen si lferû mi walan aneggaru yekka tabburt, d µemmitsen Lewnis. Furulu, s tidett, yefka tameââuùt i watmaten mi ttmeslayen ùef lmerta d lemûan yesµadda babas di sbi§ar. Maca yeâra belli ùures akud akken ad isel s leµqel-is i tmacahutt n babas. Ayen t-yerûan tura d anadi d be§§u n lqec d-yusan di Fêansa. Iûar dayen a d-yeûku ùef waggay d-yewwi iman-is di lakul, d acu maáái zdat medden. Jebden-d deg weqwrab azal n teââina n texbizin akked cwi§ n lqec. Tabalizt tdemmek. Gezmen aùrum nni d iûedren u bôan-t ùef lúiran. Furulu d weltmas Titi ttawin ttarran seg wa ùer wa. Snat texbizin rran-t ùer µemmitsen Lewnis. Syin, send ad kecmen s usu, Êemdan yebôa-yasen lqecc nnsen yiwen yiwen i warraw-is. Imiren i ten-lsan. Axxam meêêa yebbeêqec. Ttemtihin m bu garasen, ttaôsan, ttemserfun, lûaîun ferûen akk. Taggara, Dadaê ye§§es s yerkasen-is imaynuten, tasedrit tazeggwa$t d yiwet n tcacit s-iùummen ula d imeââuùen. Âazu terwel s tqendurt d-yeddan i yemmas, ala taqerrut-is i d-ibanen, ula t-tin telsa-yas amendil awêaù bu yecruren d-yeùlin ùef
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wallen-is. Furulu, am wergaz, ibe§§en lqec-is s lemûadra, isers-iten nnig tsumta-s, u d amcum-is win a tenimassen! Ma d Baya d Titi, nutenti meqqrit, §§fent awemmus tent-id-isaûen ger iôarren nnsent u rrant iman nnsent smeûsisent i ymarrawen nnsent. I tikkelt tis snat i d-yessefra Êemdan amek i steôra. I wakken a d-rren lbal nnsen warraw-is ùef wayen d-yeqqar, yeddem-d a§ezdam-is yekkes-d degs kra n lekwaùeô yefka-yas-ten i Furulu : - Ax, ùer, ma t-tidett tessneô. Muqel taluft dyeùlin ùef babak. Âer ansi d-yekka d wanda d-yuùal. Iger ti§-is weqcic ùer lekwaùeô nni maca ur yefhim tiââit, Anagar isem n sbi§ar yuran s tmacint, ayen nniôen yura s ufus, iwakken a t-id-iùer bab-is ilaq as amejjay s timmad-is. Furulu imuqel lekwaùeô yiwen yiwen, yerra-yas-ten i babas, ihuc aqerru-s amzun akken yessefra ten-id. - Twalaô ? - Ih. - Wali tura aµbbuô-iw. Yekkes Êemvan tiqeffal n tsedrit-is. Muqel amek y-cergen. Arraw-is wehmen, fùent-ed wallen nnsen. - £as wer ttaggadet, i sen-d-yenna, ixaô, ûaca ccama i d-yeggran. Uâen, ssakden ccama ikerzen aµbbuv n babatsen si swadda almi d sufella, ula t-timi§ tegzem. Maáái d amassi i tt-mussen, d aslaf i s-sselfen ammer a-telli. Ulac anezgum, twennaµ axiôi. Syin yeddem-d Êemdan di tbalizt ameqqun n lekwaùeô, ttwacudden am uttafttar. Meqqret tira nnsen u tebrez : Tura Furulu yeùra-ten-id u yessuqel-iten-id ùer teqbaylit akken ilaq lûal ; iwala babas mmis belli t-tidett
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yeùra. D lekwaùeô n wexxam n ccraµ n temdint n “La seine”. D azaraf i deg yiwet n tkkebbanit n Fêansa yeffeùd fellas at-tettak i “Mas Êemvan at Musa” abursyun n sebµa alaf d tmanyin n duêu yal tlata waguren. - Teâriô ? Ur zmiren ara a s-kelxen i babak, i syenna Êemdan. Xeîreù ccraµ tikkelt tamezwarut, maca rrâiù-t, ur iµedda yara felli uzaylal. Muqel tura ayen dwwiù. Ayùer yexîer abrid amezwaru u ayùer yerâa ccraµ ? Di lluzin deg i ssefsayen uzzal i yxeddem Êemdan, maca am akken di tmurt n Leqbayel i yella, yettak dderk deg iman-is am akken t-yettak di tferka-s, aûbas ulac. Irennu swayaµ sennig tid yellan di lqanun, ixeddem yal ass, ula d ass n lûed ur yestaµfuy ara. Ladùa, ass n lûed i yuù tiùrit. Yennesr-ed yiwen uceryun n wuzzal iûerî-it ùer lûiô. Yekcem ùer sbi§ar n tkkebbanit. Lúerû ur d-iban fellas maca yuù-itent zdaxel, teqreû tegguma a s-tekkes. Tezzi-d ddurt, amejjay yenna-yas ffeù teûliô. D ayagi i ùer yessaram Êemdan. Iûar a d-yawi adrim, ad yerr attalasi ines u ad yuùal s arraw-is. Azekka nni yehna-tt ùer lluzin. Tameddit mi yekfa lxedma yusa-d ùer texxamt-is, ssiû yuùal-it-id, tgezzem tµabbu§-is a s-tiniô d ijenwiyen i yettcarrigen degs. Rran-t ùer sbi§ar nniôen, qrib yemmut. Din llin-as aµbbuô-is. Yeqqim-n tlata waguren ger tudert t-tmettant. Iùeblan, a§an, acedhi n dderya rnu lweûc n tmurt taberranit. Asmi yesteqsa ùer tkebbanit a s-d-txelleî ussan nni yeqqim am akken ten-tettxelliî i wid yuônen, tegguma. Iwala ááan-as taûadra yessufeù-as-d lkar§a. Kra n “lmumnin”, ùef wudem n Êebbi akked lmùiôat, ûumant, mlan-as-d amek a yexdem, ssekken-as-d sani a yerr
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akken a d-yawi leûq-is. Yeêwa tazliwin, kkawen ifaddenis deg wîubbu d walluy, taggara yewwi-d azref-is, yerbeû ccraµ. Xelleî-asen-d kra yeqqim u yerna-d s ufella abursyun $ef wer yegmin. Limmer yeâri Furulu tadyant iµaddan ùef babas, limmer yesli tamacahutt yeôran yides, yali a d-yemmeslay fellas asmi yesµedda amzazwer u a dyehdeê ùef tlufa d-yemmuger babas akk t-tseùlit t-yebôan netta d wid yeùran, ad llin iqemmac nnsen wid a yeùren aôris-is ! Tilufa n Êemdan d ayen yezrin, kfan-t. Ayen iµeddan iµedda. Tenna-yas-d Faôma menyif akka wala ugar, u a§an agi inek yusa-d di leîlaû. Akken llan deg wexxam ddan-d deg-wawal-is imi d-mmaren yedrimen ùef yiwet n tikkelt : telt-meyyat alef. Iwakken a d-iûelli annect-a Êemdan, ilaq-as aseggas nniôen n yinig. Ass-a atan ger warraw-is d iµeggalen-is, xas ixaô uµebbuô-is yeááur-d lúib-is. D ameêkanti ; Tura ad yerr ayen s-ttalasen medden u ad yidir s liser. Qrib amelyun di texri§-is ! Ma d ccema-s a s-tt-yeômen ubursyun ines lama d asmi a yemmet. Imejjayen nnan-as-d ilaq-ak at-teááeô mliû u a sternuô tiùimit. Aseggas ur tettmassaô acemma. Msakit ! Ur ârin ara belli Aqbayli “alamma yesla i termegt i yettcehid”, yebwa weglim-is, ur sen-yettaù ara awal alma dayen teúúa-t tezmert. Êemdan yeâra iman-is ur t-yuù wara. Taferka-s tegguni-t, imeddukal-is ttraúun-t ma d icunga ines qurµan-t, a t-iwet wugur ad llzen. Yebùa a sen-d-yesken imeêêa belli mazal-it d Êemdan n zik u tazmert ur t-teúúi yara u ùas yuôen, tirrugza-s teqqim d nettat. Yesteµfa sin wussan… Di lexêif, deg wagur n Tubeê, yuù lûal Furulu yeffeù-d di lakul, yezga iteddu d babas ùer lexla
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yettûami-t-id di cc$el. Uùen-d tayuga n yezgaren, aùyul d wakraren. At wexxam akk dhan, yal wa d acu yeµna. A stiniô uùalen-d wussan n talwit. Yellez Êemdan imi d-yufa mmis ùer yidis-is, d allal $ef a yettkel. Yebùa a syemmeslay am akken i wergaz, acku ùures Furulu yewweô d ilemâi, maáái d aqcic nni n zik. A s-yehder ùef wayen t-yerûan d azuzbu, qqimen deg wennar nnig uµecciw deg i mbabben idenyen n tazert. Êemdan yettxeêêiz tabarda ááan akk iùerdayen asmi yella di Fêansa. - Twalaô a mmi, i s-d-yebda, lmal agi yakk nneù, zemreù a d-aùeù sin wakraren nniôen. Aqlaù di sin nezmer-asen. Di tefsut an-nezzenz tayuga yagi akken a dnaù tin meââiyen. An-nezzenz daùen tlata wakraren a dnawi tafunast. Azemmur n useggwass-a a-d-yefk sennig lµula nneù ma yrad waûnin. Deg unebdu, nek ad ttawiù lxedêa ùer ssuq ùef weùyul, keáá d yessetmak a d-telhum d lmal akked lexla. Syin a d-nbeddel aùyul agi s userdun. A tt-nerr i tnezzut, at-tedduô yidi ùer leswaq iwakken attlemdeô. Ma tedda-tt akka, ma yehwa-yas i Êebbi, ur nettuùal ara an-nellaâ neù an-nenûaf. Simmal tefùen-d imeslayen deg yimi n babas, furulu itessiten ; simmal yessefham-as-d amek yettwali tameddit nnsen, aqcic yesmeûsis yewhem. Tibbura s-dyelli babas ur ttawint s anda yessaram, tikta n babas ur teffiù fellas. Yesked deg yiman-is ad yuùal d afellaû, a dyessekcem tawant s axxam. Maca netta maáái akka i yâer iman-is, asirem-ines d ayen nniôen. Yettwali-t deg unelmad, d igellil maca d uûric. Yennum tugna yagi n unelmad, tezga ger wallen-is almi s-tekcem s ul-is, iûemmel-itt nezzeh. Atan babas di kra n dqayeq yesfeô asirem, iôum kra yellan.
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Akken ad yesnefsusi ùef ul-is, yesbecbec-d seddaw tuùmest : - I limer a y-id-fken taggazt ? Zemreù ad uùaleù ùer lakul mebla ma tserfeô felli duêu. D ccix i yi-dyennan. Tamezwarut, ur tesµiô i k-d-fkan taswiµt agi, imi tesriû yekfa yernu ur d ak-d-urin ara. Tin ùers, ùas wwôen-d yedrimen, tùilleô i lakul umi nga nekkni ? Nekkni d igellilen, taùuri i wid ten-yesµan, i yemêkantiyen. Nutni zemren ad degêen kra iseggasen, ad xeîren u taggara nnsen a tt-id-awin di taddart ad ttalin §§aren. Maáái akka i s-teôra i mmis n Saµid arehhan ? Deg Wegni, llan sin neù ma tlata akkagi. Steqsaù wwiù-d s lexbar ! Iêumyen ur d-ttaken ara kan akka imukan, yewµer lûal. Wamma ma teqqim yidi a d-tessiseô ayen a d-ssiseù u wer d aù-yettxaî wara. Akka sin iseggasen neù tlata a d-tawiô iman-ik, a d-timùureô cwi§, syin at-zegrev ùer Fêansa. At-teâreô dinna s tùuri yagi inek, at-tµaddiô ansi k-yehwa, a tt-tselkeô ugar nneù. Ur ttµeddint ara fellak am akka µeddant fellaù. Tecbeû Fêansa, teâriô ! A§as n leûwayeú a t-issineô, a§as n tùawsiwin a tlemdeô. Asmi a d-taseô at-tiliô meqwreô, tewweô-d d argaz a k-dnawi tame§§ut. Atan amek ttwaliù ddunit. T-tagi i ùilaqen. Gmak a d-imed, a t-iliô s idis-is, a s-tbeddeô. Yessetmak ad ddunt s ixxamen nnsent. At-tetfeô amôiqiw di kra yellan. Asenni xas mmuteù ad êuûeù d afessas, ttekleù úúiù-d argaz. Yesmeûsis Furulu u yufa-yas lbenna i wzeùzen n babas. D imeslayen n wemùar azemni. Mi d-yudder babas zwaú, yebra i wqerru-s yuùal wudem-is d azeggaù si leûya. Êemdan ur d-yerfid ara allen-is ùef tbarda yettxeêêiz. Yekfa awal. Tasusmi ters-d, Furulu ur yesµi d acu a d-ileqqem deg wawal acku t-tusna d îîwab i d-
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yefùen deg yimi n babas. Yalwa iwezzen imeslayen nni. Yuùal Êemdan yessendeh mmis ùef yiwen ccùel, win yuù-as awal yekker s leµqel iêuû. Tameddit mi d-usan di lexla, ufan-d tabratt tettraúu Furulu. Tusa-d seg uùerbaz n Tizi Wezzu, anda s d-nnan belli taggazt tewweô-d u necden-t-id ad yas ad ye§§ef amôiq t-yeggunin. Akka... ”Nekkni netûebbir, Êebbi yettôebbir”. Udem n weqcic ifeúúeú, yefsex layas nni t-izedùen, yuùal-as-d usirem. Tugna n unelmad igellil tennerna cbaûa ines, yennerna wazal-is. Ye§§ef di targit-is am mummu n ti§-is, tekcem-as s ul ladùa tura mi tt-iwala tteddu at-teffeù. Ula d babas s-timmad-is yenna-yas waqila t-tidett, yumen. Aµni d aµeggun ? Ad yanef i tegwnitt am ta as-tenser, neù a s-nnesrent tmen§ac n alef a d-yefk baylek i mmis yal aggur ? Xa§i ! D ayen ibanen. Ama d Êemdan ama d mmis ur d-skeflen awal dnnan di lexla. Ttun-t yemmut din. Rran-tt i wmeslay ûaca ùef taggazt, taùuri d uùerbaz. Yennerna ccan n Furulu tameddit nni, yessetmas qudêent-tt mliû. Yemmas tekker ùer imensi i lmend-is. Netta d babas §§fen tiùmert ttmeslayen ùef tùawsiwin ten-yeggunin. Ilaq a d-heggin lqec, maáái d ayen isehlen. Maca imi llan yedrimen deg wexxam ur yelli uµekkiê ; “s uîurdi, i s-yenna Êemdan, tiyersiwin fettint am waman n wedfel ass n-yi§ij”. Azekka nni kan xemlen i yùallen nnsen. Êuûen ùer Tizi wezzu, âran-d anemhal n uùerbaz, steqsan, u Furulu yesser iman-is di lakul. Uznen ùer Leããayer a daùen isufar ilaqen. Îerfen a§as n wedrim. Lqec amaynut yusa-d, Furulu yewweô ùer lebùi-s. Ur d-yeqqim i unelmad ûaca anekcum s aùerbaz. Yekfa wagur n Tubeê, tirga teffeù.
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Êemdan maáái d win sganayen. Yeâra belli mmis ur yettaweô sani n kra u wer d-yettawi acemma. Maca yunef-as acku di temdint a yaf lqut aâidan wala deg wexxam, menyif din wala ma yeqqim di taddart ad yettumarret am tezyiwin-is. Imi adabu yebùa a s-dyesker mmis, Êemdan ur yugi yara. Yessaram kan ùures, a t-iwali yewweô d argaz, a t-id-iûami deg usenker n watmatenis d yessetmas. Furulu di tama-s ur tt-yundi yara. S tidett-is i yêuû ùer lakul. yebùa ad iùer seg ul iwakken a d-yeffeù d ccix.
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-VAsmi yeffeù Furulu axxam yeùli-d rrehba. At wexxam nneùnin. Tameddit nni mi d-zzin i ymensi iband wemôiq-is. Ixuî. Axxam meêêa a s-tiniô d ilem, neù amzun meââiyet twacult am akken netta weûdes degs tlata neù rebµa iµeggalen. Uùalen a ttmeslayen fellas, ûala fellas. Yessetmas udrent-d akk tilufa sµeddant ùef ilemâi n gmatsent, ndemment imi s-ddant tikwal di nneqma, ur îbirent ara i ymennuùen-is, ur s-wwint ara ; ggullent ar sya ùer zdat ar d as-ttaùent awal ur ar tµuzzent akken yuklal. Yemmas limmer tufi a s-t-ceggaµ meêêa tileqmatin tettara deg yimi-s. Tettûebbir amek a dyessu deg yiô, tugad fellas imi weûdes a ye§§es, anwa a tid-yessakin ma yettlejlij : lûaîun tekfa ddunit ùef Faôma tameùbunt yeúúan mmis yefferfer, yebµed ùef allen-is d leûnana ines. Ul-is yeááur, yedl-it leùman. Êemdan yebùa ad yekkes cwi§ n lxiq i tme§§ut-is, maca maáái d ayen yellan ger ifassen-is, ur yezmir ara. Ááurent wallen n Faôma d im§§awen, netta yeggar-d nnhati, ikarreô-ed taùect-is snat neù tlata tikkal akken ad isebber iman-is. U yernu, yehwa-yasen kan, Furulu atan di liser. T-tikelt-is tamezwarut i ye§§es deg ume§reû. Ayen yeááa, seg wakken igerrez u âid, ama d yemmas ama d yessetmas ur zmirent at meyzent. Netta ur ten-id-yerri yara yakk ger wallen-is. Yedder-iten ama akken di targit, yerra-ten-id ùer deffir a ten-iwali yiwen yiwen akken ur s-yettensar wacemma degsen, u daùen akken ad yekkes aùwbel t-tidett ayen iµeddan fellas. Ssebt tameddit : Deg wexxam i yella Furulu, assen i s-d-wwôen cwi§ ice§§iden-is imaynuten. Deg uùerbaz bùan a t-sersen ad yeggan din, babas yugi, acku ilaq ad ixellleî, idrimen ulac a§as. Yewqeµ Êemdan. Lqut
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maáái d aùwbel. I yiôes ? Yella si leµôil usensu, maca ad yeskef akk cwi§ uîurdi nni yellan. D tawaùit. Ad yeúú mmis di temdint weûdes, ur yesµi lwali ur yessin yiwen ? D awezùi. A d-yerôel ayen i wakken ad iqbel taluft n tguni n mmis ? Terwi. U yernu anemhal n lakul yennayas-d d win kan i d ixef-is. Lûed taîebûit : Ddunit am lmeîbaû, tettaù txetti. Tuù-d ùer Furulu deg wudem yedhen sser n Aµzir. Aµzir t-tizya-s, nat Wegni. Deg uùerbaz i ùer a yekcem Furulu i deg i yeqqar. Yesla s Furulu fkan-as-d taggazt yusa-d ùures ùer Tizi ad iqeîîer yides. D acaµlal, d azemêaq u yezga wudem-is yecreh, yeôsa, maáái d win mi yekres wenyir. Ur yezzi ur yenniô deg wawal : - Ula d nek am keá, i s-yenna i Furulu, Aqli deg uùerbaz n Tizi Wezzu anda akken tserseô iman-ik. Din i qqareù. £er yiwet n temda i ngerr iman nneù. Ma tebùiô an-nedukkul akken, aµyiù weûdi. Aqlaù deg yiwet n tmurt an-nemwanas meqqar. Yebùa ad yemmeù ùer temgar§-is Furulu, a s-dyemûilleq. Waqila yusa-d win a yefsin tiyersi ? send a dyen§eq Furulu win yerna-yas-d : - Baba maáái d ameêkanti akken ad yernu ameîruf n tguni inu di lakul. Yella di Tizi Wezzu yiwen wexxam mi qqaren tuùôat. Yezga-d kan ùer rrif n uùerbaz. Tta§afen din arrac igellilen d-iîubben deg wedrar akken ad ùren. Nek din i zedùeù. Azal n tlatin yidneù i nella. Hedêeù-asen fellak. £urneù taxxamt, §§abla, ikersiyen d sin yem§erûen. Yal îîbeû ttaken-aù-d tacrift akked weùrum. U yernu annect-a yakk ba§el. D ayen ur nkeááem deg wallaù. Aµzir yesfehma-sd belli win ye§fen tuùôat d argaz bu lxir, yettûami igellilen am wemêabeô uêumi. Yal tameddit a ten-id-
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yessemlil ùer yiwet n tzeqqa a sen-d-yemmeslay ùef ddin, ùef ttrebga. Itelli-yasen allen nnsen ùef ddunit, lûaîun, yemmal-asen iberdan yelhan. Yefreû Furulu, d lemziyya tameqrant. Imiren kan yeqbel. Yuùal yenna-yas-d Aµzir s wacu a yeglu (lqec, idrimen, idlisen), mi s-d-ihedder, furulu yunag wallaù-is. Fkan ttiµad i wzekka nni di tafrara. Syen yerra s axxam a d-iheggi ayen a yawi. Yekkes taµkumt i babas mi s-yessaweô asal $ef i wer yebni. Êemdan, di tama-s, bessif i yumen ayen s-diûekku mmis. D leµúeb ! Êebbi wer yeúúi yiwen ! Letnayen taîebûit : Send tmanya i §§fen abrid. Yerkeb Furulu di tkeêêust i tikkelt tamezwarut ! T-targit neù t-tidett ? Yerra qbala ùer lakul, mebla ma yµedda ùer mas Lambert, aqerru n wexxam n tuùôat. µarqent-as ger wannecten n warrac. Ur yeµqil ara iman-is. Yelsa akustim am wiyaô akk. Send ad kecmen ùer lakul, acku qqimen deg umêaû ttawin ttarran, yusa-d ùures Aµzir iîeggem-as takraba§-is, netta yessen... Yiwen ur s-d-igir tamawt. Yedduri tacda§ n wemdakkel-is. Tikwal tettali-t-id tezweù s udem-is mebla sseba. Yeggugem, yugi a t-id-yali wawal. Kra n warrac xemsen yides, sseddan-t-id mi xemsen i Aµzir. Mi kecmen ùer tzeùwa qqimen ad ùren, allen-is berqent, yesmusul akka n wakka. Ddmen-d warrac tikaêniyin ula d netta yeddem-d, llin idlisen iga am nutni, §§afaren ayen d-teqqar tcixett ula d netta yesmeûsis, ayen xeddmen akk iµuned-iten, iûun Êebbi, yiwen ur s-ifaq. Yiwen ur t-id iwala ddaw ti§. Ssaµa tamezwarut tmerret-it. Yeqbeê, maáái d wagi i d amviqis. Ahbuh ! I keá a yameksa lakul agi s §§iqan n djaj, s §wabel timaynutin yettberriqen ? I keá tezdeg agi a ykukru bab-is a tt-yessimes ? £ef ddemma-k i d-tusa tcixett inna tuzyint yettmeslayen s ttawil, s yiles aâidan, yessefhamen s wecmumeû, yesteqsayen s lemqadra?
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Tuklaleô tiùimit ger warrac nni s lqec nnsen azedgan, amaynut, s leûdaqa nnsen ? Tetti ddunit ùef Furulu, a stiniô t-tukerôa i d-yuker amôiq-is garasen. Allen n Aµzir, tikwal ma d-rsent fellas, s tmuùli nni ines tacmamaût, qqarent-as-d wer ttaggad. Acûal teûma tmuùli nni ! Ayen meqqret lemziyya n Aµzir ! £ef lµecra, mi d-ffùen cwi§ ùer wemraû, yettenkaâ degs ukukru s-icudden imi. Sumata, ass amezwaru, ûedqen akk warrac garasen. Ma wid ur neqqar yides ur t-id-walan ara yakk, amzun ulacit, wiyaô – kra degsen – ttnecraûen yides akken a t-id sne§qen : Wa yesmesxir akken a t-id-yesseôs, wayeô yerra iman-is yessefhamm-d am akken txededem tcixett, ma d yiwen yessefruy am deg umezgun. Ááuren-as akk ti§ i Furulu, iûemmel-iten meêêa. Yettwali iman-is meââi garasen, yezder, d ulac. Yeûqer iman-is ! £ef leûdac, dduklen netta d Aµzir. Ffùen ùer beêêa ááan-d imekli lexmis, aôebsi n lba§a§a, aksum d sin ifarrawen n claôa, T-tameùra ùures ! maca d aneµruô kan i yeµreô, ur yelluâ ara. Yerwa lferû. £ef rrebµa t-tirza ùer mas Lembert. D argaz ameqran, lqedd-is yebded, ma yleûûu a s-tiniô d aµsekriw. Terna-yas lhiba tamart-is, snernan-as ccan imeslayen-is uwzinen. D îîwab i d-tefùen di taùect nni ines tazurant, d nniya i d-yettfuêêun deg wudem-is, d leûnana i d-yettaùen di tmuùli-s. Tuggdin n tazwara ttetti d laman. A s-taùeô awal m’ur d ak-yehwi, at-tedduô yides m’ur tebùiô. Ak-idel s tiâet n yiles-is a s-tefkeô “aâuùer”. Yal aqcic di lakul yeâra taµkumt iµebba. Ââayet, ladùa ma tteâmaden agus imawlan-is akken ur s-yettak ara wul-is ad yessedrem asirem n wid yetteklen fellas. Ma d wid yellan ùer Mas Lembert maáái akken i ttwalin tamsalt. Nutni ùursen yiwen weùbel : fellasen a s-ddun di lebùi. Ma uùen-as awal, ddan-as di lebùi, yellez yissen ulamek a
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nneùnin imawlan n weqcic. Ye§§ef amôiq n ccix-is, n babas, n wemdakkel-is n wurar i kra n win “d-yeggujlen” ùures. Yeááur-as ti§ i Furulu u ters fellas nniya-s : - d keá i d Furulu ? - Ih. - Iheôr-iyi-d fellak Aµzir. Yides a tzedùeô di texxamt. Attan thegga. At-tuùaleô at-tennameô axxam agi nneù. Asmuncef xa§i ! Yak ur ttesseô ara ddexxan meqqar? - Xa§i. - Igerrez. Heôr-iyi-d kan cwi§ ùef at wexxam nnwen. Yemmeslay-as-d Furulu ùef ayen akk iwala deg wexxam nnsen : amek ttidiren, d acu i sµan d wayen i tenixuîîen. Yefhem Mas Lembert belli yeùli-yas umeùbun nniôen ùer irebbi. Anef ! - Tesµiô taggazt, t-tin i d îîeû. Ilaq-ak at-tûeêceô akken ur k-tt-tekksen ara. Imdukal-ik meêêa wwin-d iman nnsen. £urek ha ! - Ih. - Dagi, at-tuùaleô d askuti. - Ih, i s-yenna Furulu mebla ma yxemmem. - At-tuùaleô at-teâreô d acu-t sya ùer zdat. S wawal aâidan i msefêaqen. Deg wassenni yuùal Furulu d aµeggal n twacult n “Nat Lembert”. Yers-d liser! Tameddit nni a§as n yeskutiyen i d-yemlal, iqesseê yidsen, yufa-ten ur d iriten ara. Atan amek yezri wass amezwaru. Send ad ye§§es yerra-t-id ùer deffir am usaru. Yefreû, yeûmed Êebbi. M’ur d-yemmekti yara a§as gmas, yessetmas d imawlanis, Akli, amdakkel-is n temâi yerra-t-id ger wallen-is, yeúúa-t-in d ameksa di tmurt. Ma d netta, Furulu...
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Axxan n tuùôat n Mass Lembert yezga-d di tama ufella n temdint, anagar abrid i t-yebôan d uùerbaz. Idisan-is ùursen azal n settin n lmitrat. Deg yiwet n teùmert tella tnezduùt n bab-is, ùer tama-s d lúamaµ iêumyen, t-tazeqqa tameqrant. Tixxamin n warrac §§fent yiwen yidis : setta ukessar, setta usawen. Tesµa yiwet n lûara yettuâerben, yiwet n tebûirt yettuûerzen nezzeh, yiwet n temda yentellen, sin yeµricen d snat n tseddaêin. Atan wexxam deg i yesµedda Furulu d wemdakkel-is Aµzir rebµa isegwasen ; Dagi i stumnen i lxedma nnsen u mecûen tiâe§ n wayen d-megren, dagi i teâda tdukli garasen, tin mi wer yezmir wakud a tticeqqeq acku temsel s lemqadêa u tedhen s leûmala tafessast. Ur iµe§§el ara Furulu yezwi ùef tuyat-is timûeqranit iµebba s ufus-is, tin s-yeskawen ifadden u syettlen iles. Yesfeô deg wallaù-is tikti ssi yessezder imanis ger yemdukal-is. Degmi ten-iwala maáái d wid “yessafagen taùuri“, ixeddem s lmul almi d-yewwi imanis. Yeûêes iman-is am netta am wemdakkel-is Aµzir ur ten-iùaô ara lûal, ur sen-§§ifen ara taûsift, âran maáái d rregmat. Úúan-ten nnan ; deg yimir ufan lehna. Yal ass n lûed teddun d mass Lembertg ùer teâgi ttelmaden amek a qqlen d iskutiyen. Furulu yewhem, amek argaz ameqran am agi yettôeggir lweqt-is di temsal am tigi ur nesµi lmaµna ? £ef akka yettwali, ula d imeksawen n wedrar d iskutiyen ur ârin iman nnsen ! Ayen yeµnan iîudaf n tsekkutit, ur tesµiô a sen-dtessukseô. Askuti n tidett ùures azal. Di tazwara, Furulu d wemdakkel-is ûman, iµúeb-iten lûal, maca cwi§ cwi§ qqlen fsin ladùa mi faqen §§uqtent tkerkas di kra n yeskutiyen tt-yettarran i wkellex d nnûas. Di taggara
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tufùa n wass n lûed tettas-ed sennig wul. Râaget u ââayet ùer sin imesdurar nni. Werúin nudan a d-ifriren. D lakul kan i d aùbel nnsen. Mass Lembert ifaq-asen, maca ur ten-yeûêis ara, ur sen-yenni yara ad xedmen nnig tezmert nnsen. Imi tgerrez tikli nnsen yellez. Ur xeddmen ara s lmul ula timeddiyin m’ara mlilen d warrac nniôen di tzeqqa nni rran d lúamaµ iêumyen. Êwaû zgan ttêuûun, qqaren-d am yemdukal nnsen yiwet n tîurett, cennun am nitni, ttaken tameââuùt maca mi d-fùen kan syin qbala ùer texxamt nnsen ad gren iqerray nnsen deg yedlisen t-tkaêniyin. Ula d yibbas ur ten-iwala yiwen rran s Amrabeô Uêumi a sen-d-yefk ddeµwa n lxir, neù a t-steqsin a sen-d-yessefru taîurett. S lferû i d-yessefham mass Lembert timsal n ddin i wid dyettasen ùures, llan kra degsen seg ul, kra teddun-as di lebùi i wemùar. Aµzir d Furulu ur ten-yeâri ula d abrid usan-d, nsern-as, ifaq ur ten-id-yettawi yara yides. Tadukli nnsen terna kra yellan, ur yezmir yiwen a tenyebôu. Ur smaµêiqen, ur kêihen ddin Iêumyen ur yezdiù kra n ddùel deg ulawen nnsen. D lakul nnsen kan i tenyerûan. Seg wakken zgan ttêuûun ùer tâallit, tkeááem leûnana n ddin deg ulawen nnsen. Wwôen almi lemden nnesxa iêumyen am aman. Tikwal ma ttdekkiêen weûedsen yettaµúab-iten lûal, ttawin-d icewwiqen deg i d-ttaddren µissa. Ttâallan s tufra, tikwal, am akken xedmen yemdukal nnsen. Sennig taùuri nnsen ulac i yesµan azal ger wallennnsen. Zedùen di tuùôat akken ad afen iman nnsen, ad ùren di liser. Lebùi nnsen §§fen degs, asirem nnsen meqqer. Sµeddan tanubit nnsen, si xemse§§ac almi d tmen§ac iseggasen, ur msebôan. Zzgan am iôudan n ufus. D isegwasen nni n tnubit i ymettlen argaz, d wid i d lemri n tmeddit n wemdan. Deg uzal atnan di lakul, tameddit
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mi d-fùen ùer wemrabeô Uêumi kfan taâallit ttarran ùer texxamt. Qqaren ùer teftilt alma d lµecra, acku di tuùôat snusuyen tiftilin lawan nni, syin ad ssiùen tacemmaµt ad µiwzen ùer tafat-is akked yedlisen nnsen alma d azgen n yiô neù ugar. Tikwal tettifrir-d tafat nitni ur teqqin ti§ nnsen, sellan-as, ùer yiwet n taddart nnigsen, i ccix n lúamaµ m’ara d-yadan ccix. Awah ! Uôan n tegrest ad asen-ccfun ! Tasusmi tdel axxam, teùli-d am buberrak. Ala aôu yettsuôun di beêêa d ugeffur yekkaten i wumi ara a tselleô. Ddunit meêêa te§§es ! Ger cqayeq n §§aq teffùen-d kra izigen n tafat di texxamt nnsen. T-tacemmaµt i yreqqen. Nutni qqimen, mqabalen, nnôen deg yebranyas, tikaêniyin d yedlisen zdatsen. Yiwen ur yettmeslay i wayeô. Dhan i sin di tùuri. ttnaùen d yiman nnsen akken ur ten-irennu yara naddam. Arrac imeùban feclen : allen teqnent, lecfar ââayit, iqerra cuffen. Seqven deg yemdukal nnsen ttyewwten d iôes. £as akken ur fkin taqejjirt ùer deffir. Rebµa iseggasen meêêa, nutni d amerret. Weroin êuûen ùer lakul mebla ma lemden ayen sen-d-yefka ccix, neù mebla ma tteklen ùef yiman nnsen. Asmi yewweô Furulu s aùerbaz amagnu, anda ur yeûwaú ara ad ineù iman-is di tùuri, ifaq belli, kra n teswiµin, imaûûen di rrayaµ u t-tikli iôegger tadawsa ines di µawaz. Nnig ameûûen êwan di tùuri nnsen, tteâmaden agu u ttcuûun ùef t-µabbaô nnsen. Ibùun weîîin yedlisen ùef tdawsa, ùef lqut lµali, ùef wayen i ylaq a t-yeáá ilemâi akken ad yawi iri, ad yimùur u ad yuzur ufud-is, ur senikeááem sya ur sen-iteffeù sya. Lqut nnsen n yal ass d lba§ata, êaca lba§ata ! Uùen-d aricu, sebbwayen di texxamt. Lba§ata teshel i wsebwi u bninet. Ayen ttiûemmel Furulu ! Maca, akken µeddan sin iseggasen, limmer yettaf ur t-yettwali yara. Ma d Aµzir, ma
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temmugremt-id yibbwas, addert-as-d awal n lba§ata atteârem “tameùra” a wen-ig ! Tikwal i wakken ad beddlen imekli, tetten di berra lqut asemmaô. Azgen n weùrum di sin yidsen rennun-as asafar si zrrin yess d-ttaùen s µecra neù xemse§§ac n duru. Di tmen§ac n alef d-tta§afen yal aggur, yal yiwen yettûerif degsent tmanya alaf. µecra alaf nniôen d-iggarrin ttaken-tent s axxam. Tikwal akka, Öemvan d dda Muûend, babas n Aµzir, rezzun-d fellasen u gganen ùursen. Ferûen di sin d warraw nnsen imi ttcuûun, ûerrzen, ur llin d wid mi qqeêsen leúyub. Ladùa Êemdan yellez nezzeh. Di taddart ala ayen yelhan i ttmeslayen ùef Furulu. Ziùen lakul ur isekkef ara idrimen, ur itett ara di texri§ n Êemdan maca tallalt n mmis di ccùel txuî-it, ur yufi wukud a d-yemûami ddunit. Ula t-tayuga n yezgaren terna-t, ur yezmir ara a tt-iqam, yewweô almi tt-yezzenz, yelha-d ûaca t-tferkiwin. Deg unebdu, ma d-yawi tesriû Furulu, ttµuzzun-t deg wexxam, yettbuddu-t Êemdan xir n wakken ttbuddun wiyaô arraw nnsen imeksawen : Afenúal n tecrift yal îîbeû, seksu n ssmid ur tiswiµin yettenfaq-ed i lmend-is. At wexxam stumnen i lqut nni aâidan, ufan ùers, nnumen-t, ma t-taµzzult tettafeg. Asmi d-yewweô lawan i deg a yessµeddi Furulu di lezzayer, iseyyef lûal babas a d-yerôel akken a s d-yaù akustim u a s-yernu cwi§ umesêuf. Di tazwara, ikukra Êemdan ad yerhen tazemmurt neù snat almi ymeyyez yufa belli s yedrimen nni, ahat, ar a yessufeù leµtab n mmis ùer tafat ur t-ùaôent ara. Yerna kra n wagguren yeùli-yas-d umesêuf yuùal s are§§al nni. Teqqel-as t-tannumi. Yeµya deg umerret, ùlin ifadden-is, yebra i yman-is umeùbun ; Ddunit ûercawet, netta yekkaw. Di taggara, yesnefsusuy taµkumt n twacult s-yuùalen t-taâayant s ure§§al. Ibub
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§§laba am teµrurt. S ilaµôil, ar d-yas lawan, att-yesres ùef tuyat tileqqaqin n Furulu.
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-VIIDi lawan i deg imedukal deg i yeqqar lhan-d d ucebbaû akked zzhu t-tullas, Furulu yerra ddehn-is ûaca i tùuri ines. Lûif deg i xbabôen at wexxam nnsen ur s-yelli di labal. £ef se§§ac iseggasen yetturar s ddunit-is akw ttmeddit-is s tusnakt. Yettùiôi-t lûal, itett-it wul-is u yetta§af taûsift. Ááan tasa-s warraw n taddart-is ur nettkil ara fellas akked wid yeskaµriren ùef twacult-is. Yekfa aseggas-is amezwaru n tùuri di Tizi Wezzu, anda d-yewwi iman-is nezzeh, aqrib t-id-s§axren. Kksen-as taggazt, yiwen ur yeâri ayùer. Anemhal yurúa aggur, sin, ur d-yewwiô wacemma. Di taggara n Dujember yessufeù-d meêêa wid i wumi ur d-tusi taggazt-is. Yers-d leûzen deg wexxam n Êemdan amzun t-tan§elt. Aúabi n yedrimen i wakken ad yuùal weqcic ùer lakul, ad yesnerni di tùuri ines, ùas ur tid-ttader ara ! Yiwen ur t-id-igir ger wallen-is. Meêêa nnan-as belli Furulu dayen ad yeûbes, yidneù a yeqqim, taggara-s t-tayessawt. Sseqôen-t-id umeùbun, ma t-tura ilaq-as ad yelli allen-is ad iwali tidett am lemri. Akken kan a yµaddi umenzu n Yennayer, ad yekfu tesriû, ad bdun di taddart tiyita di Furulu, anda ar a yeddu a t-ôefren s uôad. Yugad dayen ñxemmimen attaddart a s-d-yeôrun. S tufra i yettru umeùbun, ur yezmir a d-yeffeù ùer beêêa, isetûa am win mi d-ssuksen. U yernu maáái t-tiûeêci ur yeûêic ara mi t-id-s§axren, d adrim i yulaûed. Yeggul-asen uemhal di lakul ar d ad yaru ùer lezzayer, yenna-yasen-d belli t-tatut kan a yettun neù d aµraq i µerqen. Amek, ad kksen taggazin i warrac meêêa ? D lmuûal ! Maca w’izemren a sen-d-yessefhem akka di taddart ?
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Ddurt nni n tesriû, yessµadda-tt meêêa Furulu di Tizi Wezzu. Ur yebùi ad iâer yiwen. Wid t-idyettmagaren smuùbunen yess, ala win a s yinin aûlil. Yeááa-t wul-is. D acu tebùiô ! “Imawlan îebren, immµazzan kefren”. Win mi yêuû a d-yessefhem belli ur t-id-s§axren ara di lakul, t-taggazt i yµe§len ur d-tewwiô ara, ussan agi kan a s tt-id-rren, ad yetthuccu aqerru-s. Yiwen yugi a s-d-yefk tameââuùt. Am win ice§ûen i wderùal. Ttaááaren-t-d wallen-is d ime§§awen s wurfan, ttarran-t t-taôsa. - Fkan-ak-d rrkel a mmis n Êemdan, ah ! Ggranak-d wussan akk t-ùe§§en am nekkni ! - Rrúut kan at-teârem m’ur uùaleù ara! - S werhan n tferka n babak ma yefka Êebbi ? - I keá tuqµa-k-d ? Dacu a k-id-yegren ? - Aûlil a mmi ! Ad yili Êebbi yidek. I wakken a dtûamiô babak atan yekfa, a t-tzelluô s yiccer. Ula d babas tenquqel-as nniya, yendem mi dyenjer i mmis abrid ur nessufuù, abrid d-yettuâerben i win yellan d igellil. Ussan n-yeqqim Furulu di Tizi râagit. Yezga yexêeb wudem-is. Imeââuùen-is ddubzen deg mennan, tettquddur tasa-s mi ywala tismin izedùen medden. Tuùalas ddunit t-taberkant, uùalen-as akk lùaci am qedêan. Ur yufi d acu a s-yekksen lxiq. Cwi§ cwi§ yuùal ifaq belli tismin nni nat taddart, tukêin nnsen, taôsa nni nnsen tasellawt kkant-ed seg wakken tteklen fellas, umnen s lakul ines u taggara kra din yeddem-it waôu, kra din ur diban. £illen yewweô-d lawan i deg a d-yerfed at Musa, a ten-id-yessufeù deg udaynin ùer tùerùert, a ten-id-yssukes deg umejêiw, a sen-yesfeô lûif, Ziùen… Asmi d-tusa di Tizi Wezzu tebratt d-yeglan s usal n lµali, tuùal-it-id teêwiût, iûar ad yuùal ùer lakul. Yeggul
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ar d ineù d iman-is alma yrebû-ed. Tenna-yas yemmas ad ssufùeù lwaµda i tqubbett n taddart, maca netta yeâra maáái d lwaµda a s d-yellin tibbura neù a t-yessiwôen ùer lebùi-s. Ûaca dderµ-is, anagar tamusni-s ar a t-iwansen. M’akken ttelmaden yemkukal-is isefra n tayri, netta yettruâu aqerru-s deg wid sen-d-yettak ccix, yettelmaditen am aman. M’ara d-yekker a ten-id-iùer, yettùawal u yettµeggiô di lbidal a ten-id-iùer s taùect ûlawen i seniwulmen, s ttawil, ladùa ccix a d-isuù fellas, a t-id-yerr s abrid, Furulu ad yenneùni, ad yekres anyir-is ad yessusem. Ur yeâri Furulu amek a yexdem i wakken a dyessukes imarrawen-is deg waluô deg xnunsen, di lûif ten-izelfen. Akken yebùu yili, ur s-yefki yara wul-is ad yefcel, yeâra belli “W’ibùan ad yùellet yefk laµtab i ufusis”, dderk yefka-t, ma d aùellet ilaq ad iùellet i yebùun yeôru. Asmi d-yerbeû, tawacult-is twala belli ur iôegger ara Êebbi tidi-s, ula d at taddart faqen belli maáái i wurar i wumi tt-yerra. £as akkenni irebû-ed yegguni-t uzazwer, acku asirem n Furulu d anekcum s aùerbaz amagnu akken a d-yeffeù d ccix. Yal aseggas, deg unebdu, yettas-ed ùer tmurt. Tessusuf-it-id temdint s adrar, netta itezzi-yas s weµrur itettu-tt. Tjebbed-it taddart cwi§ cwi§ : tajmaµt, lqahwa, tizyiwin-is akked ccùel n lexla ttaran-t d amessedrar. M’ara yekfu tesêiû, a s-tiniô maáái d win n-yeúúan tamdint i yuùalen ùures, yettaµraq ula i warrac deg i yeqqar, acku amzun akken yessenîel taglimt-is, sneclen-t izilan u tesseùr-it lxedma. Yeggra-yas-d i Furulu yiwen useggas. D aseggasis aneggaru deg uùerbaz ! Yuùal a t-id-yernu. Lûala nat wexxam nnsen rqiqet, werúin ten-terni ddunit am webrid agi, tessaûnunef-iten. Di taddart yuù-ed leqdeê s ufus-is,
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maáái d aqcic nni n zik. Tamsalt yellan yettcawaê-it fellas babas ; agraw d-yegren ssawalen-as-d leµmum-is d xwalis a s-yeûdeê, tibratin mi swaµren medden ùures i dttasen. A§as i s-d-ûekkun tamedêurt nnsen, yettak-asen lµaqliyya-s, tamusni-s. Ssulin-as azal, rnan-as ccan, netta ur yessemùar ara iman-is. Limmer d lebùi-k a yul ad yaf tayett i ùer a ysenned, win a t-iweîîin, a s-yesnefsusi taµkumt, a s-d-yefken êêay-is a yeôfer s tuqna n wallen. Limmer yufi a d-yelhu kan d weùbel-is, d lakul-is. Send ad ye§§ef abrid-is, yenna-yas babas : - Êuû a mmi, a k-d-yelli Êebbi tibbura n lxir. A kyawi Êebbi d webrid. Ááurent-ed wallen n yemmas d ime§§awen mi temsalam yides, tesself-as i wudem-is, temûalleq-as, tefreû yess. Iban yi§ij uzal. Imarrawen-is ur cukken ara degs. Tteklen, uùen tannumi, mmitsen a d-yerbeû taùuri ines am laµwayed-is. Tikkelt agi, âran daùen a ten-idyessefreû. Netta ùures lexbar limmer a s-yenser uzazwar asegwas-a, tibbura uùerbaz amagnu ad medlent fellas, ur s-ttanef ara a s-yales qabel acku yessaweô di laµmeê. Ilaqas daùen ad yeûêes iman-is. Ur sent-d-tus ara di lbal i ymarrawen-is belli ma yexîer tikkelt-a a tt-id-yeáá di Fêansa. Anebdu iµeddan meêêa ùef wannect-a i yettxemmim. Din tella lxedma, wamma ma yeqqim di Lezzayer yewqaµ ger sin iberdan : ad yuùal d ccix, atan yekfa Êebbi ùef imawlan-is lûif, m’ulac a tt-yerr i tyessawt, ayen yeùra ad iêuû am waman n wedfel. Simmal zerrin wussan yettban-as-d uzazwar i Furulu am uwaùziw, yeswaµr-it. Simmal yeqqar yettefcal? Yettmeyyiz weûdes asmi a d-yas ùer taddart deg unebdu i d-teddun, s yedlisen ur ten-nfiµ, a t-idtemmager yemmas s ime§§i babas s wudem n lmegget.
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£as yemmas at-tettru at-teqqel a s-tsuref, ma d babas a tent-yaù ùer daxel ad yeqbeê. Lùaci nniôen a d-sqeôµen iles nnsen ùer ttiha sennig tamuùli nnsen n ddaw ti§. Tiswiµin yeyyal-it-id lûamu yettaáar wul-is d asirem. Yettuùal-it-id êêuû : £ef tayett-is i d-senden at wexxam nnsen, fellas i tebna tmeddit nnsen, ger ifassen-is i tella tifrat iùeblan nnsen. Akka i yettwali tamsalt ddurt send ass n wessµaddi. Isub-d babas ùer Tizi Wezzu, yewwiyas-d cwi§ n yedrimen i wmesêuf-is di Lezzayer. Mi d lawan ad yali ùer taddart, iwunes-it Furulu almi d anda a yerúu akamyun a d-iµeddin a t-yawi. - Di Lezzayer a t-ssµaddim, i s-yenna babas, yernu a§as yidwen i tellam. Ad fernen kan kra garawen. Yettiki zzheê, teâriô ? Keá a t-tîubbeô ùer Lezzayer, nekkni deg wedrar a k-nerúu. a d-tuùaleô s axxam xas ur d-terbiûeô ara. Err di labal-ik belli i yebùun yili, aµzizeô fellaneù. U yernu, yella w’izemren a k-yekkes ayen teùriô? Tura nek ad aliù s axxam. A s-iniù i yemmak belli nemâer. A seniniù daùen belli ur tugadeô ara. - £as kkes-asen ùef wul iwsawen, in-asen ur ugadeù ara.
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Amawal : Addud Attitude Afna Adversaire Agacur Hasard Agim Mille Agul, pl. igulen Erreur Ahanay Spectacle Ahareg Gymnastique Akayad Examen Akerdis, pl. ikerdisen Triangle Alameù Luxe Allal Moyen (N.M) Amagnu Normale A$erbaz amagnu école normale Amaras Candidat reõu Amarraw, pl. imarrawen Parent Amenzay Principe Amerray Touriste Amerwas Dette, devoir Amejjay Medecin Ameââul Logique Amkuâ, pl. imkuâen Carré Amrig, pl. imrigen Arme Amyag Verbe Amâiw Monstre Anamek Sens, explication. Asaô, pl. isaôen Héros Aseklu Arbre Aselkim Certificat Asentel Thème Aswir, pl. Iswiren Niveau
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Mouloud Feraoun ilul ass n 12 mars 1913 di Tizi-Hibel (At Dwala). Di 1946, Feraoun yu$al d aselmad di Tewrirt Musa mbaed mi d-yeffe$ deg u$erbaz n Buzariâa. Di 1952, Yu$al d anemhal n u$erbaz n Larba nat Iraten. Di 1957, Feraoun yeffe$ si tmurt n Leqbayel, iôuê ar Lezzayer anda yeîîef a$erbaz Nador di ClosSalembier. Ger wayen yura Mouloud Feraoun : Mmmis n igellil, Akal d yidim, Iberdan yessawnen, Ussan di tmurt, a$mis 55-62, Tibratin i yemddukal-is, Amuli. Yettwan$a Feraoun s ôûaû n l’OAS netta akked xemsa yemddukal-is ass n 15 mars 1962.
Mouloud Feraoun ilul ass n 12 mars 1913 di Tizi-Hibel (At Dwala). Di 1946, Feraoun yu$al d aselmad di Tewrirt Musa mbaed mi d-yeffe$ deg u$erbaz n Buzariâa. Di 1952, Yu$al d anemhal n u$erbaz n Larba nat Iraten. Di 1957, Feraoun yeffe$ si tmurt n Leqbayel, iôuê ar Lezzayer anda yeîîef a$erbaz Nador di Clos-Salembier. Ger wayen yura Mouloud Feraoun : Mmmis n igellil, Akal d yidim, Iberdan yessawnen, Ussan di tmurt, a$mis 55-62, Tibratin i yemddukal-is, Amuli. Yettwan$a Feraoun s ôûaû n l’OAS netta akked xemsa yemddukal-is ass n 15 mars 1962.